Yesterday I read a very emotional post from one of my favorite bloggers. She was talking about how she had failed because she was struggling with emotional eating and she had given in and eaten some cookies. This blogger has lost almost 80 pounds and is doing amazing! If this is failing....what am I doing? I know we all have our own personal struggles and ways of dealing with them. We all have our own ideas of what is success and what is failure, but right now I feel like I am in every meaning of the word a failure.
I have been going to WW for months now and all I have managed to do is watch my weight go down and up in a continuous cycle. This is not because of the plan but because I don't seem to be able to commit myself to anything. I had a plan when I was pregnant that as soon as I could I would be back to WW and back on my way to goal. I followed through with that plan but gave up very quickly....it was too hard. I had a new baby you know and I just couldn't do it. That is the excuse I keep using. I have dug myself into some kind of funk where I just seem too lazy to do anything. I keep going to WW and planning what I am going to do and then never fully following through. I will so a part of the plan but not the whole thing, or I will keep it up for a couple of days and then just stop. I feel like I am in a perpetual cycle of failure....
I have all the knowledge and tools I need to do this so why do I keep failing? I keep failing because I let myself. I keep typing out all these plans that I have....they are just words if I don't follow through with the action.
This week I will go to 30 Minute Hit 3 times, I will make it to at least 1 Stroller Strides class, I will only eat my daily points and weekly points and I will make better choices. This week I will not fail.