Friday, June 6, 2014


As you can see my weight went up..... I have been struggling to keep to my diet. I don't know what it is but I just want to eat crap. I have been having great mornings and then I just fall apart. I think I need to change my mornings up. Maybe something different for breakfast will help me keep on track. I am back to work Monday the 16th which should help. I then only have access to what I bring with me for the most part. I can go out and get something different but my mom will be there watching me ;)

I have also been knocked back a bit in the fitness department...My chiropractor has sent me to the doctor for suspected anterior compartment syndrome. We thought we were dealing with shin splints but its not getting any better....actually a little worse. It is so painful - I have had to quit my soccer team. I just can't stand the pain all the time. I am like a 90 year old when I get out of bed or off the couch. It really sucks! I am still walking but everything causes pain - there really isn't anything that doesn't cause some level of pain. I just don't know what to do.

With the lack of activity I really need to make up with it in the diet department. I don't know why I am struggling so badly. I am going to be nixing the iced tea now too. It's been 6 months since I've had a real pop but I am still drinking sweetened iced tea. I need more water and less sugar in what I am drinking. The night time snacking needs a make over as well - maybe just fruit and the occasion bit of Chicago mix when I want something different. The other change - I need to banish McDonalds. I go WAY too often and really it`s just crap I am stuffing in my body. I need to get my shit together and not be so lazy - pack a damn lunch!

I have all the tools I need to do this, I just need to open the box.

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Change Is Coming

Oh boy! I can't believe 11 1/2 months have passed so quickly! My baby boy will be 1 on June 12th and I can't believe it! He just had his first haircut and now he doesn't look like a baby :( I head back to work on June 16th and I am having mixed feelings. I am excited to have some "adult" time but I am sure going to miss my kids. My daughter seems to grow-up a little everyday and I can't find the pause button - she is 4 going on 16! She is amazing and frustrating all at the same time.

I have rejoined WW Online and haven't been doing so great. This week (I weigh in on Wednesday) I have faithfully tracked and I am quite proud of myself. My eating hasn't been great but I have been honest. I am trying to make better decisions but then I don't. It's plain and simple. If I eat crap I don't lose. On the bright side I have joined a Women's soccer team and it feels great. I am in TERRIBLE shape but I will get there. I am sad that I am paying for a gym membership and not using it but I just don't want to spend my down time at the gym. I know it is an excuse but I just don't want to leave as soon as hubby gets home and then be back in time for bedtime. I so enjoy our evenings together and I don't want to give them up. I have also started walking once a week with 2 of my neighbors. The pace isn't quite what I am used to but it seems to be getting better. We are at 3 different fitness levels but we all seem to be improving. I am waiting for my new sports bra to come in the mail so I can start the C25K - I am hoping this will help with everything (weight loss and soccer fitness).

I am going to take some time and update the blog with a new look and some correct numbers. Boy have I neglected this blog - I am looking forward to getting back at it and moving forward!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

6 Months

My beautiful baby boy is 6 months old today! I can't believe it has been 6 months already - the time is passing WAY too fast! I have days where I struggle being home with 2 kids, I know I am so lucky to get a whole year off but boy is it crazy some days! There are days where I would go back to work tomorrow and there are days where I wish I really never had to. For the most part I am not cut out for the whole stay at home mom role.

6 months later and I am still struggling to get the baby weight off. I feel like a broken record but I just have not been putting the effort in. I have quit pop - it has been 2 days now and I am feeling good about it. I have an old friend I follow on Facebook that has dropped a lot of weight so I asked what her secret was and she said cutting out pop made a huge difference. So far I am down about 2 pounds this week and I just feel better.

I am disappointed in myself for not taking full advantage of my free time with Weight Watchers. I think I will start back up after Christmas - the meetings really do make a difference. I have bought myself a little journal and I want to track what I am eating as well as how I am feeling. The 2 seem to go hand in hand. I am stuck here at over 200lbs and it just makes me sick to think about it. I have never understood why feeling bad about your weight leads to eating like shit....maybe one day I will get it?

I have started an ab challenge I saw on Facebook. My stomach muscles are just shot after pregnancy and I am hoping this will help. The other thing I would like to start is running again. I just need to find a time or partner so I can run at night. I don't have a proper stroller to run with both kids and I would like to go on my own - have a little ME time. I don't know that I will follow a specific program but I would like to work my way up to a solid 5k and see where I go from there. I know the C25K is a great program but I am not sure it's what is right for me.

Well that is all I have for now - hopefully I won't be gone quite so long this time...

Thursday, October 17, 2013


I mean 4 month old and I have Hand, Foot and Mouth. This fucking sucks! Excuse my language but this is so ridiculous and annoying. I had a terrible migraine for 2 days with a sore throat that I thought was going to kill me and just when I thought I was over it I started getting these little bumps in my lip and then on my fingers. My little man has been a real trooper but I have banished my sweet 3 year old in hopes that she won't get this too. She drives me nuts a lot of the times but I really miss having her around. Being cooped up is also really terrible - I feel like a leper. I can't even kiss my little girl =(

Well needless to say I am not getting much activity. I took my little man for a short walk today but this took it's toll on my energy levels. I actually went to the naturopath for some help with my "baby brain". It is so bad I forgot the date I scheduled for I make the schedule! I felt like such an idiot. I managed to make it work but still....

Needless to say I will not be able to get to WW this week - I have to stay away from people until Tuesday-Wednesday depending on how the sores heal. I will hop on my scale and hopefully see a difference. I really need to get things going again as NONE of my pants fit.....this sucks. For Thanksgiving I had to buy some leggings so I didn't have to wear any maternity stuff. Everything I wear is stretchy....I miss my jeans and I refuse to buy more!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Insiration and Motivation

I need these things badly! My 31 day challenge is 8 days in and I haven't done anything I set out to do. My month started off with my 3 year old getting sick and then me. I have not been able to get myself back on track since. I am very frustrated with myself. I keep thinking about all the things that I need to do while I shove something terrible in my mouth and ignore what I am thinking.

I know what I need to do. I know how to lose weight - I have done this quite successfully in the past. Since having my daughter I have really struggled with weight loss. I seem to binge eat more than I ever remember in the past. I am going to the naturopath on Saturday to see if there is something hormonal that is causing this. I am really looking for any excuse as to why I am failing so miserably...

If anyone out there has a good blog they can recommend I would appreciate it! Most of the people I have followed in the past aren't blogging anymore and I could use some inspiration!

Monday, September 30, 2013

31 Day Challenge

I am challenging myself to 30 days on program (WW) with daily exercise. I bought myself a new Jillian DVD that is a kick boxing workout. I will be tracking daily...good and bad and I will be doing one of my dvds every day. Even Sundays. I need this to kick my lazy ass into gear.

I will be posting my weight and measurements tomorrow night and I will update my weight weekly and my measurement at the end of the month. I will also be posting more often. I started off strong getting back on program but I have really let things slip again. I find myself eating when I am alone...binging really. I just can't get a grip on things. I am so tired all the time and I just let it rule my life. I make sure I get outside with the kids everyday but it just isn't enough. I am not pushing myself. If I stopped by eating what I have with my daughter for lunch and dinner things would be going great...but I am not. I am eating so much is really a shitty cycle that I need to break.

I can't wait to see what this does for my body....hopefully I can finally start to get rid of all this extra. I have all this extra stuff left over from my pregnancy. I am only about 8-10 pounds from where I was when I got pregnant but my body just does not feel like my own anymore. I need to find my body - not what I had or have had in the past but just something I can feel good and comfortable in.

Anyone else looking for a challenge?

Monday, September 2, 2013

It's Moving!

The scale is moving in the right direction! I was down 1.8! I know it isn't a huge loss but I had my birthday and a day at the fair eating whatever I want in this week and I still lost. It put a big smile on my face and hop in my step.

We had a great long weekend and enjoyed some fun in the sun and some great company. I ate more crap than I should have but I counted it and I have moved on. I definitely find it easier to eat well during the week. The chips don't seem to come out and the meals are more scheduled. I did well but I could have done better. Something to work on this week.

I have been getting more activity in. My hubby and I are trading off so we can both get moving. We have a route that we both take (so we know where the other is). It's about 45 minutes and has a couple of small hills. I am sweaty and feel great by the time I get home. I have been debating about going back to the gym. I know people call it mom guilt but I just don't want to give up that time with both kids. At least I have Matt with my when I am walking. I just don't know if I can get enough of a workout at home. I don't know......

September is going to be a crazy month for us. My little girl is starting preschool and gymnastics in the same week. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I know she is ready but her listening leaves some to be desired....I just hope she will listen to her teachers better than she listens to us! I am excited to see her blossom - she is such a spitfire and I hope that never changes.