Thursday, August 9, 2012

Back on the Horse?

I have been back from vacation for almost one week. I have not managed to be one track for one day yet. I am really struggling with myself - I just keep eating crap. I manage to have at least one good meal per day but I can't seem to really get past that. My best was 2....not good enough. I did get one really nice workout in but again it is not enough. Must get my act together. Luckily I only gained just under 2 pounds but I am sure after my wreck of a day today it will be worse.

I feel like there is a mental block for me getting past this point. Why do I continue to sabotage myself? I think this is a question that a lot of us are asking? What is the answer? I think it might be different for all of us.

I was feeling good leaving on vacation but I was very disappointed when I saw pictures of myself. I see my face......but it isn't my face. It is some bloated fat chick - who is she? I really need to find the face that I recognize again.


  1. I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes you get into that slump and can't pull out, that's how I've been for a few months with just eating poorly and not caring. It's so much a mental thing. You can do it tho. Think about your reasons why you want to do it and know that if you put in the effort (which will suck lol), then you WILL do it!

  2. Hi :) I saw your profile and can relate, I'm a 27 year old new mom trying to lose the baby weight. I get down a lot too, I've never been this heavy in all my life. The other day my husband and I went out on a 'date' and I went to put on something nice and had to resort to my maternity clothes because they are all that fit. And the pants I tried to put on, that were too small, look so huge on the hanger. Just keep your head up and keep writing on your blog - the support around here is great. You aren't alone in your struggles!