Friday, March 29, 2013

The Test

So I had my GD test on Tuesday and let me tell you it was disgusting! The stuff they make you drink made me feel terrible! I don't have my results yet but if they are inconclusive then I will just be diabetic because I am not doing that again.

It's been a long week - my co workers are losing their minds and Grace has some allergies/a cold so I really feel for her. I did finally find a comfortable way to sleep. Looks like I will be on the couch for the next 11 weeks! I can't believe I am 29 weeks already! So fast! I cannot wait to meet this baby!

This morning I was browsing the internet and they had the before and after pictures of the Biigest Losers this season. It hit me pretty hard that after this baby comes I have a long way to go. Close to Biggest Loser way to go......I have never weighed over 200 pounds but that is my reality now. 207 and 11 weeks to go. This really freaks me out! I know I can lose the weight - I have done it before but this is just such an overwhelming thought right now. I am going to need to lose close to 80 or 90 pounds by the time all is said and done. EEK!

Well I can't worry about it too much right now. What I can do it eat well and have a healthy baby, the rest will come after.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

All The LittleThings

All the little things that run through your mind.....all the time. I keep thinking about how much out lives will change in the next 3 months. Friday marked exactly 3 months to my due date. I keep feeling this amazing little life moving around inside of me and I cannot wait to meet him or her. To finally have them on the outside and get to hold them and touch their sweet little face and hands and feet. I am also a little worried about how Grace is going to react. She has been the center of attention for so long now - I hope it's not too hard for her to share the spot light.

I have also been thinking about gestational diabetes a lot lately. I have to go through the 2 hour test next week and I am really not looking forward to it. I did not have it with Grace but I have had everything I didn't have this time around so why not toss GD in there too! I was at a ladies night on Friday and one of the other moms made me pretty paranoid....She was just trying to be nice and say that if it was the case she would be there for me because it was so hard when she had it. I don't know - I feel so irrational sometimes. I am feeling very run down and I think it is making me a little crazy ;p

My husband has been so amazing, especially these last few long weeks. I haven't been sleeping well so he has started sleeping in the other room so I can have more space and sleep wherever I find comfort. He has also been helping so much with Grace. I really needed a nap yesterday and he took Grace downstairs and kept her busy for hours so I could get some sleep. Such a great guy!

Well I am again trying to get into smoothies - any suggestions?

Thursday, March 14, 2013


I am really starting to stress about the little things. Leaving my job in the hands of someone I don't really trust, losing weight nad house cleaning.

Why are these things running in my mind when I should be relaxing or sleeping? I really need to just clear my mind out and get over it....The silly things I think about in my quiet time is just rediculous.

I am really hoping to get back to the gym next week for some light work outs. work has been so busy for hubby and I that I haven't been able to get there after work this week as planned. It has been raining cats and dogs here so I haven't been able to get out at lunch either. I know I won't melt in the rain but this is not normal's Vancouver rain. Trust me, it is a whole nother type of rain and it has been especially heavy. I hate when the bottom of my pants get wet and I have to sit at my desk all day. The walks at night with Grace aren't really what I am looking for but I will take what I can get ;)

I know I am behind the times but I have recently started reading The Hunger Games Trilogy and I LOVE it! What great books!

Well tomorrow is going to be a hard day eating wise - business lunch at my fave Itialian place and a pizza party at my fave pizza place for dinner! I know they say when pregnant you can eat more...not so much for me. This baby takes us so much space I can barely finish a meal most of the time! But still - I need to try and get some extra fruits and veggies in to help combat the rest of the meals!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013


It is amazing what a couple of little pills a day can do! Now that I am not sick anymore I have gained 6 pouunds! It's been just over 1 month since I started the diclectin and I managed to put on 6 pounds! I am offically at my heaviest weight EVER. It's kinda scary. I feel better but it also scares the shit out of me!

As I watched the scale at the doctors office yesterday all I could think about was "How and I ever going to get all this weight off?". I know I just need to concentrate on being happy and healthy through this pregnancy but I keep getting caught up in what I am going to do after? How am I finally going to lose all this weight?

 I really need to train my mind away from this but....

Thursday, March 7, 2013


I don't have much today today but I was wondering if anyone could point me in the direction of some of your fave blogs? A lot of the people I have been following seem to have taken some time off and I would like som new reading material. Recommendations?

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

No Gym

I had the longest day ever at work and sadly I missed going to the gym. I have to say that I am really disappointed. I was so looking forward to a good sweat! My body is achy all the time but I still think it would be a good thing getting back to the gym. I always feel better when I am moving more.

I bought a pregnancy workout magazine and the workout that they have in it is great. The exercises are seem like they will help during labour and hopefully with carrying this extra load. If I can keep and maybe gain a little extra muscle tone it might help with these pains.

I have been trying to add more fresh fruits and vegetables into my diet but this weird weather all over the US has been causing me some trouble. Everything is so expensive and I can`t stand melon! All I see in every fruit salad is melon and I hate it! I did manage to find some nice strawberries and they even taste good! It can be so hard this time of year. I usually love pineapple right now but unfortunately I barfed after eating some a couple of weeks ago and now I am afraid of it.....boooo!!!!

Monday, March 4, 2013

The Wheels Keep Spinning!

Again I found myseld stressing about my weight today. I managed to put it to the back of my mind for a while but it keeps creeping in. I find myself daydreaming about a workout schedule and what I should/want to be eating. I guess it can be a good thing?

I got sick again last night - I really need to make sure I am on top of my pills so I can stop this cycle. I am very tired right now and achy and I just want to feel good again. I am hoping to get back to the gym this week and I think Wednesday will be the start. Being off work for 2 weeks has screwed up the hubs and I at work and unfortunately he won't be able to get off work early enough for me to get to the gym. I miss my workouts so much! My body has been so achey this pregnancy - the extra 30 pounds has really had an effect on me this time. I really regret not trying harder the lose the weight after Grace. Not that I can change anything now but hopefully it will help me motivate myself after this little bundle arrives.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

The Future

It has been a really long time since I have posted. This pregnancy has run me down and now that I have started the diclectin I am feeling much better!

We went for a beautiful family trip to California and Disneyland! It was amazing! Seeing Grace experience Disneyland was really amazing. All 4 grandparents came with us so that was a huge help. I am so tired but it was worth it!

When we were on the second part of our trip with my parents at their trailor I kept seeing magazines about weight loss. I have gained 11 pounds in 6 months and I am starting to.....panick about losing the weight. I see all these celebs and others that just drop the weight and I never managed to lose the weight from the first! I don't want to be panicking about this. I was to enjoy being pregnant but I can't help but think about my "plan of action". I have to admit that I am scared.......scared that I won't be able to do it. That I will keep struggling the way I have.

Right now - I need to put that all aside and concentrate on being healthy for this baby. I will have to concentrate on the weight loss later, when it is actually time.