Christmas

So Christmas is coming very quickly and just as quickly I am slipping......I am really having a hard time right now. I don't know what it is...I just can't find it in me to get moving or not eat sweets. So I am going to take  a quick blogging break for the rest of Christmas.....I hope you will all hang in there and I will see you when I come back on the 27th with some pictures of Grace =) I hope you all have an amazing Christmas!

Weekend

I am again struggling this weekend. I have not been tracking and to be honest.....I don't really want to. I have not been focused since my WI on Thursday. I baked Thursday night for my husbands work party and then on Friday I had my work party. My dad looked after Grace for me so I could go. The lunch was at my favorite most amazing italian restaurant. I decided before I went that I wasn't going to go crazy and I was going to get exactly what I want. I did - I have to say that I actually did quite good. I had a bun I probably didn't need but they are so good with the fresh whipped butter. I don't go here often (maybe 3 o 4 times a year) and I was going to enjoy it. I made sure when I found myself kind of picking to have it wrapped right up. I left feeling full but not disgusting.

Today I have kind of grazed my way through the day...not a good thing but not terrible either. Tomorrow we have 2 open houses. This shouldn't be a bad thing because I can snack on a lot of veggies. I am quite a picky eater and find alot of the time it's the only thing I like. I am making a plan for the rest of the week to keep me on track before Christmas. I think from Wednesday on we have somewhere to be just about every night. I will need to eat really clean at home. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow morning so I can stock up on lots of fruits and veggies. I am cooking Christmas dinner again this year and I think I have finally got it down to not have too much stuff on the table - we don't need that much food, just keep it simple. I am so excited for Grace's first Christmas!

Lucky

Well I got off lucky today. I was down .6, I am going to have to get my act back together so I don't end up with a gain next week. I am not a huge fan of the leader at the meeting I am going to - I really didn't find her knowledgeable and she didn't seem to really listen. It was like her mind was somewhere else. I will try and get something out of these meeting but I will definitely be going back to my old meeting in the New Year.

We had so much fun at the train last night and Grace was just engrossed with all the lights. She just stared and it was so cute! I can't wait to go back next year and see what she thinks. Every week she gets to be a little more fun and a little more exciting! I can't wait until she really starts crawling! Right now she rolls a lot, no crawling.

So I don't really have much else to say.....talk to you tomorrow! 

Lessons

I learned a lesson yesterday in my weight loss journey. I can no longer have diet pop.....it causes something in my body or brain that makes me want to eat sweets....I cut way back last week and then on the weekend I had a couple and it was like I couldn't stop! It is now all out of my house and it is going to stay that way. If I want to have one it will be a real one from now on, it doesn't seem to have the same effect. It was like it took control over what I was eating. Last week I ate very clean and felt great, this week I was looking for snack foods all the time. I wanted chocolate and chips and just sugary stuff in general. I have been told many times that it's not good for me and I knew it wasn't great but I felt like I needed it, now I know that I don't. Big lesson for me.

I did not get in any activity - I think this is also linked to the diet pop, it was like it stole my energy or motivation. I can't remember if I mentioned that I am changing my WI until the end of the year to Thursday - that means WI tomorrow and I am a little nervous after my eating this week. it hasn't been perfect and my WI is moved up from Saturday. Fingers crossed that it isn't terrible =S

I just want to say congratulations to Darci and her husband, I can't wait to read all about the changes in their lives!

Busy, busy, busy

Okay, so I tried to do this first thing this morning but I got a call from my mom to come into work (I work with my mom) as an emergency. I don't go back to work until April 15 but they were desperate as 2 of the people from my old department are away and that left only my mom who is a part time entry person. So I went in for 1 1/2 hours to do what I could for them but now I am tired. I have to take Grace with me when I do this and it's so much work to make sure she is happy and that I am able to get something done. My eating has not been perfect so far today but good considering. I tried to pan ahead but I didn't have much time as I was working around naps.

I did  good at dinner last night, I did have a cupcake and sadly it wasn't very good. Not really worth it but what do you do.....

I also got a very nice award from Diet Chic. Thank you, thank you, thank! I will be working on this tomorrow!

Back on Track

So this morning I got up starving and had a banana before I fed my daughter. When that was all done I had my corn flakes - I love corn flakes! and you can have 1 1/4 cups for just 3 PointsPlus! (before milk). I did my morning routine and now that Grace is napping upstairs I went down and did my DVD and some Wii Fit. It had been 333 days since I had last used it. I was pregnant and it told me I was obese so I wouldn't go back on it...it made me sad.

Today's plan is to go to the mall and pick up the tickets for Bright Nights in Stanley Park (a train ride while the whole park is covered in lights). We are going with both sets of our parents on Wednesday night and I am really looking forward to starting some real Christmas traditions. I also have to pick up one last small gift or a lady in hubby's office and then I am really DONE! I just need to start wrapping.
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My chat with hubby really seemed to work, he even got up at 5:45 to change Grace's diaper! That was a nice surprise =) Tonight we are off to my SIL to be's parents for a little birthday celebration for her. It'll be fun getting together with all of them - Grace is very intrigued by her dad. She just stare at him! Well I am off for now - have a great day!

Eek!

So I will not receive an A for effort this weekend. I was really happy with myself until about dinner on Saturday. I made sure I got a walk in and made a good lunch and then it jut went downhill from there. We ordered pizza and I had it all planned out. I would have been fine if I had stuck to my plan but I was for some reason really hungry and went over board.....We then went out and I indulged a little bit more. Our hosts had quite the spread and I wasn't even tempted until the put out the chocolate covered cheesecake bites. I had 2 and they were so good! I was proud that I was able to walk away after that. I tracked everything I ate and I even had some Weekly Points left over until lunch today. We were at the mall and I indulged again....some poutine. I don't even know why. I then had some cookies at my parents. I managed to pull it together for dinner but now I am WAY over for the week. I don't know why I always fall apart on the weekend.....I spoke with hubby about how I was feeling and I am happy to say that he was extremely receptive and I have already noticed him pitching in more and whining less =) I am also happy to report that we finally put up our Christmas tree! We had it up but not decorated - now we are all decorated and I feel really Christmassy - I even got the hubby to listen to Christmas music (I spike his hot chocolate).

My SS classes are finished until the New Year so I am going to be doing my Turbo Kick DVD for the next few weeks. I am really looking forward to getting into it. I have been doing other things the last few weeks and it has gotten away from me. My daughter still takes some of her naps in her swing, I have moved it upstairs from the basement so I can do the DVD while she takes her nap - I prefer to have no interruptions when I am working out. I don't like pausing the DVD all the time - I just like to get it done.

Any tips or strategies for staying on track for the weekend?

100!

This is my 100th post! Thank you very much to all my readers and followers because you truly keep me going. I have found blogging is such a wonderful outlet for me! I can say what I want, when I want and it feels so good.

So I had my first WI this morning with the new WW program. I was down .8! I have only been following the program since Tuesday and as a nursing mom the program is designed for a 1 pound per week weight loss. This is to ensure that I don't compromise my milk supply.

I had a good eating day yesterday and kept on track for the most part. I did treat myself to some popcorn with real melted butter =) Last night I was feeling very frustrated with hubby...he's getting a little lazy! I had put Grace to bed and then gone to get the stuff for my popcorn ready, when I got downstairs he looks at me and says "She's making noises". Well last time I checked he could get off his ass and go and rock her some more and get her back to sleep! But noooooo he lays on the couch and just tells me about it. Well let me tell you, the basement was ice cold last night. We have friends where the hubby is like this and mine always said he never would be. I think I am going to have to have a little chat with him about this. I am not the only one who can do things around here!

Rant over and on to better things. It is Saturday and I am tracking. I have not done this in a very long time. I know I am going to have pizza for dinner tonight and that is okay, I have the points for it. We are off to friends tonight to watch the UFC - I love GSP! He is so hot! I am not sure on what activity I will get in today as we are getting our hair cut this afternoon (good bye hair!), have some errands to run and then we are out. I think I will get hubby to walk to costco to order our Christmas cards with Grace and Santa. That will get me at least half an hour. Have a great Saturday everyone!

Going Strong

So this is the best I have felt (diet and energy wise) since having Grace. Probably since even before then....I actually feel that I can do this. This program feels sustainable....I don't feel like I am missing out on anything, all the extra fruit is making me feel truly energized! It's not energy from sugar that only lasts 10 minutes, it's real energy. I did pretty good with my eating yesterday and today. Last night we ended up eating in the food court but I had looked up the points values for the places I might eat and did good with what I had. I used my activity points and some weekly but I was well within. It felt good to be in control of what I was doing again, I knew I wasn't going to go home and feel terrible because I had over done it and blown the week, I knew what I was doing and it was a nice change.

As for activity today it was pretty minimal. I went for a walk with my mom and Grace for about 45 minutes. My mom is a pretty slow walker but it is better than nothing. I wanted to take advantage of getting outside while we still could. It looks like it is going to be raining from now until Christmas! I think I will just have to get out in the rain.....

Grace With Santa!

So it went pretty well, no smiles but so tears either!

This is my fave! Me back later with a  full post!

Day 3

I am very proud to say that I am still on track. I had a bit of a slip yesterday but with my activity point and some weekly ones I was just fine. My eating was pretty much the same as the day before so I am not going to core you with that. My slip was 8 little chocolates out of my advent calendar. I had forgotten that I bought it and when I remembered I thought I should catch up! Well that wasn't the initial plan but that is what ended up happening. Usually that would have lead to a crazy day of eating but I managed to pull it back together and just move on. I did not get my dvd done but I did get a 45 minute walk to the inlaws. It is a really good walk with a couple of hills, add an 18 pound baby and stroller and it's a pretty good workout!

Today I have my SS class - hopefully it will be inside today as it is miserable out! I don't want to workout in the rain again...That was Tuesday and part of my walk yesterday. I prefer to be dry! I need to go to the grocery store on my way home to pick some more fruit - I have eaten just about everything I bought!

Tonight we are taking Grace to see Santa! I am so excited!!!!! I think we will be eating at the mall - Grace is happiest around 5 so we are taking her then. I am going to have to make some good choices!

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Still Loving It!

I know if has only been one full day of the program but I still really love it! I ate so much better yesterday than I have in a while. Here is what my day looked like:

mini wheats with skim milk and pineapple
fiber 1 bar
1/2 contained vegetable soup, 3 wasa crackers with cream cheese and 2 slices deli chicken divided and an apple
1 cheese (little portion from costco - gouda) and a mandarin orange
chicken strips and baked french fries with some dip and 1/2 a carrot and some cucumber
WW pretzel bar (so yummy!)
5 16 oz. glasses of water

As you can see I ate a lot of fruit and veggies and no diet pop! I drank the last one I had in the house and have decided if I want one I will have to plan ahead and go out and buy one. I am not going to stock it anymore...I need to find some other options for a low cal "fun" drink.  I also got in a 1 hour SS class. It was just me and the teacher as it was raining and it hadn't been moved inside. I don't think I would have gone if I hadn't already paid for the monthly pass. Today has started off good and I am planning on doing my dvd but I will have to see how Grace feels. I wanted to walk to my inlaws but I think it is just too wet - it started raining about 11am yesterday and hasn't stopped!

**I forgot to mention that if you want some more detail on the new WW program (I don't really know how to explain it) to hop on over and check out Juliet - she has some great posts on it. In my opinion it is great!

Cool Giveaway

I was just over at (Just) trying is for Little Girls and she has a great giveaway happening today. These running bands and hats look really cool and would be very functional!

Points Plus

I love it! I went to the meeting last night and I think this new plan is amazing! On Saturday the leader just teased us with the fact that she has been following the program since September and lost 20 pounds! I know I won't do that as I am limited with nursing but it makes me so excited! I think WW has really nailed it this time - if you are looking for a change or a boost this is the plan. It is simple to follow and really promotes healthy, balanced eating. I bought a "Deluxe Member Kit" and it even came with a fancy little carrier. The kit included a 3 month tracker - I am going to fill it! I am just so excited with all the changes and it has really refocused me. I am going to the grocery store later today to stock my cabinets with some new options and get some fruit and veggies! I can't believe even bananas are 0 points plus!

So on another note I did get my walk in yesterday but I did not get time to do my dvd -  I will do it on Wednesday. I have my SS class this morning and it looks like it is going to be outside! It's going to be a little yucky but I guess the fresh air is good for us! I don't have a plan for dinner tonight, I want to wait until I go to the grocery store - it'll be chicken and something.....Hubby writes his exam tonight - fingers crossed!

Oh Monday!

Since being on maternity leave I like Mondays even less! I miss my hubby when he goes back to work, we have so much fun on the weekend and it just doesn't feel like there is ever enough time! So the teething seems to be getting better, today Grace slept until 6:10 and it was great! I crawled into bed yesterday at about 9:15 - I even fell asleep before hubby could get upstairs about 5 minutes behind me....I got a really good walk in yesterday but I did over eat a little at dinner, we had roast, mashed potatoes and yorkshire puddings (so yummy).

The weather is better today so I am going to get a nice walk up to the mall in and then I will try and do my Turbo Jam dvd in the afternoon. I also want to work on decorating my tree - hubby put it up for me yesterday but I didn't have anytime to decorate it. I love the look of a Christmas tree!

I am so looking forward to going to a WW meeting tonight and learning about the new plan, I am going to the website now to start reading!

Best Laid Plans.....

Thank you for your comments lately - you guys really help to keep me going!

Well I am definitely going to stick with them this time. I think I may have figured out my gain as well, I have been eating too many points. I get  got 10 extra points because I am nursing. I found in the beginning I was losing too quickly so I kept eating them even when we started giving Grace solid food. It says I should not be losing more than about 1.5 pounds per week to not hurt my milk supply. I found that I was losing too quickly so I kept eating them. Well we have been giving her more food so I should really have been cutting that down to 5 extra points per day. I am really excited to go to the meeting tomorrow and learn the new plan. I am going to use my weight from yesterdays WI as my "starting" weight.

I spent alot of time thinking about what i want and how I am going to get there. I had a goal to be out of the 170's by Christmas...well that isn't going to happen. I am going to change that to January 8th. That is just over 8 pounds in 6 weeks, this I can do. I need to work hard over Christmas and pick up the slack when my SS class stops for the holidays (Dec.14). My plan is to track and get a minimum of 30 minutes activity everyday. I will have no days off. I need to make sure I keep moving and not let this get the better of me. I need this, it is amazing how 2 seconds on the scale made me feel. I know happiness isn't a number on the scale but at this point it is a big part of it for me. I just don't feel like myself in this body - time to change.

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

All of this tuned up at WI today. I am not too sure how this happened but I gained 2.2! This puts me right back where I started and I am not impressed. I in no way ate where I should have gained...I had one off day, not a week, just a day. Well there is nothing I can do about this at this point, I just need to pick myself off the ground, dust myself off and really get back to it. Obviously I have not been doing as good as I thought I was so I need to start paying more attention. I thought they were going to explain the new program to us today at WI but they are waiting until next week! It is online Monday morning so my mom and I are going to go to a meeting Monday night and get all the new materials and hopefully the new calculator too. I need this change to spark me again....Well hubby and I are sitting down to watch Eclipse!

Epic Fail

That was my day yesterday....Grace is teething and it is not fun. She cut her first tooth earlier this week and it seems to have started to bother her. She was up at 5:50 and did not nap for more than 2 hours total all day long! Needless to say I couldn't go to SS and I couldn't get my dvd done either. Trying to get her a bit of a nap before bed we went to the mall for dinner and some baby ora gel. I did not make any good choices yesterday so I am not going to list my food for the day...I am too ashamed that I let this get in the way of my eating right. She is going to have alot more days like yesterday and even if I can't get my workout in it is no reason to let it derail my eating. Today will be a better day - she was up at 5:25 and was asleep again by 7:25 and is still napping (7:52) - compared to yesterday this is a record! We are going to be spending the day out with my mom so I will push for either subway or tim hortons for a good lunch option. My mom said she will hang out later so I can get my soup made - back to my planning!

Turbo Jam!

I love it! After reading about Laura over at lauragetsfit I just had to have these dvd's. I found them on Ebay for $12.99 and I couldn't resist. I am so happy that I didn't. I just did the Learn and Burn yesterday and I could tell this is going to be good. It's fun and you get a great workout! I didn't feel like I was going to die or any part of my body was going to give out, I just felt like I had a great workout. I am going to try the 20 minute version tomorrow. Today I have my SS class and weather permitting we will hopefully be outside to enjoy some fresh air!

So I did not let my bad planning at lunch yesterday ruin my whole day. I wasn't perfect but I was pretty good - here is what I ate:

My regular PB toast and milk
Fiber 1 bar and pineapple
Spicy Italian Flatbread (20 points!)
Granola bar
3 egg whites with cheese and a bagel with a bit of butter and pineapple
Chips
1 coke zero and 2 glasses diet coke (with lunch)
5 16oz. glasses of water

So I really didn't want to include my chips or my granola bar....then I realized the only person I was hiding from was myself. So here it all is. You will notice I have them ever night - it is my snack after Grace goes to bed, my treat when my day is "over". I know I could find better things but the air popped popcorn is too loud and I just don't want fruit....

Being Prepared

So I had my lunch and the talk went great! I didn't get too involved but I did get most of my point across. I did not know where we were going and I thought I had made a good choice....not so! I got home and figured out my points - 20 points for a flat bread! It was good but not that good. I think next time it will be a salad and half the flat bread......

I haven't had a chance to get to the video - stay tuned for tomorrow.

Lunch

Well this morning I read about a great giveaway over at http://23imaginaryfriends.blogspot.com and I think you should go and check this out. I am really interested in picking up this product.

So I had a great day yesterday and to top it off I got my new dvd! I am going to try it this afternoon when I get home from lunch. I am going to lunch with my boss today about how things are going to run when I come back in April. I am a little nervous about this because we are going to be talking about making some changes and I really want to be honest with her...the problem with that is what really needs to change are her son and daughter in law. Her son is so lazy and just doesn't pull his weight and her DIL (not married to this son) is so busy talking about nothing all day long that she does not get any work done. She is fiercely protective of them and can never see that they do anything wrong....I am going to have to use kid gloves. I am going to see if they have a soup and salad or something equally as light. My tummy is getting upset just thinking about it.....

Oh well - I did pretty good eating yesterday and got more fruit and veggies. Still not perfect but better:

Toast and milk
Fiber 1 bar and pineapple
grilled cheese, carrott and chips
granola bar
steak, tortolini and cesar salad
Chips
2 coke zero and 5 16 oz glasses of water

I really need to get away from the toast, it's too many points but I am enjoying it. I think I will switch with the new points. I also got 1 hour of activity at SS and felt great. I used 7 of my weekly points. I have again planned dinner and I am really looking forward to that and relaxing on the couch and watching the hockey game!

Day 1

Here we go, this is what I ate yesterday:

2 slices toast with pb + a skiff on nutella with 1 cup of milk
Fiber 1 bar
grilled cheese with 2 pb cookies
Baked ketchup chips
Chicken (roughly 5 oz. - I forgot to measure)
Mashed potatoes + cesar salad
more ketchup chips
2 coke ceros (not together) and 6 16oz. glasses of water.

There it is, that is what I ate yesterday and it is seriously lacking in fruits and veggies. I did go shopping yesterday and bought some so that will be more prevalent in todays food! This is a total of 41 points (I get 35 because of nursing). I also earned to AP's on the treadmill (boy did that feel great!) to have my total at 39.

So a couple of days ago I was reading someones blog (I can't remember right now) and they were talking about looking at themselves naked in the mirror and what they said to themselves, it wasn't pretty and boy can I relate. I look at myself on the way into the shower every morning and every morning have the same conversation over and over again. I don't know why we feel the need to beat ourselves down, it doesn't help. I am trying to find things I like to focus on so I am not starting my day off in the negative. One more thing to work on.....

Yesterday I was inspired by Syl over at http://www.livesmilerun.com/, she is amazing! She was on holiday and braved wearing such a beautiful dress and she looked amazing. She has come so far and that is what I want. In her pictures you can see the evolution of her smile - I want that....I will have that. IF you don't read her already you should check her out.

I have again planned dinner for tonight and will pick up the steaks after my SS class - yay planning!

I forgot to say thank you for all your comments on Grace =) I also posting some current pics.....

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I just wrote a post and lost it....now I must start all over again and remember what I was talking about!

Okay....I think I started with what my goals are for the next few months - under 170 by Christmas, under 160 by Valentines Day and under 150 by Grace's first birthday (April 12). I think these are pretty reasonable and not too aggressive. I just need to put the work in and I can achieve them, I know I keep saying this but I am hoping if I keep repeating myself it will sink in!

My eating has been on track so far today and tomorrow I am going to post what I ate and for how many points. I think this will help keep me accountable and now that I am tracking again it is possible. Tracking is so important to my success, I have even pretracked a bit for today and even preplanned exactly what is for dinner. This is big for me and I am not a great planned, I usually have an idea but wait until hubby is home and see what he thinks, today I have made a decision and I am sticking with it! I am going to my parents to meet my brother for lunch and so he can play with Grace (he is the best uncle ever). I am going to hop on the treadmill while they play as my dvd hasn't come yet and I need something to do on my days off from SS. I am looking forward to getting back at SS tomorrow - last week was so bad weather wise - I actually really missed going and getting that workout, I am starting to really love working out again.

I am still working on those tabs - I want one for tracking my weight and measurements and one for some progress pics. Until then I leave you with a picture of Grace's first snowfall!

WI

I know I haven't been perfect but I was so happy to see a 1.4 pound loss this morning. It felt so good to see my weight going in the right direction. Just 6 more pounds before Christmas to meet my goal. If I actually start really paying attention that should make the difference. I am really hoping my SS classes will be on this week and that my dvd comes! I don't have much else to say at this point....

I want to put some tabs on my blog....how do I do that?

Fat To Fit

It's that time again! 

So I have been a little absent this week, it has been crazy around here. I had some work to do and had to push it out as quick as I could and then we have had so much to do around the house and our complex had out AGM last night. Good news is we are getting almost $600 back from a special levy we paid for our roof! This will help with Christmas =) I have not been tracking my food the last few days but I have been doing good eating wise. I jumped on the scale this morning and was happy with what I had seen. I have not gotten much activity outside of running around the house because we have had some really cold weather (-8) and now a good dump of snow. I don't think I will make it to my SS class today as the roads are a mess and the indoor space is up a hill, I couldn't go on Tuesday because it was -8 and felt like -15 with the wind and I had no idea how to keep Grace warm for an hour outdoors.....I am still waiting for my dvd to come in the mail so I think I will pull the Wii out today and do that while Grace plays in her exersaucer. Well I hope you are all having a wonderful Thanksgiving!

I Love Sundays!

Today has been a great Sunday (minus the Canucks loss). I did really good in my eating even with going to the States for some shopping and having a little dessert. We went across the line to get our Christmas turkey (great sale for Thanksgiving) and were very disappointed to find that the turkey delivery was late and we must have missed the last few by a couple of minutes. I am going to have to go back down tomorrow, we just don't get good deals like that here. We also went to the mall and I got some great sparkley flats and some workout clothes at Target. We actually bought very little, the prices almost seem to go up a little before Black Friday. Maybe when Grace is a little older my mom and I will start going to Black Friday again...for now she is too small for all those line ups and I can't leave her for too long as she is still on the boob.

Last night I took the time to potion out the chips and pretzels I bought the other day, it is amazing how easy and quick it is and how it will save me when I am in a munchy mood, I can't just mindlessly eat them. I have a portion  and that is all I get. I got back on the scale this morning and that .4 was gone, now I just need to keep it gone and work on the rest. I really want my dvd to come tomorrow! I am so anxious to try it.....GET HERE!!!!!

Tomorrow I am going to start a new portion of my post and post what I have eaten for the day, I think it will help keep me honest and maybe seeing it on here will make me see where the holes are in my eating. On Saturday at my meeting I asked about the new plan and found out that we (canadians) don't get to start the new plan until December 11. I was hoping we would be the same as everyone else as I am looking forward to the change, I think it will help me to refocus...

Okay

Today I am feeling pretty good. I had WI and I was up again. I was up .4 and that is okay with me. I did not eat the best so I knew I wasn't going to lose. Tonight we were invited out to a friends to watch the UFC fights but hubby and I have decided to stay home and watch the Canucks game. These friends have a rather large god that Grace is afraid off. She is still a puppy and I don't think it's fair to her to be getting in trouble all night in her own home. To save myself the stress we are staying home =) It was also the first snow of the season last night and I don't want to have to drive home in it either. We are going to dress Grace up in her snow suit and take some pictures of her first snow fall! Well I really don't have anything else to say....have a good day!

Blah, blah, blah

I keep talking and not acting. I started off great yesterday and was even getting my water in. I went to SS in the pouring rain and actually enjoyed myself! Then I went grocery shopping and it kinda all fell apart from there. I over did it at lunch but managed to get it back for dinner. It looks like I might have another gain tomorrow or a STS. I am very disappointed in myself, I just don't know what to do to make this work. I know what I need to do and I am getting tired of listening to myself. I keep coming up with these plans and not following through...

What works for you guys? What helps to keep you accountable? 

Quiet

First I am going to post the blog hop link:



Now the rest of my post. I have been pretty quiet lately as I have not had alot to say. I am not eating my best and I am a little embarrassed to come on here and admit it. It is amazing how I can come on here and read a post that I could have sworn I wrote but it is someone else, feeling the same way I am and struggling with alot of the same things. I see so many of us struggling and on the flip side so many great success stories. I want to be one of those success stories.....In order to make that happen I need to start trying harder, stop eating so much junk and just get with it. I just watched a video on the new points program and I am really excited to switch things up. I know I am not eating enough fruits and vegetables and that needs to change. I honestly used to avoid fruits to a degree because of their points value and wanting that for something else.

I am still waiting for my video to come in the mail and I had to miss my SS on Tuesday. I was so disappointed to not be able to go but I got a desperate call from work (yes, I am on a full year mat leave) to please come in and help them out for a couple of hours. I took Grace and off we went, I did a couple hours Tuesday and then again on Wednesday. I don't think I will do this again. I am going back in April and that's enough =)

Well I am off to SS today and really need this, after that it is grocery shopping and then dinner at the inlaws.

Naturopath

So this morning I had my visit with the naturopath and it made me feel more sane. I don't really know how to explain what it is she does but she is able to tell me where some of my concerns are and what my body is "fighting". My body is fighting insulin, estrogen and one of the hormones tied to thyroid. This actually made me feel much better and really helped me understand why my body is reacting the way it has been to weight loss recently. I know this isn't the whole problem, the rest of it lies with me not giving it 100%. It's getting better though. I am trying to wait patiently for my dvd to come in the mail but I am too excited for it to get here. I am really looking forward to trying something new!

Today I will again be dipping into my extra points. Tonight is my last night in the pool with Grace and I am kinda sad, my hubby will take her in on Wednesday and then we are done. I have been having so much fun with this. The weather is just getting miserable and I don't know what we are going to do with all of our night now. I think I am going to have to make hubby walk in the rain with me =p Not my fave thing to do either but it's good for all of us. Hubby has been putting on a bit o weight lately (he kinda needed it) and doesn't want to put on anymore, so it will be good to have him wanting to eat better too. Well we are all just sitting on the couch watching the hockey game and relaxing. Have a good night!

Lazy Sunday

Today was a nice and lazy Sunday. We usually have dinner with my family but my parents are away and we saw my brother yesterday, so today we were free! Well for most of the day, the inlaws did stop by with my hubby's aunt and uncle to say hello to Grace. I went shopping for most of the day to give hubby time to do his homework, I was very excited to find that Carters has come to BC!!!!!! I love Carters and they usually only have select items at Costco so this is a real treat for me!

I did okay with my eating today, not great but not horrible. I had 11 of my extra points today but it was worth it! I got on the scale this morning and I was pleased to see that I have lost most of what I had gained! It is so weird how that works, but I will take it =) I just need to keep going.

WI

Well I am very embarrassed to admit that I gained 3.2 pounds over the last 2 weeks. I actually thought it was going to be worse but it still makes me sad. Sad that I need to lose those 3.2 pounds all over again! What a waste. I guess that is why I need the plan. I was disappointed that we didn't go over the new plan in my meeting today, I guess it is starting later in Canada. I am intrigued to try something that is kinda new, maybe it will help me amp it up.

So I have decided that my weeks will start on Sunday, I still want that "treat" day on Saturday's and I think I would prefer that it was the end of my week, not the beginning.  I had hubby check and my video has been shipped and I am really hoping it gets here soon, I am excited to try something new! Turbo Jam here I come!

Thin

I want to be thin, I want to be healthy and I want to be in control. There is alot I want to gain in this journey of mine...well and then alot I want to lose......I have been thinking and eating quite a bit this week. Thinking about what I want and how I am going to get it. I have been making plans for losing weight, getting in better financial shape and organizing our house. I have also been over eating all week. Kinda like a last week/meal thing.

To start I have ordered Turbo Jam and when I get it I have decided that I will do that 3 times per week and go to my stroller strides 2 times per week. I am going to go to WW every week from now on and I am going to track like crazy! Everything I eat is being written down, even on my "free" Saturdays. I think I should really be keeping track of it all. With this I am aiming to be out of the 170's by Christmas. So there we have it, a plan.

Ugh!

Well feeling as negative as I do right now I am not going to dwell. I am still overdoing it in the food department and can't seem to get past breakfast and my fist snack for tracking. I need a plan. I think I am going to have hubby check my tracker at the end of every night, that way I have to fill it out. It makes such a huge difference for me when I am tracking.

I am looking for a turbo kick dvd to buy, Laura over at http://lauragetsfit.blogspot.com/ has inspired me to try it. I need to try putting the Babe is her exersaucer and just doing a dvd, she'll probably have fun just watching me! I need to make my weight loss a priority and stop wasting time and money! I think from now on when I buy things that aren't pre-portioned I am going to have to do that when I bring them in the house, it doesn't take a lot of time so why not.

Does anyone have a new recipe or blog to follow that you can recommend? 

Blog Hop!

This is a great way to see some new blogs!

Water

I need to start drinking more water! I do really good for a while and then I just seem to drop off again. I think I am going to start posting some eating stats in my posts to help keep me honest. I will start tomorrow morning and post what I ate today.

I had a better day yesterday, not perfect but it was an improvement from last week. I am still struggling right in the middle of the day with "binge" eating. I am not sure if it has to do with nursing or if it is an emotional thing. I talked to my mom about it and she thought it might be a "lonely" thing. I am not really along during the day, it's just me and Grace (almost 7 months old!) from about 7 until 4:15 or so. It's not too long of a day but when you are always kind of on it gets tiring and I think that may be what leads to this. I find myself grabbing things like chocolate, baked chips and anything else kinda snacky we seem to have around the house. I am thinking I may go to the naturopath to make sure it's not something else. I keep trying to add a little more something to my lunch but it doesn't seem to help. As soon as my daughter goes down for her nap I seem to go "hunting" for crap to eat. I am going to work on this today and maybe have something ready and then that's it.....

Well I have stroller strides this morning and I can't wait to get a good workout in!

Refreshed

That is how I am feeling. I kind of took a couple of days off. Happily I did not blow it completely like I have in the past. I wasn't perfect but I wasn't horrible either. I am challenging myself to try and keep things light and positive, nothing is the end of the world. I have an amazing life with a great husband and the most beautiful baby, the weight loss will come, I just need to stick with it.

I got back to tracking this morning and it actually feels good. I signed up for a 1 month pass to Stroller Strides and I am really looking forward to it. I will be going every Tuesday and Thursday. I really felt the workout the next day and I had kinda missed that lately, feeling like I have actually done something.

I completely skipped my WI this week in the hopes of moving in a more positive direction and I think it worked. I won't be doing this often but I think I needed the pass. I am trying to get my Christmas shopping done ASAP as I don't really want to be heading to the crazy malls with a stroller trying to find somewhere to park where I can still get the baby out. Well we have swimming tonight and it's my turn again to take her in and I am so excited. I am just loving this! We have decided to only put her in lessons once per year, we will use our pool in the complex the rest of the year to keep her comfortable with the water and get some family activity!

I'm It!

I was tagged my Mrs.D over at http://cataylor85.blogspot.com and I have to answer some questions!

1. No weird nicknames for me
2. My weirdest nightmare was my dad left my mom for my husbands boss and a young mexican man....really weird~
3.An NSV I am proud of......I am having a really hard time thinking of one right now....I've got one - walking away from a dessert table
4. Buying clothes in a single digit

Now I will pass this along to:

Cupcakes To Carrot Sticks
A Journey to Thin
My F.A.B. Challenge
My Road to Weight Loss

Now for my questions:

1. Who is your biggest inspiration?
2. What is your favorite thing to do on the weekend?
3. Who is your favorite super hero?
4. What is your favorite food?

Kinda lame questions but I think they give you a look inside someone.

So I am gonna take a bit of a break this weekend. After this terrible week I have decided not to cap it off with a negative WI so I am not going. I am going to use this time to get back on track and pull my head out of my butt!

Motivation

Okay people, I need some motivation! I am struggling so bad this week it isn't even funny! I was just reading one of my fave blogs and she has her first giveaways! If you are looking for a new blog to follow check her out!  http://darcithelbloser.blogspot.com
She is motivation!

Thank you to all my commenters =)

So my days have been starting out great and slowly but surely going into the toilet! I am great until about lunch and then everything falls apart! I do not know what is going on! I seem to be slipping into this kinda thing every couple of weeks and I wonder if my non cycle is maybe actually there with just the hormone part.....? I don't know. Yesterday I registered for something called Stroller Strides. It's a group where you get together and workout. It's pretty well priced and the timing is much better for me. The free group I was going to at the mall started at 9:30 and now that seems to be when Grace is napping and I haven't been able to get there in a few weeks. I really need the group thing, something to help keep me going. Anyone wanna go for a walk ;)

I am hoping for a better day today....

Blog Hop Time!

Negativity

So I had a very negative post yesterday and it apparently caught up to me in the afternoon. I went on a low cal snack binge. It was not good! I got into such a negative frame of mind after writing that post and I just couldn't fight it. I need to get past the negativity. So I am not happy with what I look like, isn't that why I am doing this?To be happy in my skin....I know I can do this and I need to stay away from the negative feeling. Bad days aren't everything, they are well out numbered by the good and I have lost over 25 pounds since the day I delivered my daughter almost 7 months ago. It took me alot longer to put all this weight on, I should be proud of myself. I AM proud of myself, I guess I just wish it was easier and faster! Don't we all.

Thank you for all the comments later, it is amazing how we all kind of struggle with the same things. It is very comforting to know that I am not alone in these feelings. Today will be better.

Body Image

The above is something that I struggle with on a daily basis. The day I delivered my daughter I was 200 pounds and without much work I lost the first 20 or so, it just seemed to fall off from my body returning to "normal" and nursing. I thought this would be easy.....Silly girl! I went back to WW way too soon the first time and in my eyes failed, now I am getting more sleep and I am in a much better space mentally which makes a huge difference. On Sunday my brother and his fiance came over for dinner and to see the little skunk. My SIL (close enough) asked if I had lost weight (she doesn't hand out compliments very easily) and it made me feel really good. Earlier in the day all of our parents had come by to see the costume and have a cuddle. My MIL took some pictures of all of us and said she would email them. I was feeling pretty good after my compliments until I checked my email to see those pictures.....I looked horrible. I am not the kind of person who is motivated by that...it kinda pushes me back. I know that I can do this, that next year I will look better in those photos. I am trying not to miss the first year of my daughters life, I want it to look like I was hear not always hiding I just don't want to look at those pictures.

Oh well, onwards and downwards ;) I learned last night that I need to leave myself a couple of points for after swimming lessons. I am hungry when I get home! I had to dip into my extra for a couple of points for a snack. We dunked our face with no tears yesterday and I was so proud. My hubby is going to go in the pool and I am excited to see how much fun he has! My eating for the rest of the day was good and I used the swimming lessons as my activity. I think today I will try and get a walk in outside as the rain seems to have stopped!

Happy Halloween!

Well after my great WI on Saturday I went a little over board on the eating front. If you have been reading my blog for a while you know that I do give myself a "treat" day after WI. My day turned into 2 and now I am back. One bad weekend isn't going to ruin everything. So yesterday was my babies first halloween and she was so cute! Amazingly enough candy was not the focus for my day and that made me proud =) I didn't even pull the candy out until 4 and then I only had 2 pieces all night. We had just over 60 kids and got rid of all but about 5 pieces of candy. I did manage to get my activity in all weekend which felt good and I am going to keep going with 20 minutes minimum per day, it just makes me feel better. Well today is a new day and I am back on track, I need to go grocery shopping this morning (we are still meal planning) and then off to swimming lessons tonight. Today I leave you with the cutest skunk ever!

So Close

I was so close to 5 pounds this morning! I was down 2.2 for a total of 4.4! I am so happy that I have finally got it together and moving in the right direction!

I stuck with my plan last night and got the subway. I did have a few too many cookies but I did do alot of work with a 17 lb baby strapped to my chest to make up for it. It was alot of fun yesterday and I am so happy for our friends. I can't wait to see what she does with the place!

Have a great weekend!

I love Friday!

I ams o looking forward to this weekend. We have decided to shut ourselves off on Saturday and just spend some time the 3 of us and I couldn't be happier. I will got to WI and then we are just gonna get some stuff done around the house, go to costco and watch some tv. It is going to be so nice.

Today was an early start as the munchkin decided she wanted to eat at 5 this morning. She had a really restless sleep which means I had a restless sleep.....I must learn how to nap without waking up crabby. My eating has been pretty good today. I made a new recipe and it didn't turn out like I expected it to, I will have to try it differently next time. Oh well. I still need to get the veggies ready for tonight but other than that I am just waiting for hubby to get home. I won't be getting any "activity" today but I will be carrying a 17 lb child around all night. I have decided I am going to strap her to my chest and go that way. Well have a good Friday everyone!

Fat Burger

That is what I had for lunch yesterday. My dad had the day off work and offered to take me for lunch and that was where he picked, I could have said no but I LOVE Fat Burger and it isn't somewhere I go often. I figured out what the points were when I got home and it was scary! On the other hand it was soooo good and it was only one meal. I was back to "normal" eating right after that. We had swimming last night and I got my workout in that way. My husband asked if WW gives extra points for the stress the swimming causes! They make you do some pretty difficult things with a little one. I am really enjoying it and I can't believe how well my little angel is doing!

Plan of attack for today is to eat really well as we have dinner at the inlaws tonight. They try really hard to be supportive but me MIL isn't really used to cooking "low-fat". I will just have to watch my portions. As long as th rain holds I am going to walk over there so I can get my activity in and get some fresh air. My friends are moving tomorrow and I am going to do some baking that I can take, we are starting the move right after work and I think the guys will get hungry quickly. I am also going to take a bit of a veggie tray to snack on as well. They are going to be buying us all pizza and beer but I think I will stop and get myself a subway since I already had Fat Burger this week and don't want to sabotage my WI for saturday morning. I think I should have another good week. I have gotten back into the habit of weighing myself daily and I have been happy with what I have been seeing. If I can keep this up I should be able to lose a total of about 10 lbs before Christmas! My goals have changed a little bit and I am aiming to be back to goal by about May (hubby and I want to go to Vegas for our anniversary). I am not going to stress about it and just do the best I can.

Well now that I have rambled on I should do some house work ;)

Blog Hop!

I did it! It took me a while to figure this out, thanks Melissa!

Keep Moving!

I need to keep moving forward. I am so proud of myself for really sticking to things for the last 2 weeks. It feels good to be proud of myself. I am also very proud of my husband! He is taking some night classes to finish his designation and last night he found out the he got the 3rd highest mark in his class on the midterm exam! So proud! He really struggled with home study and now that he is back in the class he is doing so well!

So I ate good yesterday and managed to get out for a 30 minute walk. The little one didn't want to nap so I plopped her in her stroller and off we went. Luckily it had stopped raining and the air was so crisp and fresh! To top off a great night the Canucks won! I did  not end up getting a workout dvd because they didn't have that turbo kick (I am guessing maybe only online or in stores across the line) and I couldn't find anything that really interested me. I am going to different mall today so I will try their stores and see if anything inspires me. I did see some tapes by Bob from the Biggest Loser and I am considering those...we'll see. Tonight is swimming lesson number 2 with my little frog and I am so excited, she enjoyed it so much and so did I!

I hate titles

I have such a hard time coming up with a new title! I am just not very creative. Well I had a great day yesterday, I ate well and took my baby girl for her first swimming lesson! It was so much fun and a pretty good workout to boot! She did so well and only got a little bit upset once. I was really happy to see someone I knew in the class, her daughter is only 2 days older then mine and very lucky for me she is our photographer (she did our wedding, our pregnancy shoot and our newborn shoot). Her husband did the first class and she took pictures of her daughter and mine. the girls were even playing with each other! So today is as ugly as yesterday so I need to get over to the mall and pick up my rain shield for the stroller. I have not been able to go to my mommy walking group at the mall for about a month now and the little one has decided that is when she likes to nap. While I am at the mall I am going to look for a new workout dvd that is a little more on the cardio side. My shoulder is still bugging me and I can't do the shred properly so I need something different. i really like the Dancing with the Stars one but I am not a good dancer so it's not quite the workout I am looking for. I am going to look and see if they have Turbo Kick, I was inspired by Laura over at http://lauragetsfit.blogspot.com. She has done amazing and says it is a great workout. Hopefully they sell it in store, if not I will just have to look around for something.

Rain

The weather has definitely taken a turn for the worse. I am hoping to get to the mall today to pick a rain shield for the stroller, I am going to have to start walking in the rain =( Maybe it will make me walk faster......I don't think we are supposed to see another nice day for a couple of weeks according to the forecast. Tonight we start swimming lessons with the little one and I am so excited! It is going to be a blast...I hope. I really hope she likes it. I also picked up the key for the pool in our complex and hope to start using it soon. We need to head over there and see what it is like in there, I would like to start swimming laps a couple of times a week, mix it up a bit. So I struggled a little yesterday with my eating, I was hungry all day long! I didn't do too bad because I seemed to only want a little of everything. Back to normal so far today and I am planning on keeping it that way. I will be heading out to do my grocery shopping when the wee one gets up from her nap. We meal planned again this week, it seems to really be helping. I ended up having to go back to the store once last week because I had not planned our dinner for Friday. This week we are helping the same people move on Friday night so I am going to pick up a couple of healthy snacks to have around to munch on. We are heading over as soon as hubby get home from work and then I guess we will stay as long as baby is happy. I am really looking forward to seeing their new place. My friend is so creative with her decorating, I actually follow her blog about it, I really wish I new how to link things on here....I will have to do some research and figure it out. I think it is called Mailardville Manor....check it out if you are interested in home decor and organization.

Well I should get going I have some work to do!

*****Here is the link http://www.maillardvillemanor.com

Time

Where has it gone? It has been a busy weekend and I am very please to announce that I was down 1.6! This is a total loss of 2.2, I'll get there eventually! I was so happy with that considering I did have company the night before the WI and without thinking I served ham! Not my best choice because of the sodium but it was okay. I was really proud of myself this week because I worked hard and it showed! I did great with dinner and even indulged in the yummiest dessert ever! I made a peanut butter brownie pie...mmmmm. So not diet food but when you just have a small piece it is not that bad. You can make it lighter but when I try something for the first time I like to try and follow the recipe. I have not been as active as I would have like this weekend but I have gotten a couple of small walk in and that is better then nothing. We got a new leader at WW and I don't think I am going to like her, she has no control over the meeting and doesn't really know how to read people. She kept pestering the 2 men in our meeting when they clearly did not want to be spoken to. I am going to give it a couple more weeks and if it doesn't change I will have to figure something else out. i like attending meeting and wanted to stick with one that would still be easy to attend when I head back to work in 5 1/2 months.

I am feeling so much better, my nose has finally stopped running and I can see clearly now ;)

Friday!

I am so happy it's Friday and the weekend is almost here. Being sick all week has drained me completely and my hubby has agreed to get up one morning with the babe so I can get some extra sleep. It's a little tricky when you are nursing and need to make sure you pump enough to keep her happy for a few hours! Tonight we are having our friends for dinner and the hockey game (man I hope we win!). I have decided that I am going to try and stick to what I have been doing and cook with no real "diet" foods and just eat a smaller portion. They are in  the middle of a move and in desperate need of some home cooking! I love having them over because he eats alot and always makes me feel good about my cooking =p I had another good day yesterday, I was a little snacky in the evening and ended up using some of my Weekly points. I took the day to rest and I am feeling quite a bit better today, thank god my nose has stopped running constantly! I don't know what I will do for my activity today as the weather has taken a turn for the worse and I don't think I want to walk in the rain. I have alot of house cleaning to do so I will see if I have any energy left after that.

Cold

I still have my cold! It went away for a couple of days and has now come back with a vengeance! I am so congested and it is killing me! I have been blowing my nose so much that I actually got a bloody nose last night! Not that this has anything to do with weight loss but I am so proud of my baby girl - she slept without the swaddle last night and slept right through the night! Yay! I was stressing about this a bit because I had been told some kids  stop sleeping through the night for a while when you stop swaddling, not this one! I hope tonight goes just as well.  So I did really good at my inlaws yesterday and just explained that I am really trying and they understood. Actually my MIL suggested that my FIL go to WW too! My MIL made a great potato salad last night - it was steamed potatos mixed with slightly fried celery (just enough to soften), bacon and green onions mixed with parmesan cheese and italian salad dressing. I was guessing at points but I didn't think it would be too high and it was so good! I had a great walk over to their place (45 min.) and enjoyed an exciting hockey game, too bad we lost in the end!

Today has been really good so far, staying on track really well and not letting things get away from me. I am going to take a rest day today from activity because I am feeling so terrible, I need a rest. Have a great day!

Realization

Well this morning I stepped on the scale and the number was amazing! I am hoping I can keep it up for the rest of the week and be happy with the number I see Saturday morning. It is amazing how actually following the program helps you lose weight! Really?!!? You think I would have gotten that before now... Oh well, atleast I have got it now. I have a bit of a test on Friday night, we are having friends over for dinner....friends that don't know I am doing WW. She is super skinny and not someone I think would judge me but not someone I really want to talk about weight loss with. They are getting ready to move and have been eating out since they packed all their stuff away so I would really like to treat them to a good home cooked meal (I've been told that I am a good cook) and I am not sure what to make. They definitely don't need "diet" food and I am trying to stay away from it anyways. I always find dessert hard when there are only 4 people, it leaves alot of leftovers. Luckily we are out on Saturday to watch the UFC at my brothers and I can take that kinda stuff there or everyone to nibble on =) It's always a good place to get rid of snacky foods you don't want around. Well I am going to have to think about dinner.......

I was very proud of myself last night, I didn't get as much of a walk in as I wanted but I did think ahead and weigh some chips for myself (bakes lays) to have a treat with the game. I love 2 point treats that feel like they should be more. Hubby wasn't home yet when I got home and I was feeling oddly snacky but I didn't give in because I knew I wasn't hungry. I think that was a first! Well I am walking to the inlaws today for dinner, I can't wait to get outside! I told my MIL about being back at WW so she is trying to be mindful of what she makes for dinner. She is a wonderful Russian cook, which means alot of butter! I love her food but I would be huge if I are there too often!

Well I am off for now, have a great night!

One day at a time

This is what I need to do. I had a great day yesterday and it felt so good. I was happy when I went to bed last night and I was full =) The meal planning is really helping me stay on track. I know what I am having and how many points it is going to be so I can eat accordingly through out the day. I even had enough points left for a good snack last night while we relaxed. I got a good walk in with the babe last night and it felt so good. Our weather is so nice right now, it has been amazing! I love this cold, crisp weather! I am going to hang out with the folks tonight as hubby has school, luckily mom is doing WW too so there won't be anymore temptations there. I think I will walk over to get some really good activity in. I just want to take advantage of this weather. Hockey game tonight and I so love it! I missed hockey season!

Needed a Break

I needed to take a little break from blogging last week. I was in a very negative place and didn't think I should send that out into the blogosphere! I am feeling much better this week so I came back =( I have been reading all your blogs and that has kept me going. After not overindulging at Thanksgiving I was left feeling unsatisfied so I ate my way through my entire week. I kept waking up thinking I can do this today and by about 10am I was already off track. I have started off good today but it's only 9am ;) I had a big gain of 1.4 this week and it really made me realize that I can't play around anymore. If I want to lose this weight I am going to really have to put the effort in. So I have still been following along with Syl's challenge and getting in my 20 minutes (minimum), I think I have only missed one day so far. Yesterday we were going to my parents for lunch and hubby need to do some studying so I called my dad and he came and walked with me and the babe over to their place. This is a good walk! It took us about an hour and a half and it felt so good. Our weather has been so nice this last week and I have been getting out for a walk every day! I know I need to start doing some more and different workouts but I just love walking in the crisp fall air, it just feels amazing!

So we are trying something new around here and kind of meal planning. We haven't done this before and since I am trying to keep to a budget (money and points!) I think it will help. We decided to pick 4 meals for the week and shop for those (we eat at each set of parents house once a week). We want to have some freedom so we don't assign days to those dinners. I am hoping this will help stop me from shopping everyday and buying impulse junk. I am also trying something, this is only our second year where we will have trick or treaters and I have already bought my candy. It was on sale at Costco and I am only buying it once! I need to be able to control myself better, just because it is there does not mean it has to be eaten.

I tried a vitamuffin on the advice of my WW leader and boy was it ever good. I popped it in the toaster and had it with a little bit of Vanilla icecream and it was yummy!

Blah

Good afternoon! *I am probably going to overshare right now* I think I may be getting my first TOM since getting pregnant. I have had some slight symptoms of it since I got my IUD put in but now I think it is really going to come back =( I have terrible cramps and have given myself a license to eat.....This is an old habit of mine and I need to nip it in the bud. I have over indulged all weekend with the holidays and need to get control back, I really hate this feeling. Hubby has school tonight and my parents are away so I am on my own and I think I will take the babe and walk to Costco, I need to pick up some milk and it's a nice walk. I will have to make sure to get going early so it's not too dark. I find myself missing the gym lately, that quiet time to myself. With money and time being tight I won't be going back anytime soon. I think I will go back to using the treadmill at my parents, it always feels good to work up a good sweat!

I Love Long Weekends!

I still have one more day with hubby home with us! It is so nice to have the extra hands and the time together! I did good at Thanksgiving yesterday, didn't overindulge and didn't need to undo my pants ;) We all enjoyed the company and the game last night even though we lost :(

Today we got up and checked the boarder line ups so we headed down to the mall to return a shirt and do a bit of baby shopping. Got some great deals! My eating has been hit or miss today and I will count the mall time as activity. We had Subway at the mall and it was pretty good. Last time I had it there it wasn't very good but today it was much better. There really aren't good choices in that mall. Oh well, we do the best we can with what we have.

My little sweetie is going to be 6 months old in 2 days and I can't believe it! The time is going way too fast and I just want to stop it! Oh well, such is life.

At my WW meeting on Saturday we talked about strategies for dealing with Thanksgiving dinner and I had a bit of an epiphany, I don't need to take myself so seriously. I am doing the best I can right now, if I have a bad day that is all it is, a bad day. I am never going to loose weight at a really fast speed because I am never going to give up chocolate or some of my other treat foods. So there it is, I will do the best I can.

Thanksgiving!

Good day everyone. I had WI this morning and I did good =) I was down .9...so close to 1 pound. That is now a total of 2 pounds for 4 weeks. Not gonna get me there quickly but it will get me there.

Today is Thanksgiving dinner for me and I am really looking forward to it. I love turkey!

Don't have much to say today so have a great weekend!

Trying

That is what I am doing. I am trying and it seems to be working. I have been really making an effort to make good decisions. Alot of you have been having grapes for a snack and it gave me a good idea. I have been having red grapes and they are so crisp and fresh it is great! I have those or an apple with a yummy piece of cheese. I got the cheese at Costco and they are portioned piece of cheddar, edam and gouda (2 points) and so yummy! I love cheese and with it being individually wrapped I can't cut it too big ;)

My walk with me dad last night was great, we were gone longer than we expected (about 90 minutes) and we were both pooped! He pushed me hard and I felt it this morning! Today My mom, the babe and I went shopping and stopped for subway for lunch (mom my is doing ww too) and it was just what I wanted. After dinner me and  hubby packed up the babe and went for a nice walk, it feels so good to get some fresh air in the evening, I love the fresh crisp air of fall.

Tomorrow morning is WI and I think it should be okay. I don't think it will be a big loss but I do think there will be something in the right direction. After WI I have some time to do some shopping and then we are having our thanksgiving dinner and the first game of the regular season for our Canucks! It's going to be a good day!

Have a great weekend!

Too Much

Well I managed to really refocus myself yesterday and I ate great and got in 2 good walks. I am so happy I have managed to keep going with the activity challenge of Syl's this month. I think by this time last month I had missed more than I had done, this month...I have done every day! Tonight my dear hubby is off to a concert so I asked my dad to go for a nice long walk with me and the babe. My dad is 59 and in great shape, I really have to push myself to keep up with his pace and that is what I need. So I did great with my eating yesterday but then we had dinner at the inlaws. My MIL is a great cook but she cooks alot of ethnic foods (they are Russian...been here a long time but still cook alot of the "old" food) and they have alot of butter. Well needless to say I was not feeling so hot last night and ended up being sick. I think it was all the butter. She made a breakfast crepe (best way to describe it) and they are delicious but there is alot of butter involved and even being careful it was just too much for this poor tummy. It's a good thing we don't eat like that every day!

Losing It

I wish I was talking about weight but I am actually talking about my mind! I saw what I named yesterdays post and completely forgot to talk about it. Duh! I am really struggling at night, I just seem to be really hungry (or maybe bored) after dinner. I just want to eat.....to try and help with it we have picked up my husbands old air popper from his parents so I can have a bit of a better snack. We will see if this helps. I am also trying to get hubby out for a walk with me every night. I did mall walking again today as I had some things I needed to look for. I need to start thinking about different things to do that I can incorporate the little one into. Any suggestions?

Thank you for your words of wisdom in my comments....9 months to put it on, why would I expect it to come off so quick?

Night Snacks

Hello! I am a little disappointed today to find out that the bread I thought was a good options isn't really. I tried the Hight Fiber low GI bread from Cobs and it is really good but it is the same amount of points as your regular Wonder Bread! I thought it was going to be good with the 6 grams of fiber it has in it! I even got it cut thin! Well on to better things! My eating has been pretty good so far today and I have managed to get 20 minutes of activity in every day so far! It's been light walking because of whatever sickness I have that just won't go away! My throat is so sore! It'll go away soon! I can't believe my baby girl is going to be 6 months old on the 12th! I wish I had been able to get rid of this baby weight before now...I guess I should look at the fact that I have lost most of it as a positive and quit focusing on the negative. I need to quit the negative self talk and try being nice to myself....a positive attitude can really make a difference.

I am proud that I have gotten activity in everyday this month.

What are you proud of?

Busy

Today was a very busy day for me and I am still feeling yucky! I took the advice I got yesterday about activity and kept it low key. I just walked for about 30 minutes to help keep baby sleeping =) Today I could not get to my meeting to WI so I did it at home and I was amazingly down! It is only .3 but hey, after the week I had that is amazing. I think I had done better last week than it showed and that was what helped me through this week. I bought some new foods to try out to help me keep within my daily points. Some of you ladies have some great ideas. I am going to try oatmeal again, it is so filling for such low points! Today I used my helping with the move at my office as my activity, it wiped me out and I didn't even do too much heavy lifting! Well I am off to relax and hopefully get to bed early tonight!

Sick

Sick and tired. I have a cold, my first cold since I got pregnant if I remember correctly and I feel terrible. I am going to still try and get the 20 minutes of activity in for the day but I just feel horrible. I am starting to do better with my eating but when I feel like this I just don't care enough to even really eat.

I don't know what is wrong with my comments but I don't seem to be able to put anything so thank you Michaela for the reminder of why I am doing this. It is not just for me, it is so I can be a good example/role model for my daughter. I can do this.

I Can't Hide

Here I am, I have been hiding. I have been trying to hide from everyone...including myself. I had such a great week last week and to only lose .8 was such a huge disappointment and I let it eventually derail me. I have been over eating and I am not really sure why. I was talking with my hairdresser/friend last night and we were both saying we are feeling the same way. Neither one of us can quite figure out what it is. I am not sure if it's the weather (turning darker), a side effect from the IUD we are both using or a bit of depression (we have both had babies in the last year). I find I get off track so easily right now and I don't think I have felt good about myself in a very long time....I am going to work at getting my eating back on track for the rest of today and the week but I can't do much on the activity side as I am not feeling so hot (something in my chest). I need to regain control over my life and I think I need to start taking time for me. I am going to talk to hubby about getting atleast 30 minutes a night to myself. I want to get the key for our pool so I can start using that. I love to swim and it makes me feel so good! Here is to better days!

Thank you to my followers (I can't believe I actually have followers) for all your comments and encouragement, it helps to keep me motivated!

What keeps all of you going?

Persistence Is Key

Well I didn't let me small loss get me down. I am just going to keep on keepin' on and it will eventually get there. A loss is a loss and I just need to keep working at it. I was good with my eating yesterday for the most part but I did have some ice cream for dessert, I think I am going to keep with my portion sized Bryers bars from now on. I had forgotten how many points ice cream is! Oh well, moving on to today. Today I am having a no car day, I am trying to cut down on my driving to help save a little money. I have some mail to do so I think we will go for a nice walk before lunch and get my 20 minutes of activity in for the day. I really need to work at getting moving more, I am always walking around but not at a good enough pace. I also need to add some weights into my day.  I am going to try and do some when Grace is taking her afternoon nap, I have some Shape magazines that have some good routines in them that I will try. I think I need to go through them again and cut out what I want to follow so I have them easy at hand. I am going to try baking today and not going too crazy eating it all...this is going to be hard!

.8

Well I guess it wasn't quite as good as I thought it would be. I didn't think yesterday would make that big of a difference. Maybe I am guessing too much, have to get a new battery for my scale. So I was 177.4, it is a good loss for nursing but not what I saw on the scale earlier in the week.  A bit disappointing but it will get better as I add in my activity. We have a 2nd birthday party to go to today and it is close by so we have decided to walk, that will help with the bit of cake I will have. It's a new week and down is down =)

Must Plan Ahead

That is the advice I must follow when out of the house. Today I went shopping across the line with my mom, mother in-law and daughter and I only planned until snack. Ooops =) I had a good breakfast (multigrain cheerios) and a good snack (Fiber 1 bar) and then I decided that I would just eat at the food fair. I decided that I would have McDonalds (the food fair is terrible in this mall), I got a chicken club and fries, next time I will plan ahead and atleast know how many points my lunch would be. Needless to say I am a little over my target for the day.. I hope this doesn't effect me too much tomorrow. I am hoping for good numbers but I do have to keep in mind that my daily total is not suppose to have me lose alot of weight so as to hopefully not effect my milk supply. I would love to see atleast 1 pound....I know it doesn't sound like alot but they say that is what is usual for nursing moms, if I get more I'll take it too but I will have to be careful that it's not too much more. Feels kind of weird to be saying that but I really don't want to effect my supply.

Tomorrow I am going to have a bit of a treat day, I have decided that after I weigh in I can have a treat day. We have a Canucks game on tv tomorrow night and I think I might make nachos =)

Have a great weekend!

In Control!

It feels so good! I finally feel like I have a handle on things again. I have been really good about the choices I make and tracking my points. I need to start working on getting the activity back up but for now I am really happy with myself. I did a mid week weigh yesterday and was very happy with what I saw! I am actually looking forward to going back to my meeting on saturday and getting on that scale! Yesterday I picked up some sun chips while at costco, what a great treat for 4 points! I love chips and this will really help keep me from over doing it! Here is to keeping this going!

Fussy Baby

I had last night just me and Grace and it was a long one! Dear hubby is back at school for one night course and I was excited to sit back and watch the first televised Canucks game! I love hockey season!!!!!!! I know it's just preseason and none of the big guns were playing last night but it was still exciting! Until Grace got really fussy, she didn't want to eat or sleep so I packed her into the car to see if my dad would go for a walk with me (too dark to walk by myself). It was too bad that my parents had friends over there but I did go over and sit with them and she calmed right down =) I was very proud of myself, I did not let this derail my eating! I tracked everything again yesterday and did well, I have even started again this morning! Feels so good!

On Track

I feel in control today for the first time in a long time! Yesterday was a horrible day, I was in a terrible mood and could not snap out of it. I ate terribly and paid for it, I was up at 2:30 or so sick to my stomach. We were woken up at 4, 5 and then again at 6 by the sound of a trucks back up sensor. I got annoyed enough by 6 that I went to investigate what the heck was going on! I saw one of our neighbors sitting on his truck bed watching the action, apparently it had rained so hard the storm drain had backed up and flooded 4 units in our complex. Well to make up for the sleep I lost my perfect baby slept until 8! It was great and gave me a much better outlook today. We had a busy morning and I still stayed on track and tracked everything I ate. I upped my water and dairy intake today to make sure I don't effect my milk supply. It's a tricky thing losing weight while nursing, it can make it a bit easier but I have to be careful to not do it too quickly or I can stop my milk. I didn't get much activity in today because we were so busy running errands and a quick visit with my brother there wasn't any time left for me.....must work on that tomorrow.

Back At It

Boy was I ever feeling sorry for myself yesterday! There was nothing that could pull me out of my self loathing bitter mood! Not even a Grace smile could keep me up for more than a couple of minutes. But I did it, I went back to Weight Watchers this morning and I am really happy I did. My mom couldn't come with me today but will be coming with me next week. I will officially start tracking tomorrow and have Saturday as my weigh in day. I am going to keep my Wednesday weigh in to help me keep on track. I am going to re-start my stats as of today so I can track my progress better. My weigh in today was high but after the couple of days I have had I was not at all surprised. When I get in one of those moods it is not a good thing. I bought a monthly pass and will have to register my credit card which should keep me pretty honest, I do not want to waste money when the budget is as tight as it is right now.

Today hubby and I are off to see Salt and Grace will be hanging out with Grandma and Grandpa! I am really looking forward to just relaxing and watching a movie.

Sick and Tired

I am sick an tired of myself. I just can't seem to get my sh!t together! I have been getting good sleep for about 2 or 3 months now and I think I should be able to get myself back on track. I just keep over eating, I don't know what it is. I am alone most of the day and I don't seem to be able to control myself. I have tried not keeping the stuff in the house, that leads me to binge when I am out, instead of a 100 cal chocolate bar I will eat a full size one. I don't know.

So I am going back to WW tomorrow morning. I am trying a new meeting and have invited my mom to join me. My mom is also over weight and has been for a long time. My brother is getting married next summer and I know we both want to look our best so I thought it would be nice for us to do this together, to support each other. I have chosen a new meeting location, one I have never been to and one I never worked at. I thought the shame of going where I had worked and new the ladies was going to be a driving force for me but really it only pushed me in the wrong direction.

I really need to take this seriously. I am so sick of feeling bad about myself, looking in the mirror and hating what I see. It's time for me to change.

Back to Normal

My husband is back at work today and it is so nice! I do miss him but it is enough work looking after one baby! Why are men such babies when they are sick? Oh well. So I ate well yesterday but I did not keep up with my tracking. I did catch it up this morning but I really need to remember to just do it throughout the day. I took Grace yesterday and got out for a nice walk to Costco so I could pick up the rest of the groceries. It felt so good to be outside, the weather isn't sunny but it is nice and crisp, perfect walking weather! So I have decided I can only have toast once per week (I think I will save it for the weekend) because I do not measure my peanut butter or the bit of Nutella I put on. I know it is playing a big part in why the scale isn't moving in the direction I am hoping for. I am not making the progress I want but I am not putting in enough effort either.

 My goal today is to journal everything I eat in a timely manner.

Quick Post

I have a sick baby on my hands...well not baby but husband, it just feels like a baby! I was up at my weight in this morning. It is only .7 and I know exactly why. I have not been tracking like I should. I have been having toast for breakfast and a little more peanut butter makes it on to the toast every morning. I am happy to report I have lost another inch off my waist! Nothing else has changed but that makes me happy! Well I should get going, have a great day!

Busy Morning

It is only 12:30 and I feel like I need a nap too! Grace was up a little earlier this morning and it is making the day feel VERY long! We went to the stroller walking group this morning and had a great workout. I love the workout and then after we all sit around and talk about baby things. This is great for me because I don't really have alot of friends who have kids, more acquaintances. I find this part a bit of a challenge as well because they all go to Tim Hortons or Starbucks after for treats and I am trying really hard to not eat those things as well as to not be spending as much money. Today I brought 2 of the muffins I baked yesterday (they are small) and an extra bottle of water so I wouldn't be tempted. So far I have not given in and I just meet them back at the food court. We were then off to the office to drop off the work I have been doing for them. It is going to be weird, when I go back to work my office will have moved. It almost makes me sad to miss that but really happy at the same time because I won't have any of the moving stress. Now we are home and I really need some lunch =)

Awards Time!

I got 2 awards this week! Thank you Sarah and Christina! I have never had awards before...let alone followers! I am so excited! I copied this from Sarah's blog so I would know what I was doing!





1) Post who gave you the award.
         So as I mentioned before it was Sarah and Christina. I would link your blogs but I have no idea what I am doing =)


2) State ten things you like - this is hard!

1. Quiet night with hubby and baby - just the 3 of us =)
2. Date night
3. Walking the Seawall - so peaceful!
4. Shopping or baby! ~ I might enjoy it for myself once I hit goal!
5. Pedicures - I love having pretty toes!
6. Going to movies
7. Cooking for people - I love it when people enjoy what I make!
8. Blogging -  I love having this release that it all for me, it really helps that people are actually reading and commenting now - thank you!
9. Time with friends
10. bath time with my daughter - so much fun!

3) Give this award to three other bloggers and notify them with a comment 


The three bloggers I am passing this on to are:
 1. MIssy at The Ups and Downs if Losing Weight


 2.Michaela over at Cupcakes to Carrot Sticks


3. Kelsey at Fat Girl COnfessions 2.0


I am sorry but I have no idea how to link a blog here. These ladies are a great read and so very inspiring to me!