Sick and Tired

I am sick an tired of myself. I just can't seem to get my sh!t together! I have been getting good sleep for about 2 or 3 months now and I think I should be able to get myself back on track. I just keep over eating, I don't know what it is. I am alone most of the day and I don't seem to be able to control myself. I have tried not keeping the stuff in the house, that leads me to binge when I am out, instead of a 100 cal chocolate bar I will eat a full size one. I don't know.

So I am going back to WW tomorrow morning. I am trying a new meeting and have invited my mom to join me. My mom is also over weight and has been for a long time. My brother is getting married next summer and I know we both want to look our best so I thought it would be nice for us to do this together, to support each other. I have chosen a new meeting location, one I have never been to and one I never worked at. I thought the shame of going where I had worked and new the ladies was going to be a driving force for me but really it only pushed me in the wrong direction.

I really need to take this seriously. I am so sick of feeling bad about myself, looking in the mirror and hating what I see. It's time for me to change.