Christmas!

Well Christmas is finally over and I have to admit that I am a little relieved. We had a busy holiday and are still going. We had a major milestone with Grace - she no longer uses her soo-soo (pacifier) at all! This is big for us. With another baby coming in June I really wanted to be past this stage. She was great over the holidays - we baked cookies for Santa and left carrotts for Rudolph. It is so amazing seeing Christmas through a little ones eyes again! It has really made the holidays fun again. Here is Grace with Santa:

She did so well! He asked her about Princess's and she was all his!

I am 16 weeks today and feeling so much better! I had a bladder infection  about 2 weeks ago and I am finally feeling better. The antibiotics are finally out of my system and the extreme nausea is gone. I feel like I can get back on track with my eating and back to the gym. I very luckily do not have to go back to work until Wednesday so I will probably be away from the gym until then. This is the longest break I have taken in a while and let me tell you I HATE not going. I really miss exercising and I find myself craving it. I guess this is a good way to feel. Hopefully this will be the longest break I take until I give birth. I will be away for 2 weeks in February as we are taking Grace to Disneyland with the Grandparents (both sets) and then spending a week with my parents at their trailor in California! We are all so excited and I can not wait!

I bought myself a pregnancy magazine for fitness as I was really unsure as to what would be best to do while I was there. I was not sure what was safe to do. From looking at all the different exercises I think I should be able to keep myself in pretty good shape. I am not sure which starting point I should use for my weight at this point. When we started trying I stopped weighing myself regularly. I was about 190 when I stopped weighing and I was 194 at my first appointment. I am currently about the same. I fluctuate a little because I have been so sick. I guess I will say 190 is my start and I am really hoping to keep it down to about 20 pounds gained. I gained 35 with Grace but I started out at 165. I am just going to do the best I can and eat the best I can.

It's Going to Go Away

That is my Mantra right now - the nausea is going to go away. I guess it helps keep the weight off. I still have trouble eating a full meal but I am trying to make them as healthy as possible. It can be really difficult when all you want is beige....it sits to much better!

We have started telling people and it makes it a little more exciting =)

I have sadly been neglecting the gym. Christmas is such a busy time for me at work and everyone has been sick! Any suggestions for fitting activity in? I try and do what I can but I am feeling pretty yucky at night and very tired! I thought my energy was going to come back? I could really use some right about now as I deparately need to get stuff done before Christmas! It is just over 1 week away and I need to get cleaning and wrapping!

Doctor

Well today I  went to the doctor for my first full check up. I hate this part of pregnancy - you start losing all of your dignity.....People looking at everything you've got and public weigh ins. I have really been watching what I eat but after a weekend in the states and too much salt I ended up with about a 2 pound gain. Not too bad considereing but I really need to be careful . I do not want to end up with high blood preassure. This pregnancy started off with me being diagnosed with an underactive thyroid and having to start taking a daily medication for the first time in my life. I do not like this....I am happy that the thyroid thing brought some of my struggles into perspective....not that I want to stay on this medication - when this pregnancy is over I am going to work really hard to get myself off of this medication.

We have been having such a busy couple of months and with Christmas coming it isn't going to get any better. I am wiped but I just can't seem to say no to anyone. I am really looking forward to the time off between Christmas and New Years. We only have one plan to meet my cousin and her family in Seattle to check out the zoo all lit up for Christmas! Grace will be 3 in April and this has to be the most excited I have been for Christmas since I was a kid! Her eyes light up everytime she sees something that has to do with Christmas and it just makes me feel warm inside.

Well......

Hello Everyone! I hope all of my American friends had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I have been away for quite a while as I got a little distracted......

The Baby Weight is going to be going in the other direction! I am currently 11 weeks pregnant! We are so excited! Grace can't wait to be a big sister!

So this blog is going to be going in a different direction. I am trying really hard not to go over board in the eating department. I have felt pretty sick for these firtst 11 weeks. I have been trying to eat smaller meals bu things are pretty bland. I am looking forward to being able to add things back into my diet and being able to eat a whole meal without feeling like I am going to be sick.

I have really missed blogging. Can't wait to get caught up!

Damage - Done, Starting Reversal

Well I did some major damage last week. I gained a lot but have been taking it off this week. I have not been perfect this week but much better than the end of last week. I have gotten back at it and I have been keeping my workouts up. I am really enjoying the gym right now - I just feel so good.

I am staring at the screen trying to think of something to write.....nothing is coming. I will be back tomorrow to let you all know something......

Points, points and more points

I now have 2 solid days of counting and tracking all my points. It feels so good. I have even had points left over from a little treat in the evening. I have also gotten 2 good workouts in. I knew I was having a bit of a heavier dinner so I added 15 minutes to my workout for a couple of extra points.

I have been doing alot of thinking about what to eat and what not to eat. I was going to cut out chips, pop and chocolate.....you know all the normal crap we promise to never eat again. Fried foods are never to pass these lips again. Yeah right! I came to the realization that all of these things exist in real life - the change I need to make is not over doing it. I need to be able to control myself around snacks and work out a little extra for the days where I know it will be harder.

I found an old workout for the Bosu and I am going to give it a try when I am at the gym tomorrow. I need to switch things up again - I just get too bored with the machines. Anyone know if any websites where I can find some good routines?

Wow

I have been away for some time now. I really could not face myself.....My eating was so out of control I am sure I have gained about 4 pounds from last weeks start weight for Thunder Thighs Challange. I have done this through my phone as I couldn't figure out how to get my pic off my phone....(I really need to read up on it).

Today has been a great day. I have eaten well and stayed within my points. I also got to the gym this morning for a great workout! I did however goof and forget my bra.....I got out of the shower and realized I needed my hubby to drop it off at work! Good thing I had a sweater - these bad boys without a bra and a white t-shirt are not something that should be unleashed at work.

I have not been meeting my goals but hope today is a good start for me. I just need to pice some good days together to get myself back on track.

Repeat

I feel like I am on repeat. It is the same old story every day. I had a great morning including an awesome workout and good eating all day. I am having real problems with the over eating when I am alone. I just want to stuff my face with a tonne of junk.

I really need to find a way around this. It is really starting to piss me off. It is holding my weight loss back. I could be doing much better but I am letting this beat me. I can do this - I have done it before. What the hell is holding me back! The more frustrated I get the worse I eat. I haven't ever given up I just seem to slowed down. Way too much!

Almost everyone at work seems to be on a diet as well. No one ever has anything helpfull to say but we all seem stalled in the same spot. None of us ever seem to get anywhere. I have tried to get someone going with me but the only one who ever really `participated moved last year. I am having a hard time getting my mom going too. She also works with me and is constantly bothering me about my diet and how she doesn`t want me to turn out like her. I get frustrated but I can`t seem to find the right words to tell her it isn`t too late for her either.....

Bangs Head Against Wall

That is what I have done tonight. I had a really strong start and did some good planning. For some reason after work was a real problem for me. I shall get myself back on track tomorrow morning after my workout =)

I have tracked today but I will be using all my extra points to account for the crap I ate today. I did find a really good lunch. I had 3 light rye wasa crackers with cream cheese and some seasoned chicken lunch meat and some coleslaw with fat free italian dressing. So yummy and only like 6 points!

I was very proud of myself for workout out on Monday (holiday Monday). When Grace went down for her nap I took off for an hour at the gym - it felt so good! I am really looking forward to my morning gym date tomorrow morning.

Weigh In and September Goals

Well it wasn't good but it did go in the right direction. I am down .2 from last week. I can do much better than that. I did my morning workout and let me tell you I really enjoyed it! It was so nice getting it out of the way and gave me energy all through the day. I think I will tick to this as long as hubby agrees to keep taking Grace to daycare 3 mornings a week. In the mornigs the gym is quiet so I used the machines in the main area. They have "Hoist" machines that move with you - they say it is less stress on your body and you stay in correct positioning without over doing it.

My eating has not been on point today but I did buy a new paid of jeans in a 14! I am so happy to finally say good bye to my 16's! They were so baggy assed but I didn't want to spend too much on new jeans. Old Navy had some of the ones I like on the clearance rack and I had an extra 25% off so I got them for just under $15 =) I love a good deal and they fit great!

I have never really set monthly goals but I thought I would give it a go this month. I want to lose 5 pounds and workout 3 days/week minimum. I have also decided to start eating Weight Watchers again. I want an eating plan that will transfer to pregnancy easy without anyone noticing ;) The main thing is that I need to track! It is really the most important part of WW - I must track!

At the Movies

Hubby and I had an impropmtu date tonight. My parents called the other night and asked if they could take Grace to the fair (PNE) tonight. She had asked on Sunday if they would take her and since they are off for the long weekend they asked if tonight would work. We jumped at the chance to use some of the movie passes I got for my birthday and went and saw "The Expendables 2". I know it's not an ideal movie but it was really entertaining! If you are looking for something kinda funny and action packed than this would be the movie for you or your hubby ;)

We skipped dinner and pigged out on popcorn and some candy. Not a great idea when I weight in tomorrow but there is nothing I can do about it now. I will be trying my morning workout routine tomorrow. Yvon will be on his own getting Grace ready and to daycare - I think he can do it ;p I am looking forward to mixing things up. I was listening to the raido this morning and they were interviewing a diet book author (something about OMG - I can't remember) and he was saying that working out in the moring before you eat is best as you burn only fat. This happens because there is nothing else in your system to burn....hopefully there is some truth to this!

Birthday Weekend

Well I had an amazing birthday weekend1 So much more than I expected and I loved all of it! It started with an amazing day at the PNE with my lovely daughter and husband. It was so much fun taking her on all the rides! She just thought it was great! This was followed by a small surprise party held by my brother and sister-in-law. They invited 3 other couples and we all went for a really nice dinner and drinks. This was followed Sunday by a really yummy family dinner. I was really not digging turning 30....but it is really alright. I ate what I wanted and tried to move as much as possible which left me at the same weight I was when this all started. I am even making progress this week and have gotten my eating back on track.

I have been trying to give up diet pop for some time now but I can't find anything to replace it with....I really like having something in the evening (especially on the weekends) when we sit down to watch tv. Any suggestions?

I got back to the gym today and it felt so good! I did just over 30 minutes on the elyptical and then one round of the machines in the womans section. I think this is what I am going to make my routine. I may switch it up with the treadmill occassionally but I have really started to like the elyptical. I was resistant to it at first but it is such a good workout! I love the sweat I get going in just a short amount of time.

I am sad to see our long nights shortening quickly but I am looking forward to slightly cooler weather and some better sleep. I hope you are all enjoying the last days of summer!

Festivities

The birthday festivities are starting early and I have also got my period! This has not been an easy week to say the least. I am trying to stay on track but it has not been easy. I have managed 2 workouts but forgot my shoes on the third day and had a massage therapy appointment today. Hubby and the kid are staying home tomorrow and I am getting up and going for my workout. I really need to get atleast one more in before the weekend.

To celebrate my birthday we are taking our daughter to The PNE. It's our summer fair and I am so excited to get her on some of the rides. It should be a really good time full of some really shitty food. There are mini donuts and a plethora or fried foods. I know I will be eating some - I will not lie to you. This is the one time of year I can get min donuts and I will not turn them down.

Tuesday morning my mom and I will be restarting the 17 day diet together. I do not know if my mom will follow as strictly but I need to get those last pounds off before we start trying for baby number 2 in October. I do not know that I will make it to 165 but I really do not want to wait anymore. I am having a hard time waiting until then to be quite honest but I know I need to get more weight off so it will not be the same struggle again.

Still here!

We have had a long couple of days and quite honestly when I sit down at the end of the night I consider blogging and then.....I just sit here. Couple of nights I was eating ice cream. Today - not so much. I have cut out pop again and I have a killer headache! It started just before I got to the gym for my workout and has not slowed down. Luckily my lovely husband looked after bath and bed for our adorable daughter tonight!

It is my 30th birthday on saturday and quite honestly I am not that excited. It will be a busy week full of food and I am just going to do the best I can with it. I did manage to lose the weight I gained on holiday and even got .4 ahead. That felt good. I am pretty sure I blew it this weekend but got right back on track today. I feel with pop I am bloating myself and it just makes me want to eat crap. I will still occassionally have one because I am not much of a drinker and I do not really like only having water when we go out.

Today I branched out at the gym and did some light work on the machines. My body seems to respond quickly to weights - I am hoping this will help spur my progress along.

Crap

That is what I ate today. I went to the store and lunch and totally ate crap.... I am so ashamed but I am going to share. For lunch today I ate  glazed doughnut, chocolate chip muffin and a kit kat. Seriously folks that is what I ate. What the fuck (sorry for the language but you saw what I ate) was I thinking/doing? I apparently do not want to lose weight.....

I was pleased that I got my shit together enough to go for a 40 minute spin on the elyptical after work. It felt so good. I had dinner at the in-laws - not great but not terrible. I did manage to "get rid of" the remaining icecream.  I am seriously just.......I do not know what to say.

Tomorrow is a new day and I really need to make better choices if I want to lose this weight before I get pregnant again and make things even more difficult.

On another note I really need to revamp my blog - all of you have such pretty sites and mine has been the same forever and a day! I just need to figure out how to do it. My husband is watching a terrible show and I think I will take this time to play.

Tomorrow will be a better day full of better choices.

Still Coasting

I do not know what I am stuck on right now but I cannot pice together a whole good day! This is rediculous - the worst part? the more I eat the worse I feel and the more I WANT to eat. I am even slipping into the terrifying habit of secret eating. I am pretty sure this is how I gained all of this weight and why I cannot get rid of it.

Do you eat in secret? Any suggestions on dealing with it?

This week we have family photos - I won them from one of the women who took our wedding photos 5 years ago! I am kind of excited but it is dampened by the fact that I do not look as I wish....I am going to get my make up done so that should help with part of it but I am so unhappy with my body right now. I did get to the gym today and I will be going Tueday and Wednesday to help as much as possible. I feel so much better when I workout. My eating was great until I got home and was alone...

Back on the Horse?

I have been back from vacation for almost one week. I have not managed to be one track for one day yet. I am really struggling with myself - I just keep eating crap. I manage to have at least one good meal per day but I can't seem to really get past that. My best was 2....not good enough. I did get one really nice workout in but again it is not enough. Must get my act together. Luckily I only gained just under 2 pounds but I am sure after my wreck of a day today it will be worse.

I feel like there is a mental block for me getting past this point. Why do I continue to sabotage myself? I think this is a question that a lot of us are asking? What is the answer? I think it might be different for all of us.

I was feeling good leaving on vacation but I was very disappointed when I saw pictures of myself. I see my face......but it isn't my face. It is some bloated fat chick - who is she? I really need to find the face that I recognize again.

Results

Hey Kids! My first 17 days went really well. I lost 8.4 pounds and 6.5 inches! I am so pleased with the way everything is going. Mind you I am a little over that right now as we wereaway from home for most meals this weekend and I did not make very good choices. I ate every chip I saw.....not very good. I also had a total breakdown at the mall today and pigged out at the chocolate place while I was by myself. I have not secret eaten since I started this and I am disappointed in myself. I cannot dwell on this, I must move forward and get myself back on track. I have tomorrow planned and can't see where I will have any problems. My bff and I are going to see Magic Mike tomorrow and I have decided I will be full before I go so I don't eat while I am there. Hubby and I are seeing Batman on Tuesday and we are going out for dinner first so I need to be really careful for tomorrow and Tueday during the day. Wednesday will be another difficult ngiht but I can pull it all together for Thuersday and Friday before we leave for a weeks holiday on Saturday!

I am trying to wrap my head around eating while on vacation. I think I have it figured out. I am just hoping to avoid gaining any weight. I do not expect to lose anything but if I can avoid gaining I am fine with it. The activity is going to be hard as we are camping and boating for the week. 

Any suggestions or tips for eating well while on vacation?

Weekend Indulgence

I forgot to blog the last few days. We had a blast at the wedding and I really enjoyed the weekend! I ate the best I could for the situations this weekend except for Sunday. My hangover left me eating everything in sight. I had a very hard time getting back on track - it took me until Monday. I took Sunday and indulged some craving I have been having - I figured I might as well satisfy so I can just get right back on track on Monday. I was really happy with myself on Monday for just getting back - I was even happier to get back to the gym! I am really loving how I feel right now.

The bottle of red wine I drank on Saturday night at the wedding and all the good food has me up a couple of pounds but I was expecting it so really I am not too upset. I wish I had gotten right back on track on Sunday but there is nothing I can do about it today except make sure I don#t let it happen again. I have some challenges coming up in the next week and I know it will effect my overall weight loss but I might want a piece of cake at the birthday party or a piece of dessert at the going away party and that is going to be an ongoing part off life where I need to learn to just have 1. The hubby and I also have a date on Tuesday to go and see Batman and dinner. I will be able to have some potatoe and red meat by then but I am sure it should not be prepared the way they will do it at the restaurant but I will do the best I can while still enjoying my life =)

I am really looking forward to Thursday and reporting my 17 day loss!

My Love for The 17 Day Diet

Ok folks I am in love - with my new diet. I never thought I could do it but I am now down 7.1 pounds in a little over 1 week! I feel full, I have tons of energy and my hair and skin haven't looked this good in a while! If you are considering this diet, I would highly recommend it. It seems like it's a really hard diet but it isn't. It is very basic and quite tasty actually.

Today we went for a picnic at the beach for dinner - this was a bit of a challenge. We were with a group and they eat pretty crappy. I brought the veggies and there was roasted chicken so that is what I ate. I did look at the chips and buns but really I was fine without them, the chocolate cake thing on the other hand was a little bit harder. I really wanted a pice but wth the wedding on saturday I thought better of it and walked away.

It felt good today to get to the gym. I only managed 30 minutes on the treadmill but it is amazing what that can do for you. It just lifts my stress and I feel relaxed.

I just wanted to say thank you for all the comments lately! I wasn't sure I was going to have anyone reading after being away for so long!

Crabby

My week just seems to be not going great. I am so crabby right now....I really just need to zen it out and take a deep breath. Let it go.

Ous stove is dying on us right now and we need to find a new one. Why does something always have to go wrong when you are just trying to save some money? It's like it is a rule!

I am extremely happy to say that I am down to 184.8! The lowest I have seen in a while - it feels so good. I have stuck to my diet and I feel relieved almost. It's so nice to see the scale move. I know the weekend is going to be hard - we have a wedding on Saturday and I am just going to enjoy myself. I know it will effect my numbers for 17 days but I am okay with it. I don't want to sit with a glass of water and no food on my plate.....I just want to enjoy myself without worrying. I am going to eat on plan for the rest of the day but then I am just going to enjoy seeing all my friends and eat what I want with a couple of drinks.

The crazy thing is I have not had a piece of junk food, chocolate, diet pop......nothing~! I am not really sure that I miss it all that much. Certain times I have felt like I would like it but I am not feeling deprived and I am really suprised by that. Talking with my father in law last night and he said that he couldn't do this because he couldn't have bread. I felt exactly the same way until I tried it....and honestly I don't really miss it. I haven't really been in a situation of a lunch out or dinner where I am avoiding something really good but I did eat a sandwich for lunch everyday and I am okay with not having it. I'm not saying I will never eat bread again but I will make it more of a treat than an everyday thing.

So Frustrating!

I had today all planned out. Work in the morning and then I would pick up Grace, come home eat dinner and then when Yvon got home we would all take off for haircuts. Well then Grace woke up with a rash so I decided I would make a doctors appointment. I make an appointment for 3:50 - finally at 5:15 we see the doctor and he tells me to keep what I have been doing.....So annoying. It just put everything off and I did not get to eat an on plan dinner as we ate in the car and quickly. I was happy that I didn't slip into old habits and end up at a drive-thru but peanut butter and jelly on whole wheat is not what I had planned. I did get a carrot in there and lots of water! I am looking forward to the end of my period so I can really see the difference in the water retention. I am down a total of 4.4 =) So happy with the quick results but I am afraid I won't see a change tomorrow. I know why but I really like seeing that number change. Well a girl can hope! I am not sure how often I should be taking my measurements - I think after 17 days I will take them again. I am so looking forward to those changes too!

Weekend Update

Well I am very proud to say that I have stuck with it! Today I did vary of course for one part of one meal. We did had a lovely picnic at the spray park near our house. I did not want to take salad and chicken with me so I made myself a peanut butter and jam sandwich just like everyone else. This has been the only part on this diet where I have varied from what I am to eat. This is a first for me - with the flexibility of Weight Watchers I still ate crap as long as it fit into my points. With no points to count or calories I am just limited to what I can have. I am finding this easy and I really feel great. I even started my period and don't really feel too crappy. I did have a couple of moments where I really wanted to just grab soemthing crappy to eat - I did not! And in 6 days I am down 3 pounds! I think seeing the results so quickly is really helping me to keep on track and to stay motivated.

I have been doing pretty good with my activity but I can definately see room for improvement. With all the stress at work and the regular stress of owning a home and having a family I need to make time for myself. Time for me is really important, to help kee me sane and to help keep me healthy. Today I took some time and went shopping while Grace napped and it felt good to get out by myself and be on my own time. No schedule to stick to just me wandering. This was also a bit of a test for me - I am a secret eater. I used to go to the mall and get 2 cookies from Mrs. Fields, a chocolate bar and a pop - sometimes I would even have secret McDonald's......This is hard to write. I am embarassed to remember myself stuffing my face while I was out alone so no one could say anything. I am not saying I will never have cookies or anything again - just not like that. Nothing about food should be a secret or snuck unless it is a "secret family recipe".

On the lighter side - Grace and I spent the day at my parents on Friday where Grace ran through the "pinkle" for the first time!

Better Day

Today was much better and NO HEADACHE!!!!!! I am so happy to finally be past that point and I am really feeling good. The food gets a bit boring but that is what is like with any diet, the best part, it is only 17 days and then I get to switch it up a bit =) I really like the idea of this diet, I like the fact that I can go back to this cycle to help restart things.

I have been getting my activity ramped up again. I tried to start running but I find it really hard to find the time. I was waking up at 5 and going but I was just too tired and I couldn't keep it up. I was happy to get back to the gym this week and I got out for a couple of walks at lunch and after dinner. It is so beautiful here right now! I cannot wait to spend this weekend outside =)

Here is a picture of Grace enjoying the sun and her pool!

Day 3

A long day today. I ate really well during the day and then I did soemthing to my dinner and I just couldn't finish it. I don't know what it was but it just turned my stomach.....

We took our daughter to feed the ducks today and we got eaten alive by mosquitos! I hate mosquitos! I am happy that summer has finally arrived here in Vancouver! The weather has been horrible up until yesterday - I guess I will just have to deal with the mosquitos!

My headache is not going away so I am going to go now - more tomorrow.....

Day 2

Good again! I ate a little differently today and ended up hungry at the end of the night.

 I had 2 eggs and 2 egg whites with 2 slices of fat free cheese and an apple
No snack
Lunch was 0% Greek Yogurt with Strawberries and Raspberries
Dinner was salad with turkey and fat free dressing
Last snack was yogurt with a little bit of vanilla

I am not sure if I can have vanilla but I needed something to sweeten it - plain yogurt is just not good. I was feeling quite hungry when I ate and then it just seemed to get a bit worse so I really needed that snack! I ate too small of a lunch and that was a mistake. I find when I get too hungry I have a hard time getting full. I must be more aware tomorrow and aim for a bigger lunch. I have not jumped on the green tea band wagon yet, I don`t like tea so I have just been trying to drink a lot of water. It gets kind of boring but I was down about 1 pound in the first day so I think it is really going to be worth it!

The reason I started this is that we are going to a wedding on the 14th of this month and while trying to be budget friendly I found an old dress in my closet - I could barely get it zipped. I am hoping this will make the dress more comfortable and me more comfortable with how I look. I was just going to do the first 17 days for this wedding but I have decided that I will just keep going. I really want to lose some weight before I get pregnant again and we are planning for September/October to start trying. It seem kind of weird to try and lose weight when you are just going to be putting it back on but this time I do not want to be 200 pounds when I deliver.

Well it is time to relax!

17 Day Diet - Day 1

So I stuck to the meal plan today and I was very suprised that I am full and feel good. I was not thinking I would feel full and I was pretty sure I would be really crabby. I am happy to say I was wrong. I feel good with all of the veggies I have eaten today and some really good protein.

I had 1 egg and 2 egg whites with a slice of fat free cheese and an apple
for snack I had mixed berries
lunch was broccoli slaw with tuna and fat free italian dressing
other snack was 0% plain greek yogurt with sugar free strawberry jam
and finally dinner was roasted turkey breast with mixed veggies and some fat free ranch dressing

Doesn't seem like a lot but it really seems to have been enough. I want 2 eggs and egg whites tomorrow and I think I will try and switch up my snacks. Not too sure what I will do but I will try something a little different.

I will let you all know how it goes ;)

Something New

Well folks I have been struggling. I have not been doing what I need to so I have decided to try something new. Tomorrow I officially start "The 17 Day Diet". I have had the book for some time now but I was not going to go through with it - it was too restrictive for me. Well maybe that is just what I need.

It is a really interesting plan and I can tell that if I follow this I will be successful. I have been running around half assing everything and it has gotten me nowhere. I have gained weight! I am currently 190.9 - ugh! Well I am hoping that I can find the time at night to bog about my experience with my "something new".

What am I doing?

Is what I asked myself as I ate chips on the couch. I had a really good day of eating but it ended with a headache and me wanting to eat crap. I am really happy I did better during the day - apparently this is going to be a really long process for me.

I did not track today for no good reason so I will not be able to tell you exactly what I ate. Tomorrow I will be tracking. It does not matter if it is one day of the week....it's better than nothing.

I am having a difficult week work wise and the stress is really wearing me down. Must get more sleep and some decent activity.

EEK!

I am a ball of stress and I let it effect my eating. I went out at lunch and brought back a ham and cheese croissant and a bag of chips. Why did I do this? I missed my workout because I had my lunch cut short by a very angry boss. Why didn't I go for a walk or just stay at my desk? Come on Lisa - get your shit together!

Work has been freakin' crazy and I cannot seem to keep up! My Manager has gone off on medical leave (we think she has had a stroke but she is not really seeking the help she needs), before she left she was a nightmare - she was not doing her work and she trying to hide it. She left the day I got back from my last holiday. At this time we were already down one (my mom works with me and she was in California for 2 months) and her last day was the day before I came back. She did absolutely NOTHING for the week I was gone. She then came back for a gradual return after 2 months (we had finally gotten caught up) - she was so out of it and then our boss left on vacation and it was up to me to "watch" her. While she was gone I took over as manager and she was told I would remain that way until our boss returned. She was not happy to say the least - she has always been threatened by me. As she started working more days she starting getting weird again - to the point I asked one of the others in the office to talk to her about taking some more time off and she THANKFULLY called in to say that she was not feeling well again and needed some more time off. Her doctor has her off until the end of June but I am not sure she will ever be able to come back. During all of this we hired a temp and she was dumb! She would sit at her desk and stare at me instead of asking for something to do. You would think after 2 months she would realize her next pile of work was in the same spot I had pointed to the last 100 times! We have so much going on and everyone keeps passing it on to me. Today I honestly could have cried....I ate chips instead =(

Well now that my rant is over I will do better tomorrow!

Long Road

This is becoming the most drawn out process ever! I just can't seem to get my shit together.... I keep "recommitting" myself. It is not working. I am at about the same spot as I was the last time I posted. I have been going to the gym but I don't seem to be able to get my eats under control. I am going to start using this blog again - not only for a place to vent but I am going to start recording what and how much I eat.

I also really need to get caught up on what is happening around here! I miss you guys!

Well this is a short post but tomorrow will be better and it will include my menu for the day. I will also be posting my workouts. I got an I phone so I have started the the C25K and I am really enjoying it. I am actually suprised - I get up at 5 so I can still hit the gym without missing too much time with my adorable daughter!

See you later =)

Ups and Downs

Hello! I have been a little absent again - just been so busy! We are getting ready to head off on vacation and I am so excited! My parents have purchased a trailer and pad in Blythe California and we are going to visit for 6 days =) There is sun there! We are flying into Pheonix and then we will drive to the trailer and then back to Pheonix to catch a hockey game and fly home!

I had a bad week and gained 2.7 pounds.....yikes! Then this week I was down 1.1 and hopped on the scale this morning to see the rest of it was gone. I was really sick with a horrible sinus infection this last week so there was no gym for me but there was not a lot of eating either so I guess it worked out. I have bought myself a fridge full of good food and have decided that I will not be having pop or chips during the day. I have become accustomed to having a coke zero and a bad of baked cheetos with my lunch (usually a sandwich). No veggies there so I am switching back to spinach salad with either crackers or a WW bagel with cream cheese. I am hoping this change helps me avoid some of these colds I have been getting from the germ mong....I mean daughter ;) Since Grace started daycare I have had so many colds and flu's it is ridiculous!

I am really looking forward to getting back to the gym. Hubby also helped me pick out a Jillian workout for my off days. I  will just have to set aside some time where I can do it.....Just figured it out - Hubby and I bought a Playbook and he said he can play with that while I work out. I know going away will cause some problems....I won't be eating perfectly but I will be putting the effort forward to stay on track.

Good Changes

Well I got on the scale this morning and did my measurements - =) Sadly I have not eaten well since my WI on Saturday and managed to gain about .4 for the month....But I did lose 2.5 inches! I was so happy to see those changes! My hard work at the gym is paying off and my body is starting to change. I was back at the gym today to keep this up. My eating was better today but still not back fully on track.

I am trying to cut back on pop. I have really noticed that if I do not have one in the evening I also don't feel the need to snack. This week I have really struggled with this. Hubby goes to school on Wednesday nights and my parents or inlaws come over and spend some time with Grace and I. They leave after bed time and I find myself scouring the house for something "bad" to eat while I sit quietly and watch whatever I want to on tv. This I need to conquer.

This week I am going to push myself for 4 visits to The 30 Minute Hit - I feel so much better after I have been. To help balance my time between me and my family. I was finding that working out after work made it less likely for me to cook a good meal for all of us and I felt like I was missing too much time with Grace. I have started working out Monday, Wednesday and Friday's at lunch and it feels so good. I am going to try and add Thursday after work to help really jump start things.

Anybody Out There?

Wow - it has been a long time since I have posted......I found that I had turned my blog into something negative. It was not doing me any favors to come and talk bad about myself and just complain. I can't promise that I will post everyday but I want to get back to some more "me" time and that includes some blogging time.

I have started tracking again (most of the time) and I have successfully lost just over 1 pound since the beginning of the year. I know it isn't alot but in the first week I gained and now I am working it off. I can very proudly say that I lost 3 weeks in a row! This is big for me - I don't know that I have done that in a very long time. I haven't gone back for WW meetings yet, financially it isn't really in the cards. I want to try and go once per month to help keep on track. I have committed myself to 3 days per week at 30 Minute Hit (such an amazing workout) and I am trying to walk the other couple of days. I finally feel like I am getting results!

This is a big year for us - we both turn 30, it is our 5 year wedding anniversary and we want to have another baby (well get pregnant). All of this is part of my weight loss plan. We are going to Vegas between our birthday to celebrate all of the above and spend some time just the 2 of us before we expand our family and start taking more family type holidays. I do not want to be the same weight I was when I got pregnant the first time (165 lbs). I am currently 185.4 and I just need to keep chipping away at it! My weigh in day is now Saturday so when I can attend a meeting I will still be on the right schedule. I am also doing a weight and measurement on the first of every month. I challenged myself at the gym to lose 1 inch in January and I think I have got it!

I am looking for something fun to do at home (workout wise) and was wondering if anyone had opinions on Zumba for Wii?

Well I hope some of you are still out there and interested =)