Saturday, December 27, 2014

Crappy Eating Holidays

I had the best of intentions over the holidays but I did not follow through. I felt like I had gotten to a good place with a good routine but I did not stick to. Lucky enough I am where I was when I started the month but I did not manage to make any progress. I need progress.

My plan - I am getting back into my healthy routine. I am going to start back with my shakeology and workouts tomorrow. I am not waiting Monday or January - tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow I will get my ass back in gear! I really need this - I feel tired and sluggish and I hate it. I need to get moving and eating better - my body is missing it!

I really wish I could get my mind on board. I seem to be able to talk myself into anything that I shouldn't - I wish it was going the other way. The mental games I okay with myself seem to be my biggest sticking point. I need to keep pushing past this....

Thursday, December 4, 2014

So much to think about

I don`t know if anyone caught the Dr. Phil show about his new diet book. The diet seem like so many other out there. One thing he was talking about is your perception of your self and negative self talk. This is a huge part of my battle. I don`t know where the switch flipped but I have fallen into old habits again this week. I seem to be able to do well for a little while and then I always slip back. I need to regain my footing and find a way to keep it.

I am excited about Shakeology still and I do love the Piyo workouts. I have still been having my morning shakes but lunches have not been on track. Today I stopped on my way home and grabbed a bunch of crap to eat while my little guy slept. He has pink eye and I don`t know I have let it carry me away completely. I sat and just ate. I felt like shit after but that didn`t stop me from doing it again while my daughter was with my parents, son was asleep for the night and hubby was at school. Alone time seems to be a huge trigger for me. I sit and just basically shove food in my face - I don't think I am even tasting it. I don't know.

Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow can and will be a better day.

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Challenge Complete

Today I wrapped up my 21 day Beach Body challenge. I am thrilled to have lost 3.1 pounds and a total of 6 inches (including 1.5 from my waist!). I know it doesn't seem like a lot but I lost weight 3 weeks in a row. For the last year at least I have been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds. Down one week and up the next. As far as I can see I have won the challenge! I can't wait to see what my prize is!

Hubby still says he wants to join me in my workouts so we are going to try again tomorrow. I`m sure he will tell me he is too tired again! It`s weird - something in my mind has changed, I never wanted to workout in front of anyone before but now if he doesn't want to join me I just workout while he sits on the couch. This is the switch I have been waiting for. I am not hiding anymore. I am honest about what I am doing with anyone who wants to know. Don't get me wrong I am not singing it from the roof tops but I am not lying about it of anyone asks me. I am excited about the changes I am making.

One big change has been NO McDonalds. I haven't had McDonalds since November 9. This is a big deal for me. We had started eating there at least once a week and that didn't count the times I went secretly at lunch and ate by myself in the parking lot. I have said I will stop for all of November. I am not sure I want to go back. My daughter has been asking to go lately. My hubby has been really supportive and got her off the subject and on to something else. I'd like to see how long I can go. I am only a few days away from 1 year without pop (soda)! Again a HUGE change in my life. I still have an Iced Tea (sweetened) on occasion. It has become daily but I have managed to cut that way back as well. I am never going to be the person who makes drastic changes - I don't want to be at Christmas Dinner eating salad. I want to enjoy my life and my food by practicing moderation.

Well I think I have rambled on long enough - have a great night!

Friday, November 21, 2014

Beach Body

Well hello there. Long time no write/read. I have been thinking about blogging and for some reason I never seem to get it done. I have had so many excuses for so many things lately it's pathetic! I can happily say that my weight is actually coming down. With going back to work I find myself on track during the day for the most part, it's the evenings that are killing me right now. I just seem to want to stuff as much as I can in my mouth. Sometimes I'm not even really aware of what I am doing and sometimes I just don't really seem to care. I have had days where I have gotten myself back in check and even popped my workout in the machine! Those days I'm very happy with myself. Being over weight seems to be a horrible cycle - round and round we go. We eat because we are fat and we are fat because we eat.

In the last few weeks I have made some really positive changes in my life. A very good friend of mine introduced me to a wonderful group of women through an accountability group. This group is tied to coaches from Beach Body and they could not be more supportive - I really needed something like this. I have been missing the group part of Weight Watchers - that support and the chance to bounce ideas off of each other. It's great to be able to share things with this wonderful group of women. I have even  brought another friend of mine in to the group realizing she could benefit from the extra support. Through this group I have been introduced to Shakeology - a great meal replacement shake. I have been using the chocolate one and I feel so satisfied and good when I drink it. I have also been introduced to Piyo - what an amazing workout! If you want some that you don't have to bounce around with this is for you! Keep in mind none of this is cheap but quality rarely is.

I haven't been consistant with my workouts at this point. Hubs and I said we were going to do this together and the. It just hasn't worked out that way. I have done it twice and he hasn't. He has been sick the latter part of the week so I have to give him a break there. The unfortunate thing is that I also gave myself a break. It's been a long week with work, school meetings and just stuff. To add to it my son has been sick no one is sleeping well. I have let this keep me from working out. I need to drop the excuses and get moving. I want to feel strong and healthy again - I really don't enjoy tired and squishy.

Friday, June 6, 2014


As you can see my weight went up..... I have been struggling to keep to my diet. I don't know what it is but I just want to eat crap. I have been having great mornings and then I just fall apart. I think I need to change my mornings up. Maybe something different for breakfast will help me keep on track. I am back to work Monday the 16th which should help. I then only have access to what I bring with me for the most part. I can go out and get something different but my mom will be there watching me ;)

I have also been knocked back a bit in the fitness department...My chiropractor has sent me to the doctor for suspected anterior compartment syndrome. We thought we were dealing with shin splints but its not getting any better....actually a little worse. It is so painful - I have had to quit my soccer team. I just can't stand the pain all the time. I am like a 90 year old when I get out of bed or off the couch. It really sucks! I am still walking but everything causes pain - there really isn't anything that doesn't cause some level of pain. I just don't know what to do.

With the lack of activity I really need to make up with it in the diet department. I don't know why I am struggling so badly. I am going to be nixing the iced tea now too. It's been 6 months since I've had a real pop but I am still drinking sweetened iced tea. I need more water and less sugar in what I am drinking. The night time snacking needs a make over as well - maybe just fruit and the occasion bit of Chicago mix when I want something different. The other change - I need to banish McDonalds. I go WAY too often and really it`s just crap I am stuffing in my body. I need to get my shit together and not be so lazy - pack a damn lunch!

I have all the tools I need to do this, I just need to open the box.

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Change Is Coming

Oh boy! I can't believe 11 1/2 months have passed so quickly! My baby boy will be 1 on June 12th and I can't believe it! He just had his first haircut and now he doesn't look like a baby :( I head back to work on June 16th and I am having mixed feelings. I am excited to have some "adult" time but I am sure going to miss my kids. My daughter seems to grow-up a little everyday and I can't find the pause button - she is 4 going on 16! She is amazing and frustrating all at the same time.

I have rejoined WW Online and haven't been doing so great. This week (I weigh in on Wednesday) I have faithfully tracked and I am quite proud of myself. My eating hasn't been great but I have been honest. I am trying to make better decisions but then I don't. It's plain and simple. If I eat crap I don't lose. On the bright side I have joined a Women's soccer team and it feels great. I am in TERRIBLE shape but I will get there. I am sad that I am paying for a gym membership and not using it but I just don't want to spend my down time at the gym. I know it is an excuse but I just don't want to leave as soon as hubby gets home and then be back in time for bedtime. I so enjoy our evenings together and I don't want to give them up. I have also started walking once a week with 2 of my neighbors. The pace isn't quite what I am used to but it seems to be getting better. We are at 3 different fitness levels but we all seem to be improving. I am waiting for my new sports bra to come in the mail so I can start the C25K - I am hoping this will help with everything (weight loss and soccer fitness).

I am going to take some time and update the blog with a new look and some correct numbers. Boy have I neglected this blog - I am looking forward to getting back at it and moving forward!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

6 Months

My beautiful baby boy is 6 months old today! I can't believe it has been 6 months already - the time is passing WAY too fast! I have days where I struggle being home with 2 kids, I know I am so lucky to get a whole year off but boy is it crazy some days! There are days where I would go back to work tomorrow and there are days where I wish I really never had to. For the most part I am not cut out for the whole stay at home mom role.

6 months later and I am still struggling to get the baby weight off. I feel like a broken record but I just have not been putting the effort in. I have quit pop - it has been 2 days now and I am feeling good about it. I have an old friend I follow on Facebook that has dropped a lot of weight so I asked what her secret was and she said cutting out pop made a huge difference. So far I am down about 2 pounds this week and I just feel better.

I am disappointed in myself for not taking full advantage of my free time with Weight Watchers. I think I will start back up after Christmas - the meetings really do make a difference. I have bought myself a little journal and I want to track what I am eating as well as how I am feeling. The 2 seem to go hand in hand. I am stuck here at over 200lbs and it just makes me sick to think about it. I have never understood why feeling bad about your weight leads to eating like shit....maybe one day I will get it?

I have started an ab challenge I saw on Facebook. My stomach muscles are just shot after pregnancy and I am hoping this will help. The other thing I would like to start is running again. I just need to find a time or partner so I can run at night. I don't have a proper stroller to run with both kids and I would like to go on my own - have a little ME time. I don't know that I will follow a specific program but I would like to work my way up to a solid 5k and see where I go from there. I know the C25K is a great program but I am not sure it's what is right for me.

Well that is all I have for now - hopefully I won't be gone quite so long this time...