Yesterday I read a very emotional post from one of my favorite bloggers. She was talking about how she had failed because she was struggling with emotional eating and she had given in and eaten some cookies. This blogger has lost almost 80 pounds and is doing amazing! If this is failing....what am I doing? I know we all have our own personal struggles and ways of dealing with them. We all have our own ideas of what is success and what is failure, but right now I feel like I am in every meaning of the word a failure.
I have been going to WW for months now and all I have managed to do is watch my weight go down and up in a continuous cycle. This is not because of the plan but because I don't seem to be able to commit myself to anything. I had a plan when I was pregnant that as soon as I could I would be back to WW and back on my way to goal. I followed through with that plan but gave up very quickly....it was too hard. I had a new baby you know and I just couldn't do it. That is the excuse I keep using. I have dug myself into some kind of funk where I just seem too lazy to do anything. I keep going to WW and planning what I am going to do and then never fully following through. I will so a part of the plan but not the whole thing, or I will keep it up for a couple of days and then just stop. I feel like I am in a perpetual cycle of failure....
I have all the knowledge and tools I need to do this so why do I keep failing? I keep failing because I let myself. I keep typing out all these plans that I have....they are just words if I don't follow through with the action.
This week I will go to 30 Minute Hit 3 times, I will make it to at least 1 Stroller Strides class, I will only eat my daily points and weekly points and I will make better choices. This week I will not fail.
I know that in no way am I "Failing" long term, but I did feel that I failed in that experience... not the overall journey and I think some people took me wrong when I said that. I just wanted to be honest because this weight loss journey is not easy and I don't want to just show the good parts of weight loss. We all struggle.
ReplyDeleteAnd that's what is important- that we don't give up!
You're not a failure until you fail to try! And we're still trying! :)
Maybe you should plan out what to eat more, and only keep healthy foods in the house. That way, if you're tempted, you have to go to the store to get something rather than having it right there. I'm doing WW too and try not to eat all my weekly points, you'll see more of a difference if you don't and it might motivate you to stay consistent. But no matter what, you're not failing if you keep on it. Maybe you're struggling, but that's ok, we all do!
ReplyDeleteFirst- BIG HUGS!!
ReplyDeleteUntil you close up shop, stop trying, stop blogging, and just hide in your closet with a tub of cookie dough- you have not failed! Quitting is failing, but you're still here trying to find your groove! Even if we've treaded water for a while (I've been struggling with ya!), we're still working on it and that's all we can do. I hope you have a better week, and stop being so hard on yourself! :)
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