I had the best of intentions over the holidays but I did not follow through. I felt like I had gotten to a good place with a good routine but I did not stick to. Lucky enough I am where I was when I started the month but I did not manage to make any progress. I need progress.
My plan - I am getting back into my healthy routine. I am going to start back with my shakeology and workouts tomorrow. I am not waiting Monday or January - tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow I will get my ass back in gear! I really need this - I feel tired and sluggish and I hate it. I need to get moving and eating better - my body is missing it!
I really wish I could get my mind on board. I seem to be able to talk myself into anything that I shouldn't - I wish it was going the other way. The mental games I okay with myself seem to be my biggest sticking point. I need to keep pushing past this....
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Thursday, December 4, 2014
So much to think about
I don`t know if anyone caught the Dr. Phil show about his new diet book. The diet seem like so many other out there. One thing he was talking about is your perception of your self and negative self talk. This is a huge part of my battle. I don`t know where the switch flipped but I have fallen into old habits again this week. I seem to be able to do well for a little while and then I always slip back. I need to regain my footing and find a way to keep it.
I am excited about Shakeology still and I do love the Piyo workouts. I have still been having my morning shakes but lunches have not been on track. Today I stopped on my way home and grabbed a bunch of crap to eat while my little guy slept. He has pink eye and I don`t know I have let it carry me away completely. I sat and just ate. I felt like shit after but that didn`t stop me from doing it again while my daughter was with my parents, son was asleep for the night and hubby was at school. Alone time seems to be a huge trigger for me. I sit and just basically shove food in my face - I don't think I am even tasting it. I don't know.
Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow can and will be a better day.
I am excited about Shakeology still and I do love the Piyo workouts. I have still been having my morning shakes but lunches have not been on track. Today I stopped on my way home and grabbed a bunch of crap to eat while my little guy slept. He has pink eye and I don`t know I have let it carry me away completely. I sat and just ate. I felt like shit after but that didn`t stop me from doing it again while my daughter was with my parents, son was asleep for the night and hubby was at school. Alone time seems to be a huge trigger for me. I sit and just basically shove food in my face - I don't think I am even tasting it. I don't know.
Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow can and will be a better day.
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Challenge Complete
Today I wrapped up my 21 day Beach Body challenge. I am thrilled to have lost 3.1 pounds and a total of 6 inches (including 1.5 from my waist!). I know it doesn't seem like a lot but I lost weight 3 weeks in a row. For the last year at least I have been losing and gaining the same 5 pounds. Down one week and up the next. As far as I can see I have won the challenge! I can't wait to see what my prize is!
Hubby still says he wants to join me in my workouts so we are going to try again tomorrow. I`m sure he will tell me he is too tired again! It`s weird - something in my mind has changed, I never wanted to workout in front of anyone before but now if he doesn't want to join me I just workout while he sits on the couch. This is the switch I have been waiting for. I am not hiding anymore. I am honest about what I am doing with anyone who wants to know. Don't get me wrong I am not singing it from the roof tops but I am not lying about it of anyone asks me. I am excited about the changes I am making.
One big change has been NO McDonalds. I haven't had McDonalds since November 9. This is a big deal for me. We had started eating there at least once a week and that didn't count the times I went secretly at lunch and ate by myself in the parking lot. I have said I will stop for all of November. I am not sure I want to go back. My daughter has been asking to go lately. My hubby has been really supportive and got her off the subject and on to something else. I'd like to see how long I can go. I am only a few days away from 1 year without pop (soda)! Again a HUGE change in my life. I still have an Iced Tea (sweetened) on occasion. It has become daily but I have managed to cut that way back as well. I am never going to be the person who makes drastic changes - I don't want to be at Christmas Dinner eating salad. I want to enjoy my life and my food by practicing moderation.
Well I think I have rambled on long enough - have a great night!
Hubby still says he wants to join me in my workouts so we are going to try again tomorrow. I`m sure he will tell me he is too tired again! It`s weird - something in my mind has changed, I never wanted to workout in front of anyone before but now if he doesn't want to join me I just workout while he sits on the couch. This is the switch I have been waiting for. I am not hiding anymore. I am honest about what I am doing with anyone who wants to know. Don't get me wrong I am not singing it from the roof tops but I am not lying about it of anyone asks me. I am excited about the changes I am making.
One big change has been NO McDonalds. I haven't had McDonalds since November 9. This is a big deal for me. We had started eating there at least once a week and that didn't count the times I went secretly at lunch and ate by myself in the parking lot. I have said I will stop for all of November. I am not sure I want to go back. My daughter has been asking to go lately. My hubby has been really supportive and got her off the subject and on to something else. I'd like to see how long I can go. I am only a few days away from 1 year without pop (soda)! Again a HUGE change in my life. I still have an Iced Tea (sweetened) on occasion. It has become daily but I have managed to cut that way back as well. I am never going to be the person who makes drastic changes - I don't want to be at Christmas Dinner eating salad. I want to enjoy my life and my food by practicing moderation.
Well I think I have rambled on long enough - have a great night!
Friday, November 21, 2014
Beach Body
Well hello there. Long time no write/read. I have been thinking about blogging and for some reason I never seem to get it done. I have had so many excuses for so many things lately it's pathetic! I can happily say that my weight is actually coming down. With going back to work I find myself on track during the day for the most part, it's the evenings that are killing me right now. I just seem to want to stuff as much as I can in my mouth. Sometimes I'm not even really aware of what I am doing and sometimes I just don't really seem to care. I have had days where I have gotten myself back in check and even popped my workout in the machine! Those days I'm very happy with myself. Being over weight seems to be a horrible cycle - round and round we go. We eat because we are fat and we are fat because we eat.
In the last few weeks I have made some really positive changes in my life. A very good friend of mine introduced me to a wonderful group of women through an accountability group. This group is tied to coaches from Beach Body and they could not be more supportive - I really needed something like this. I have been missing the group part of Weight Watchers - that support and the chance to bounce ideas off of each other. It's great to be able to share things with this wonderful group of women. I have even brought another friend of mine in to the group realizing she could benefit from the extra support. Through this group I have been introduced to Shakeology - a great meal replacement shake. I have been using the chocolate one and I feel so satisfied and good when I drink it. I have also been introduced to Piyo - what an amazing workout! If you want some that you don't have to bounce around with this is for you! Keep in mind none of this is cheap but quality rarely is.
I haven't been consistant with my workouts at this point. Hubs and I said we were going to do this together and the. It just hasn't worked out that way. I have done it twice and he hasn't. He has been sick the latter part of the week so I have to give him a break there. The unfortunate thing is that I also gave myself a break. It's been a long week with work, school meetings and just stuff. To add to it my son has been sick no one is sleeping well. I have let this keep me from working out. I need to drop the excuses and get moving. I want to feel strong and healthy again - I really don't enjoy tired and squishy.
In the last few weeks I have made some really positive changes in my life. A very good friend of mine introduced me to a wonderful group of women through an accountability group. This group is tied to coaches from Beach Body and they could not be more supportive - I really needed something like this. I have been missing the group part of Weight Watchers - that support and the chance to bounce ideas off of each other. It's great to be able to share things with this wonderful group of women. I have even brought another friend of mine in to the group realizing she could benefit from the extra support. Through this group I have been introduced to Shakeology - a great meal replacement shake. I have been using the chocolate one and I feel so satisfied and good when I drink it. I have also been introduced to Piyo - what an amazing workout! If you want some that you don't have to bounce around with this is for you! Keep in mind none of this is cheap but quality rarely is.
I haven't been consistant with my workouts at this point. Hubs and I said we were going to do this together and the. It just hasn't worked out that way. I have done it twice and he hasn't. He has been sick the latter part of the week so I have to give him a break there. The unfortunate thing is that I also gave myself a break. It's been a long week with work, school meetings and just stuff. To add to it my son has been sick no one is sleeping well. I have let this keep me from working out. I need to drop the excuses and get moving. I want to feel strong and healthy again - I really don't enjoy tired and squishy.
Friday, June 6, 2014
So....
As you can see my weight went up..... I have been struggling to keep to my diet. I don't know what it is but I just want to eat crap. I have been having great mornings and then I just fall apart. I think I need to change my mornings up. Maybe something different for breakfast will help me keep on track. I am back to work Monday the 16th which should help. I then only have access to what I bring with me for the most part. I can go out and get something different but my mom will be there watching me ;)
I have also been knocked back a bit in the fitness department...My chiropractor has sent me to the doctor for suspected anterior compartment syndrome. We thought we were dealing with shin splints but its not getting any better....actually a little worse. It is so painful - I have had to quit my soccer team. I just can't stand the pain all the time. I am like a 90 year old when I get out of bed or off the couch. It really sucks! I am still walking but everything causes pain - there really isn't anything that doesn't cause some level of pain. I just don't know what to do.
With the lack of activity I really need to make up with it in the diet department. I don't know why I am struggling so badly. I am going to be nixing the iced tea now too. It's been 6 months since I've had a real pop but I am still drinking sweetened iced tea. I need more water and less sugar in what I am drinking. The night time snacking needs a make over as well - maybe just fruit and the occasion bit of Chicago mix when I want something different. The other change - I need to banish McDonalds. I go WAY too often and really it`s just crap I am stuffing in my body. I need to get my shit together and not be so lazy - pack a damn lunch!
I have all the tools I need to do this, I just need to open the box.
I have also been knocked back a bit in the fitness department...My chiropractor has sent me to the doctor for suspected anterior compartment syndrome. We thought we were dealing with shin splints but its not getting any better....actually a little worse. It is so painful - I have had to quit my soccer team. I just can't stand the pain all the time. I am like a 90 year old when I get out of bed or off the couch. It really sucks! I am still walking but everything causes pain - there really isn't anything that doesn't cause some level of pain. I just don't know what to do.
With the lack of activity I really need to make up with it in the diet department. I don't know why I am struggling so badly. I am going to be nixing the iced tea now too. It's been 6 months since I've had a real pop but I am still drinking sweetened iced tea. I need more water and less sugar in what I am drinking. The night time snacking needs a make over as well - maybe just fruit and the occasion bit of Chicago mix when I want something different. The other change - I need to banish McDonalds. I go WAY too often and really it`s just crap I am stuffing in my body. I need to get my shit together and not be so lazy - pack a damn lunch!
I have all the tools I need to do this, I just need to open the box.
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Change Is Coming
Oh boy! I can't believe 11 1/2 months have passed so quickly! My baby boy will be 1 on June 12th and I can't believe it! He just had his first haircut and now he doesn't look like a baby :( I head back to work on June 16th and I am having mixed feelings. I am excited to have some "adult" time but I am sure going to miss my kids. My daughter seems to grow-up a little everyday and I can't find the pause button - she is 4 going on 16! She is amazing and frustrating all at the same time.
I have rejoined WW Online and haven't been doing so great. This week (I weigh in on Wednesday) I have faithfully tracked and I am quite proud of myself. My eating hasn't been great but I have been honest. I am trying to make better decisions but then I don't. It's plain and simple. If I eat crap I don't lose. On the bright side I have joined a Women's soccer team and it feels great. I am in TERRIBLE shape but I will get there. I am sad that I am paying for a gym membership and not using it but I just don't want to spend my down time at the gym. I know it is an excuse but I just don't want to leave as soon as hubby gets home and then be back in time for bedtime. I so enjoy our evenings together and I don't want to give them up. I have also started walking once a week with 2 of my neighbors. The pace isn't quite what I am used to but it seems to be getting better. We are at 3 different fitness levels but we all seem to be improving. I am waiting for my new sports bra to come in the mail so I can start the C25K - I am hoping this will help with everything (weight loss and soccer fitness).
I am going to take some time and update the blog with a new look and some correct numbers. Boy have I neglected this blog - I am looking forward to getting back at it and moving forward!
I have rejoined WW Online and haven't been doing so great. This week (I weigh in on Wednesday) I have faithfully tracked and I am quite proud of myself. My eating hasn't been great but I have been honest. I am trying to make better decisions but then I don't. It's plain and simple. If I eat crap I don't lose. On the bright side I have joined a Women's soccer team and it feels great. I am in TERRIBLE shape but I will get there. I am sad that I am paying for a gym membership and not using it but I just don't want to spend my down time at the gym. I know it is an excuse but I just don't want to leave as soon as hubby gets home and then be back in time for bedtime. I so enjoy our evenings together and I don't want to give them up. I have also started walking once a week with 2 of my neighbors. The pace isn't quite what I am used to but it seems to be getting better. We are at 3 different fitness levels but we all seem to be improving. I am waiting for my new sports bra to come in the mail so I can start the C25K - I am hoping this will help with everything (weight loss and soccer fitness).
I am going to take some time and update the blog with a new look and some correct numbers. Boy have I neglected this blog - I am looking forward to getting back at it and moving forward!
Thursday, December 12, 2013
6 Months
My beautiful baby boy is 6 months old today! I can't believe it has been 6 months already - the time is passing WAY too fast! I have days where I struggle being home with 2 kids, I know I am so lucky to get a whole year off but boy is it crazy some days! There are days where I would go back to work tomorrow and there are days where I wish I really never had to. For the most part I am not cut out for the whole stay at home mom role.
6 months later and I am still struggling to get the baby weight off. I feel like a broken record but I just have not been putting the effort in. I have quit pop - it has been 2 days now and I am feeling good about it. I have an old friend I follow on Facebook that has dropped a lot of weight so I asked what her secret was and she said cutting out pop made a huge difference. So far I am down about 2 pounds this week and I just feel better.
I am disappointed in myself for not taking full advantage of my free time with Weight Watchers. I think I will start back up after Christmas - the meetings really do make a difference. I have bought myself a little journal and I want to track what I am eating as well as how I am feeling. The 2 seem to go hand in hand. I am stuck here at over 200lbs and it just makes me sick to think about it. I have never understood why feeling bad about your weight leads to eating like shit....maybe one day I will get it?
I have started an ab challenge I saw on Facebook. My stomach muscles are just shot after pregnancy and I am hoping this will help. The other thing I would like to start is running again. I just need to find a time or partner so I can run at night. I don't have a proper stroller to run with both kids and I would like to go on my own - have a little ME time. I don't know that I will follow a specific program but I would like to work my way up to a solid 5k and see where I go from there. I know the C25K is a great program but I am not sure it's what is right for me.
Well that is all I have for now - hopefully I won't be gone quite so long this time...
6 months later and I am still struggling to get the baby weight off. I feel like a broken record but I just have not been putting the effort in. I have quit pop - it has been 2 days now and I am feeling good about it. I have an old friend I follow on Facebook that has dropped a lot of weight so I asked what her secret was and she said cutting out pop made a huge difference. So far I am down about 2 pounds this week and I just feel better.
I am disappointed in myself for not taking full advantage of my free time with Weight Watchers. I think I will start back up after Christmas - the meetings really do make a difference. I have bought myself a little journal and I want to track what I am eating as well as how I am feeling. The 2 seem to go hand in hand. I am stuck here at over 200lbs and it just makes me sick to think about it. I have never understood why feeling bad about your weight leads to eating like shit....maybe one day I will get it?
I have started an ab challenge I saw on Facebook. My stomach muscles are just shot after pregnancy and I am hoping this will help. The other thing I would like to start is running again. I just need to find a time or partner so I can run at night. I don't have a proper stroller to run with both kids and I would like to go on my own - have a little ME time. I don't know that I will follow a specific program but I would like to work my way up to a solid 5k and see where I go from there. I know the C25K is a great program but I am not sure it's what is right for me.
Well that is all I have for now - hopefully I won't be gone quite so long this time...
Thursday, October 17, 2013
FML....
I mean it....my 4 month old and I have Hand, Foot and Mouth. This fucking sucks! Excuse my language but this is so ridiculous and annoying. I had a terrible migraine for 2 days with a sore throat that I thought was going to kill me and just when I thought I was over it I started getting these little bumps in my lip and then on my fingers. My little man has been a real trooper but I have banished my sweet 3 year old in hopes that she won't get this too. She drives me nuts a lot of the times but I really miss having her around. Being cooped up is also really terrible - I feel like a leper. I can't even kiss my little girl =(
Well needless to say I am not getting much activity. I took my little man for a short walk today but this took it's toll on my energy levels. I actually went to the naturopath for some help with my "baby brain". It is so bad I forgot the date I scheduled for myself....like I make the schedule! I felt like such an idiot. I managed to make it work but still....
Needless to say I will not be able to get to WW this week - I have to stay away from people until Tuesday-Wednesday depending on how the sores heal. I will hop on my scale and hopefully see a difference. I really need to get things going again as NONE of my pants fit.....this sucks. For Thanksgiving I had to buy some leggings so I didn't have to wear any maternity stuff. Everything I wear is stretchy....I miss my jeans and I refuse to buy more!
Well needless to say I am not getting much activity. I took my little man for a short walk today but this took it's toll on my energy levels. I actually went to the naturopath for some help with my "baby brain". It is so bad I forgot the date I scheduled for myself....like I make the schedule! I felt like such an idiot. I managed to make it work but still....
Needless to say I will not be able to get to WW this week - I have to stay away from people until Tuesday-Wednesday depending on how the sores heal. I will hop on my scale and hopefully see a difference. I really need to get things going again as NONE of my pants fit.....this sucks. For Thanksgiving I had to buy some leggings so I didn't have to wear any maternity stuff. Everything I wear is stretchy....I miss my jeans and I refuse to buy more!
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Insiration and Motivation
I need these things badly! My 31 day challenge is 8 days in and I haven't done anything I set out to do. My month started off with my 3 year old getting sick and then me. I have not been able to get myself back on track since. I am very frustrated with myself. I keep thinking about all the things that I need to do while I shove something terrible in my mouth and ignore what I am thinking.
I know what I need to do. I know how to lose weight - I have done this quite successfully in the past. Since having my daughter I have really struggled with weight loss. I seem to binge eat more than I ever remember in the past. I am going to the naturopath on Saturday to see if there is something hormonal that is causing this. I am really looking for any excuse as to why I am failing so miserably...
If anyone out there has a good blog they can recommend I would appreciate it! Most of the people I have followed in the past aren't blogging anymore and I could use some inspiration!
I know what I need to do. I know how to lose weight - I have done this quite successfully in the past. Since having my daughter I have really struggled with weight loss. I seem to binge eat more than I ever remember in the past. I am going to the naturopath on Saturday to see if there is something hormonal that is causing this. I am really looking for any excuse as to why I am failing so miserably...
If anyone out there has a good blog they can recommend I would appreciate it! Most of the people I have followed in the past aren't blogging anymore and I could use some inspiration!
Monday, September 30, 2013
31 Day Challenge
I am challenging myself to 30 days on program (WW) with daily exercise. I bought myself a new Jillian DVD that is a kick boxing workout. I will be tracking daily...good and bad and I will be doing one of my dvds every day. Even Sundays. I need this to kick my lazy ass into gear.
I will be posting my weight and measurements tomorrow night and I will update my weight weekly and my measurement at the end of the month. I will also be posting more often. I started off strong getting back on program but I have really let things slip again. I find myself eating when I am alone...binging really. I just can't get a grip on things. I am so tired all the time and I just let it rule my life. I make sure I get outside with the kids everyday but it just isn't enough. I am not pushing myself. If I stopped by eating what I have with my daughter for lunch and dinner things would be going great...but I am not. I am eating so much crap...it is really a shitty cycle that I need to break.
I can't wait to see what this does for my body....hopefully I can finally start to get rid of all this extra. I have all this extra stuff left over from my pregnancy. I am only about 8-10 pounds from where I was when I got pregnant but my body just does not feel like my own anymore. I need to find my body - not what I had or have had in the past but just something I can feel good and comfortable in.
Anyone else looking for a challenge?
I will be posting my weight and measurements tomorrow night and I will update my weight weekly and my measurement at the end of the month. I will also be posting more often. I started off strong getting back on program but I have really let things slip again. I find myself eating when I am alone...binging really. I just can't get a grip on things. I am so tired all the time and I just let it rule my life. I make sure I get outside with the kids everyday but it just isn't enough. I am not pushing myself. If I stopped by eating what I have with my daughter for lunch and dinner things would be going great...but I am not. I am eating so much crap...it is really a shitty cycle that I need to break.
I can't wait to see what this does for my body....hopefully I can finally start to get rid of all this extra. I have all this extra stuff left over from my pregnancy. I am only about 8-10 pounds from where I was when I got pregnant but my body just does not feel like my own anymore. I need to find my body - not what I had or have had in the past but just something I can feel good and comfortable in.
Anyone else looking for a challenge?
Monday, September 2, 2013
It's Moving!
The scale is moving in the right direction! I was down 1.8! I know it isn't a huge loss but I had my birthday and a day at the fair eating whatever I want in this week and I still lost. It put a big smile on my face and hop in my step.
We had a great long weekend and enjoyed some fun in the sun and some great company. I ate more crap than I should have but I counted it and I have moved on. I definitely find it easier to eat well during the week. The chips don't seem to come out and the meals are more scheduled. I did well but I could have done better. Something to work on this week.
I have been getting more activity in. My hubby and I are trading off so we can both get moving. We have a route that we both take (so we know where the other is). It's about 45 minutes and has a couple of small hills. I am sweaty and feel great by the time I get home. I have been debating about going back to the gym. I know people call it mom guilt but I just don't want to give up that time with both kids. At least I have Matt with my when I am walking. I just don't know if I can get enough of a workout at home. I don't know......
September is going to be a crazy month for us. My little girl is starting preschool and gymnastics in the same week. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I know she is ready but her listening leaves some to be desired....I just hope she will listen to her teachers better than she listens to us! I am excited to see her blossom - she is such a spitfire and I hope that never changes.
We had a great long weekend and enjoyed some fun in the sun and some great company. I ate more crap than I should have but I counted it and I have moved on. I definitely find it easier to eat well during the week. The chips don't seem to come out and the meals are more scheduled. I did well but I could have done better. Something to work on this week.
I have been getting more activity in. My hubby and I are trading off so we can both get moving. We have a route that we both take (so we know where the other is). It's about 45 minutes and has a couple of small hills. I am sweaty and feel great by the time I get home. I have been debating about going back to the gym. I know people call it mom guilt but I just don't want to give up that time with both kids. At least I have Matt with my when I am walking. I just don't know if I can get enough of a workout at home. I don't know......
September is going to be a crazy month for us. My little girl is starting preschool and gymnastics in the same week. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I know she is ready but her listening leaves some to be desired....I just hope she will listen to her teachers better than she listens to us! I am excited to see her blossom - she is such a spitfire and I hope that never changes.
Friday, August 30, 2013
WI Tomorrow
Weigh in tomorrow morning....I am a little nervous. I have had a great week except for today. We took the kids to the fair today and ate some really good crap! I am really hoping I didn't blow a good week in one day. I ate well for breakfast and lunch to help with what I knew I was going eat. It's once a year and really....it is SO good!
I am starting to feel a difference with the way I am eating. I just feel clearer and livelier. It's such a good feeling. I just need to amp up the activity this week. I miss working out but I haven't been able to motivate myself to get back to the gym or anything else for that matter. I have been doing some walking but our weather has been dicey lately and we haven't gotten a rain cover for the new stroller yet. The hubs and I have worked it out that we alternate bed/bath time with Grace and the other takes Matt for a walk. We had such a beautiful July but August has been touch and go. I am hoping to get out some more this long weekend but my parents are moving so we will have to see how it goes.
I forgot to take my measurements last week but I will do it tomorrow. It's always good to be able to count the changes in more than one way ;) I can't wait for this mommy tummy to shrink - my daughter keeps asking me why my tummy is so big.....gotta love a kids honesty....or hide in your car and eat a chocolate bar. I am very proud to say I haven't let myself do that - emotional eating sucks! I am a secret eater - you would usually be able to find hidden wrappers in my car or around my spot on the couch. I am always trying to hide the wrappers because I don't want anyone knowing what I am doing. Why is that you may ask? Well you probably all know, my guess is most of you have been there too. Eating something because you can, knowing you shouldn't and feeling like shit right after you do. The guilt I feel when I do this is stupid, I should never feel guilty for anything I eat. I should also never eat crap just because. I don't need a king size chocolate bar or a big bag of chips. If I want chocolate I can either have a bar or go and get a piece from Purdy's and count the points. Same with chips or anything else I might be "sneaking". Get my portion, get the points and count it.
Well I am pooped. Wish me a good weigh in tomorrow!
I am starting to feel a difference with the way I am eating. I just feel clearer and livelier. It's such a good feeling. I just need to amp up the activity this week. I miss working out but I haven't been able to motivate myself to get back to the gym or anything else for that matter. I have been doing some walking but our weather has been dicey lately and we haven't gotten a rain cover for the new stroller yet. The hubs and I have worked it out that we alternate bed/bath time with Grace and the other takes Matt for a walk. We had such a beautiful July but August has been touch and go. I am hoping to get out some more this long weekend but my parents are moving so we will have to see how it goes.
I forgot to take my measurements last week but I will do it tomorrow. It's always good to be able to count the changes in more than one way ;) I can't wait for this mommy tummy to shrink - my daughter keeps asking me why my tummy is so big.....gotta love a kids honesty....or hide in your car and eat a chocolate bar. I am very proud to say I haven't let myself do that - emotional eating sucks! I am a secret eater - you would usually be able to find hidden wrappers in my car or around my spot on the couch. I am always trying to hide the wrappers because I don't want anyone knowing what I am doing. Why is that you may ask? Well you probably all know, my guess is most of you have been there too. Eating something because you can, knowing you shouldn't and feeling like shit right after you do. The guilt I feel when I do this is stupid, I should never feel guilty for anything I eat. I should also never eat crap just because. I don't need a king size chocolate bar or a big bag of chips. If I want chocolate I can either have a bar or go and get a piece from Purdy's and count the points. Same with chips or anything else I might be "sneaking". Get my portion, get the points and count it.
Well I am pooped. Wish me a good weigh in tomorrow!
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Putting It Together
I feel like I have some traction right now. I again had a very good day. I used some of my extra points for my treat tonight. I probably didn't need as much as I had but it was what I wanted. I had another successful trip to the store! I did not buy a chocolate or any other kind of treat- o proud of myself :)
I had a stressful day and again I did not let it get to me. I really thought about scarfing something down to make it all better as I normally would but I didn`t, I had a regular snack and just let it go. I was hoping to get some exercise but it didn`t really happen. I had errands to run this morning and then it was nap time for the kids. My inlaws picked my daughter up early but my son was still asleep so no time for a walk - I worked on the dishwasher instead....I know I can do better tomorrow.
Plan for tomorrow is to walk to the mall just up the street as I have a pair of shoes to return - this will get me about 45 minutes of good walking while pushing a stroller with about 58 or 59 pounds of kids. It should make for decent activity. The stroller just seems to get heavier by the day!
When we were away on vacation I picked up a box of peaches and they are so good! I have been eating 1 or 2 a day and I don`t know what I am going to do when I run out :( The season is so short, I figure my inlaws will be able to bring me back one more box when they go this weekend and then that will probably be it. I guess I will have to move onto the new crop apples. I love fresh fruit that is actually in season!
I had a stressful day and again I did not let it get to me. I really thought about scarfing something down to make it all better as I normally would but I didn`t, I had a regular snack and just let it go. I was hoping to get some exercise but it didn`t really happen. I had errands to run this morning and then it was nap time for the kids. My inlaws picked my daughter up early but my son was still asleep so no time for a walk - I worked on the dishwasher instead....I know I can do better tomorrow.
Plan for tomorrow is to walk to the mall just up the street as I have a pair of shoes to return - this will get me about 45 minutes of good walking while pushing a stroller with about 58 or 59 pounds of kids. It should make for decent activity. The stroller just seems to get heavier by the day!
When we were away on vacation I picked up a box of peaches and they are so good! I have been eating 1 or 2 a day and I don`t know what I am going to do when I run out :( The season is so short, I figure my inlaws will be able to bring me back one more box when they go this weekend and then that will probably be it. I guess I will have to move onto the new crop apples. I love fresh fruit that is actually in season!
Monday, August 26, 2013
Tracking
Hello All! I am quite pleased with myself today! I had a great day on program and it feels so good. I even had some points left at the end of the day to have a treat =) I measured and tracked and it was just a great feeling. I used my iPhone app for tracking and it is a nice way of doing things. It makes it so easy.
Today I took both kids grocery shopping on my own. I know it shouldn't be a big deal but my lovely little girl wants to touch everything! I luckily got my son to sleep through all of it but as soon as Grace was done her cookie things got frustrating! I have to say I really wanted to grab a chocolate bar to scarf down in the car! I am very proud to say I didn't! I find myself thinking it will solve something...I know it won't but these habits are so hard to break. I left the store very proud of myself and feeling good. I managed to keep that feeling all day as I made good choices.
I wasn't thrilled with my activity today but I can work on that tomorrow. A walk with a 3 year old isn't very strenuous - those little legs just don't move that fast! Tomorrow I can get a walk on my own and the inlaws are picking Grace up early for dinner and I will walk over with Matt. Do I get extra points for pushing a stroller? If I have both kids it's an extra 50lbs or so! I think that should count for something ;)
Today I took both kids grocery shopping on my own. I know it shouldn't be a big deal but my lovely little girl wants to touch everything! I luckily got my son to sleep through all of it but as soon as Grace was done her cookie things got frustrating! I have to say I really wanted to grab a chocolate bar to scarf down in the car! I am very proud to say I didn't! I find myself thinking it will solve something...I know it won't but these habits are so hard to break. I left the store very proud of myself and feeling good. I managed to keep that feeling all day as I made good choices.
I wasn't thrilled with my activity today but I can work on that tomorrow. A walk with a 3 year old isn't very strenuous - those little legs just don't move that fast! Tomorrow I can get a walk on my own and the inlaws are picking Grace up early for dinner and I will walk over with Matt. Do I get extra points for pushing a stroller? If I have both kids it's an extra 50lbs or so! I think that should count for something ;)
Saturday, August 24, 2013
I Did It....
I went back to WW this morning to start my 3 free postnatal months as a lifetime member. I was really hoping the policy hadn't changed! Well it was scary but I am happy I did it - not so happy to see my weight but I got on the scale. The number I saw was 202.8....yuck. Highest weight at WW for me. I have 52.8 pounds to lose to get back to my WW goal weight and really where I would like to be. I could and have been smaller but 150 is really my ideal weight. I can't focus on such a large number at this point - I just need to work this off pound by pound. I will track and get my activity while making better choices.
I had an amazing vacation with my family but I am always happy to be home and back in my own space. I love going away but always look forward to my own space. We were away with my inlaws which is nice because my daughter adores them and they are always willing to get up with her =) The downfall is always having someone else around and no real time for yourself.
I bought some good groceries last night but I am worried about keeping the chocolate bar out of my cart. I know I can still have one but the problem is I have been having too many....and they have been big ones. I found/find myself wanting to just eat crap....I thought this would improve as Matt started sleeping more but it doesn't seem to be helping. I am hoping with more exercise and better choices this will calm down.
Well tomorrow is my birthday so I wont be tracking but I will on Monday and I will let you know how it goes!
I had an amazing vacation with my family but I am always happy to be home and back in my own space. I love going away but always look forward to my own space. We were away with my inlaws which is nice because my daughter adores them and they are always willing to get up with her =) The downfall is always having someone else around and no real time for yourself.
I bought some good groceries last night but I am worried about keeping the chocolate bar out of my cart. I know I can still have one but the problem is I have been having too many....and they have been big ones. I found/find myself wanting to just eat crap....I thought this would improve as Matt started sleeping more but it doesn't seem to be helping. I am hoping with more exercise and better choices this will calm down.
Well tomorrow is my birthday so I wont be tracking but I will on Monday and I will let you know how it goes!
Saturday, August 17, 2013
1 Week
1 week until I rejoin weight watchers and finally lose all of this baby weight. We are leaving on holiday for a week on Monday and on Saturday morning I will weigh in for the first time officially. I have jumped back over 200....I was never going to weigh that again. I don't know where it all went to shit but it did and I need to get a hold of it again. I have been eating like crap and I really feel it. I have been moving more but not enough for all the junk I have eaten.
So, I will be going to Weight Watchers and taking advantage of being a lifetime member and 3 free months after baby. I don't know that I will stay with WW after the 3 months as money is always a little tighter while on mat leave. I know I won't be down to my lifetime as that is just over 50lbs. at this point. I will be following the plan 7 days a week - not 4 or 5 like I have in the past.....the whole week! I will also be moving more. I have been debating about canceling my gym membership. Being on leave it is difficult to get to the gym. I am home all day with both kids and just don't feel comfortable taking the kids to the care at the gym. I think I might cancel and just do stuff at home. I have everything I need here. I could go when my husband gets home but then there is no time to spend as a family and I am still breast feeding so leaving Matt for too long can be hard.
I am also cleaning up my blog, the look is too much for me. Bear with me I am not good at this stuff! You would think I was 95 not almost 31.... ;) I am also looking for some new blogs to read - please leave me a suggestion of your favorite so I can expand my reading list!
I will be away for the week but back at it on Saturday August 24....one day before my birthday :)
So, I will be going to Weight Watchers and taking advantage of being a lifetime member and 3 free months after baby. I don't know that I will stay with WW after the 3 months as money is always a little tighter while on mat leave. I know I won't be down to my lifetime as that is just over 50lbs. at this point. I will be following the plan 7 days a week - not 4 or 5 like I have in the past.....the whole week! I will also be moving more. I have been debating about canceling my gym membership. Being on leave it is difficult to get to the gym. I am home all day with both kids and just don't feel comfortable taking the kids to the care at the gym. I think I might cancel and just do stuff at home. I have everything I need here. I could go when my husband gets home but then there is no time to spend as a family and I am still breast feeding so leaving Matt for too long can be hard.
I am also cleaning up my blog, the look is too much for me. Bear with me I am not good at this stuff! You would think I was 95 not almost 31.... ;) I am also looking for some new blogs to read - please leave me a suggestion of your favorite so I can expand my reading list!
I will be away for the week but back at it on Saturday August 24....one day before my birthday :)
Saturday, July 20, 2013
And Then There Were Four!
On June 12, 2013 at 4:56 we welcomed Matthew into our family. After a very crazy, scary delivery our beautiful baby boy entered this world with all 10 fingers and toes!
It has been a crazy 5 weeks of adjusting to being a family of 4 but I would not trade it for anything. I decided to keep Grace (our 3 year old) in daycare for 6 weeks. I have until the end of the month to spend some great time bonding with my amazing sun before we turn the world upside down and I have 2 kids at home. It will be an adjustment but I am really looking forward to enjoying the rest of the summer with my daughter. I am just hoping I can find enough to keep her busy!
Weight wise things are going okay. I finished my pregnancy at 227 lbs. What a terrifying number....I could not believe the number.....I am now down to 197.7. I have been lower but now that the fluid ( I apparently had loads!) is all gone I am starting to struggle a little. It has everything to do with what I have been eating and the fact that I am still not moving much. After a very hard pregnancy and crazy delivery I am slow and sore. I just feel so out of shape! Things will change when my daughter is home because I won't be able to eat the crap I have been eating because she is not allowed to eat that way. I really need to eat more like my daughter does! I feed my child so healthy and then I eat crap after she goes to bed. A good excuse is that I am REALLY tired, but excuses aside after my 6 week check on Wednesday I need to get my shit together.
I am afraid that I will not lose the weight......I didn't manage to lose it with my daughter and I can't fail again....
Weight wise things are going okay. I finished my pregnancy at 227 lbs. What a terrifying number....I could not believe the number.....I am now down to 197.7. I have been lower but now that the fluid ( I apparently had loads!) is all gone I am starting to struggle a little. It has everything to do with what I have been eating and the fact that I am still not moving much. After a very hard pregnancy and crazy delivery I am slow and sore. I just feel so out of shape! Things will change when my daughter is home because I won't be able to eat the crap I have been eating because she is not allowed to eat that way. I really need to eat more like my daughter does! I feed my child so healthy and then I eat crap after she goes to bed. A good excuse is that I am REALLY tired, but excuses aside after my 6 week check on Wednesday I need to get my shit together.
I am afraid that I will not lose the weight......I didn't manage to lose it with my daughter and I can't fail again....
Sunday, April 14, 2013
9 Weeks Out
I can't believe I only have 9 more weeks to go! I also can't believe I have MORE weeks to go. I am tired and sore and would like to get to the end. I have a lot to do until the baby comes so the 9 weeks is a good thing. I feel like I can't get it all done - partially because I have been pretty lazy in my down time.
Yesterday we had Grace's 3rd birthday party and it was great! It was cold and a little wet but she had a blast and loved that all of her little friends came! I have learned my lesson and from now on Grace's birthday parties will all be held indoors. April is such a fickle month.
As the end of this pregnancy nears I have become more comfortable with the ideas of post baby weight loss. I have been thinking more and more seriously about the activity I want to do and what I will be eating. I have been eating A LOT of chips during this pregnancy. That is something I will need to change. I have decided to start back with Weight Watchers Online after about 3-6 weeks. I started back in meeting too soon after Grace and ended up discouraged. There was still too much going on and I just couldn't get my shit together. This time it has to be different and I will really have to put the effort in.
Yesterday we had Grace's 3rd birthday party and it was great! It was cold and a little wet but she had a blast and loved that all of her little friends came! I have learned my lesson and from now on Grace's birthday parties will all be held indoors. April is such a fickle month.
As the end of this pregnancy nears I have become more comfortable with the ideas of post baby weight loss. I have been thinking more and more seriously about the activity I want to do and what I will be eating. I have been eating A LOT of chips during this pregnancy. That is something I will need to change. I have decided to start back with Weight Watchers Online after about 3-6 weeks. I started back in meeting too soon after Grace and ended up discouraged. There was still too much going on and I just couldn't get my shit together. This time it has to be different and I will really have to put the effort in.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
GD Free!
I finally had my doctors appointment today and I do not have gestational diabetes! I was starting to worry! Everything is good and healthy with me and the baby and no surprise to me but the baby is measuring 2 weeks ahead! I knew this was going to be another big baby! Grace was 9 lbs when she was born.
On that topic - my baby girl is going to be 3 tomorrow! I can't believe it has been 3 years already....
On that topic - my baby girl is going to be 3 tomorrow! I can't believe it has been 3 years already....
I have taken tomorrow off to prepare for her birthday party on Saturday. She is so excited for all her little friends to come to her birthday party :)
I have planned a simple party with some very kid friendly foods.
At my doctors appointment I hit 212 - wow that is a scary number in print for me. This is the heaviest I have ever been. I know it is baby but it still really freaks me out. I was 210 at home so that is 18 pounds total at 30 weeks. I am hoping to keep this under control for the next 10 weeks. I have been making a real effort to pick the right foods. One of the ladies I work with is doing a juice fast with her husband and it has me thinking again about getting a juicer. I know it is best to eat the fruit or vegetable but it couldn't hurt to get some extra in all of us - especially when I start nursing. I need to do some research and finally make up my mind. I go between smoothies and juicing and I know either would be a good choice. Anyone have any real pros or cons on either?
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Walking
I got out for a walk yesterday and it felt so good =) I really should say waddle.....This time last pregnancy and I was still walking around like a non-pregnant lady, 7 miles around the sea wall and I was fine. I can barely make it around the block this time. It felt good at the time but I think I am still paying for it today.
I said I was going to take a pic of this giant belly - well the hubby did without me noticing so here it is:
I said I was going to take a pic of this giant belly - well the hubby did without me noticing so here it is:
I cannot believe how big my belly is!
I have another ultrasound on Monday to make sure the baby is growin properly. I can't remember if I mentioned but I have a cord abnormality - there are supposed to be two arteries and one vein and mine only has one arterie. This can lead to smaller babies in some cases. Grace was 9 pounds and honestly if this one was a little smaller I wouldn't be disappointed ;)
Since I was playing around in the pcitures I figured I would leave you one more of my adorable little girl enjoying some nice weather over Easter weekend! I can't believe she is going to be 3 on Friday!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)