Day 1

Here we go, this is what I ate yesterday:

2 slices toast with pb + a skiff on nutella with 1 cup of milk
Fiber 1 bar
grilled cheese with 2 pb cookies
Baked ketchup chips
Chicken (roughly 5 oz. - I forgot to measure)
Mashed potatoes + cesar salad
more ketchup chips
2 coke ceros (not together) and 6 16oz. glasses of water.

There it is, that is what I ate yesterday and it is seriously lacking in fruits and veggies. I did go shopping yesterday and bought some so that will be more prevalent in todays food! This is a total of 41 points (I get 35 because of nursing). I also earned to AP's on the treadmill (boy did that feel great!) to have my total at 39.

So a couple of days ago I was reading someones blog (I can't remember right now) and they were talking about looking at themselves naked in the mirror and what they said to themselves, it wasn't pretty and boy can I relate. I look at myself on the way into the shower every morning and every morning have the same conversation over and over again. I don't know why we feel the need to beat ourselves down, it doesn't help. I am trying to find things I like to focus on so I am not starting my day off in the negative. One more thing to work on.....

Yesterday I was inspired by Syl over at http://www.livesmilerun.com/, she is amazing! She was on holiday and braved wearing such a beautiful dress and she looked amazing. She has come so far and that is what I want. In her pictures you can see the evolution of her smile - I want that....I will have that. IF you don't read her already you should check her out.

I have again planned dinner for tonight and will pick up the steaks after my SS class - yay planning!

I forgot to say thank you for all your comments on Grace =) I also posting some current pics.....

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I just wrote a post and lost it....now I must start all over again and remember what I was talking about!

Okay....I think I started with what my goals are for the next few months - under 170 by Christmas, under 160 by Valentines Day and under 150 by Grace's first birthday (April 12). I think these are pretty reasonable and not too aggressive. I just need to put the work in and I can achieve them, I know I keep saying this but I am hoping if I keep repeating myself it will sink in!

My eating has been on track so far today and tomorrow I am going to post what I ate and for how many points. I think this will help keep me accountable and now that I am tracking again it is possible. Tracking is so important to my success, I have even pretracked a bit for today and even preplanned exactly what is for dinner. This is big for me and I am not a great planned, I usually have an idea but wait until hubby is home and see what he thinks, today I have made a decision and I am sticking with it! I am going to my parents to meet my brother for lunch and so he can play with Grace (he is the best uncle ever). I am going to hop on the treadmill while they play as my dvd hasn't come yet and I need something to do on my days off from SS. I am looking forward to getting back at SS tomorrow - last week was so bad weather wise - I actually really missed going and getting that workout, I am starting to really love working out again.

I am still working on those tabs - I want one for tracking my weight and measurements and one for some progress pics. Until then I leave you with a picture of Grace's first snowfall!

WI

I know I haven't been perfect but I was so happy to see a 1.4 pound loss this morning. It felt so good to see my weight going in the right direction. Just 6 more pounds before Christmas to meet my goal. If I actually start really paying attention that should make the difference. I am really hoping my SS classes will be on this week and that my dvd comes! I don't have much else to say at this point....

I want to put some tabs on my blog....how do I do that?

Fat To Fit

It's that time again! 

So I have been a little absent this week, it has been crazy around here. I had some work to do and had to push it out as quick as I could and then we have had so much to do around the house and our complex had out AGM last night. Good news is we are getting almost $600 back from a special levy we paid for our roof! This will help with Christmas =) I have not been tracking my food the last few days but I have been doing good eating wise. I jumped on the scale this morning and was happy with what I had seen. I have not gotten much activity outside of running around the house because we have had some really cold weather (-8) and now a good dump of snow. I don't think I will make it to my SS class today as the roads are a mess and the indoor space is up a hill, I couldn't go on Tuesday because it was -8 and felt like -15 with the wind and I had no idea how to keep Grace warm for an hour outdoors.....I am still waiting for my dvd to come in the mail so I think I will pull the Wii out today and do that while Grace plays in her exersaucer. Well I hope you are all having a wonderful Thanksgiving!

I Love Sundays!

Today has been a great Sunday (minus the Canucks loss). I did really good in my eating even with going to the States for some shopping and having a little dessert. We went across the line to get our Christmas turkey (great sale for Thanksgiving) and were very disappointed to find that the turkey delivery was late and we must have missed the last few by a couple of minutes. I am going to have to go back down tomorrow, we just don't get good deals like that here. We also went to the mall and I got some great sparkley flats and some workout clothes at Target. We actually bought very little, the prices almost seem to go up a little before Black Friday. Maybe when Grace is a little older my mom and I will start going to Black Friday again...for now she is too small for all those line ups and I can't leave her for too long as she is still on the boob.

Last night I took the time to potion out the chips and pretzels I bought the other day, it is amazing how easy and quick it is and how it will save me when I am in a munchy mood, I can't just mindlessly eat them. I have a portion  and that is all I get. I got back on the scale this morning and that .4 was gone, now I just need to keep it gone and work on the rest. I really want my dvd to come tomorrow! I am so anxious to try it.....GET HERE!!!!!

Tomorrow I am going to start a new portion of my post and post what I have eaten for the day, I think it will help keep me honest and maybe seeing it on here will make me see where the holes are in my eating. On Saturday at my meeting I asked about the new plan and found out that we (canadians) don't get to start the new plan until December 11. I was hoping we would be the same as everyone else as I am looking forward to the change, I think it will help me to refocus...

Okay

Today I am feeling pretty good. I had WI and I was up again. I was up .4 and that is okay with me. I did not eat the best so I knew I wasn't going to lose. Tonight we were invited out to a friends to watch the UFC fights but hubby and I have decided to stay home and watch the Canucks game. These friends have a rather large god that Grace is afraid off. She is still a puppy and I don't think it's fair to her to be getting in trouble all night in her own home. To save myself the stress we are staying home =) It was also the first snow of the season last night and I don't want to have to drive home in it either. We are going to dress Grace up in her snow suit and take some pictures of her first snow fall! Well I really don't have anything else to say....have a good day!

Blah, blah, blah

I keep talking and not acting. I started off great yesterday and was even getting my water in. I went to SS in the pouring rain and actually enjoyed myself! Then I went grocery shopping and it kinda all fell apart from there. I over did it at lunch but managed to get it back for dinner. It looks like I might have another gain tomorrow or a STS. I am very disappointed in myself, I just don't know what to do to make this work. I know what I need to do and I am getting tired of listening to myself. I keep coming up with these plans and not following through...

What works for you guys? What helps to keep you accountable? 

Quiet

First I am going to post the blog hop link:



Now the rest of my post. I have been pretty quiet lately as I have not had alot to say. I am not eating my best and I am a little embarrassed to come on here and admit it. It is amazing how I can come on here and read a post that I could have sworn I wrote but it is someone else, feeling the same way I am and struggling with alot of the same things. I see so many of us struggling and on the flip side so many great success stories. I want to be one of those success stories.....In order to make that happen I need to start trying harder, stop eating so much junk and just get with it. I just watched a video on the new points program and I am really excited to switch things up. I know I am not eating enough fruits and vegetables and that needs to change. I honestly used to avoid fruits to a degree because of their points value and wanting that for something else.

I am still waiting for my video to come in the mail and I had to miss my SS on Tuesday. I was so disappointed to not be able to go but I got a desperate call from work (yes, I am on a full year mat leave) to please come in and help them out for a couple of hours. I took Grace and off we went, I did a couple hours Tuesday and then again on Wednesday. I don't think I will do this again. I am going back in April and that's enough =)

Well I am off to SS today and really need this, after that it is grocery shopping and then dinner at the inlaws.

Naturopath

So this morning I had my visit with the naturopath and it made me feel more sane. I don't really know how to explain what it is she does but she is able to tell me where some of my concerns are and what my body is "fighting". My body is fighting insulin, estrogen and one of the hormones tied to thyroid. This actually made me feel much better and really helped me understand why my body is reacting the way it has been to weight loss recently. I know this isn't the whole problem, the rest of it lies with me not giving it 100%. It's getting better though. I am trying to wait patiently for my dvd to come in the mail but I am too excited for it to get here. I am really looking forward to trying something new!

Today I will again be dipping into my extra points. Tonight is my last night in the pool with Grace and I am kinda sad, my hubby will take her in on Wednesday and then we are done. I have been having so much fun with this. The weather is just getting miserable and I don't know what we are going to do with all of our night now. I think I am going to have to make hubby walk in the rain with me =p Not my fave thing to do either but it's good for all of us. Hubby has been putting on a bit o weight lately (he kinda needed it) and doesn't want to put on anymore, so it will be good to have him wanting to eat better too. Well we are all just sitting on the couch watching the hockey game and relaxing. Have a good night!

Lazy Sunday

Today was a nice and lazy Sunday. We usually have dinner with my family but my parents are away and we saw my brother yesterday, so today we were free! Well for most of the day, the inlaws did stop by with my hubby's aunt and uncle to say hello to Grace. I went shopping for most of the day to give hubby time to do his homework, I was very excited to find that Carters has come to BC!!!!!! I love Carters and they usually only have select items at Costco so this is a real treat for me!

I did okay with my eating today, not great but not horrible. I had 11 of my extra points today but it was worth it! I got on the scale this morning and I was pleased to see that I have lost most of what I had gained! It is so weird how that works, but I will take it =) I just need to keep going.

WI

Well I am very embarrassed to admit that I gained 3.2 pounds over the last 2 weeks. I actually thought it was going to be worse but it still makes me sad. Sad that I need to lose those 3.2 pounds all over again! What a waste. I guess that is why I need the plan. I was disappointed that we didn't go over the new plan in my meeting today, I guess it is starting later in Canada. I am intrigued to try something that is kinda new, maybe it will help me amp it up.

So I have decided that my weeks will start on Sunday, I still want that "treat" day on Saturday's and I think I would prefer that it was the end of my week, not the beginning.  I had hubby check and my video has been shipped and I am really hoping it gets here soon, I am excited to try something new! Turbo Jam here I come!

Thin

I want to be thin, I want to be healthy and I want to be in control. There is alot I want to gain in this journey of mine...well and then alot I want to lose......I have been thinking and eating quite a bit this week. Thinking about what I want and how I am going to get it. I have been making plans for losing weight, getting in better financial shape and organizing our house. I have also been over eating all week. Kinda like a last week/meal thing.

To start I have ordered Turbo Jam and when I get it I have decided that I will do that 3 times per week and go to my stroller strides 2 times per week. I am going to go to WW every week from now on and I am going to track like crazy! Everything I eat is being written down, even on my "free" Saturdays. I think I should really be keeping track of it all. With this I am aiming to be out of the 170's by Christmas. So there we have it, a plan.

Ugh!

Well feeling as negative as I do right now I am not going to dwell. I am still overdoing it in the food department and can't seem to get past breakfast and my fist snack for tracking. I need a plan. I think I am going to have hubby check my tracker at the end of every night, that way I have to fill it out. It makes such a huge difference for me when I am tracking.

I am looking for a turbo kick dvd to buy, Laura over at http://lauragetsfit.blogspot.com/ has inspired me to try it. I need to try putting the Babe is her exersaucer and just doing a dvd, she'll probably have fun just watching me! I need to make my weight loss a priority and stop wasting time and money! I think from now on when I buy things that aren't pre-portioned I am going to have to do that when I bring them in the house, it doesn't take a lot of time so why not.

Does anyone have a new recipe or blog to follow that you can recommend? 

Blog Hop!

This is a great way to see some new blogs!

Water

I need to start drinking more water! I do really good for a while and then I just seem to drop off again. I think I am going to start posting some eating stats in my posts to help keep me honest. I will start tomorrow morning and post what I ate today.

I had a better day yesterday, not perfect but it was an improvement from last week. I am still struggling right in the middle of the day with "binge" eating. I am not sure if it has to do with nursing or if it is an emotional thing. I talked to my mom about it and she thought it might be a "lonely" thing. I am not really along during the day, it's just me and Grace (almost 7 months old!) from about 7 until 4:15 or so. It's not too long of a day but when you are always kind of on it gets tiring and I think that may be what leads to this. I find myself grabbing things like chocolate, baked chips and anything else kinda snacky we seem to have around the house. I am thinking I may go to the naturopath to make sure it's not something else. I keep trying to add a little more something to my lunch but it doesn't seem to help. As soon as my daughter goes down for her nap I seem to go "hunting" for crap to eat. I am going to work on this today and maybe have something ready and then that's it.....

Well I have stroller strides this morning and I can't wait to get a good workout in!

Refreshed

That is how I am feeling. I kind of took a couple of days off. Happily I did not blow it completely like I have in the past. I wasn't perfect but I wasn't horrible either. I am challenging myself to try and keep things light and positive, nothing is the end of the world. I have an amazing life with a great husband and the most beautiful baby, the weight loss will come, I just need to stick with it.

I got back to tracking this morning and it actually feels good. I signed up for a 1 month pass to Stroller Strides and I am really looking forward to it. I will be going every Tuesday and Thursday. I really felt the workout the next day and I had kinda missed that lately, feeling like I have actually done something.

I completely skipped my WI this week in the hopes of moving in a more positive direction and I think it worked. I won't be doing this often but I think I needed the pass. I am trying to get my Christmas shopping done ASAP as I don't really want to be heading to the crazy malls with a stroller trying to find somewhere to park where I can still get the baby out. Well we have swimming tonight and it's my turn again to take her in and I am so excited. I am just loving this! We have decided to only put her in lessons once per year, we will use our pool in the complex the rest of the year to keep her comfortable with the water and get some family activity!

I'm It!

I was tagged my Mrs.D over at http://cataylor85.blogspot.com and I have to answer some questions!

1. No weird nicknames for me
2. My weirdest nightmare was my dad left my mom for my husbands boss and a young mexican man....really weird~
3.An NSV I am proud of......I am having a really hard time thinking of one right now....I've got one - walking away from a dessert table
4. Buying clothes in a single digit

Now I will pass this along to:

Cupcakes To Carrot Sticks
A Journey to Thin
My F.A.B. Challenge
My Road to Weight Loss

Now for my questions:

1. Who is your biggest inspiration?
2. What is your favorite thing to do on the weekend?
3. Who is your favorite super hero?
4. What is your favorite food?

Kinda lame questions but I think they give you a look inside someone.

So I am gonna take a bit of a break this weekend. After this terrible week I have decided not to cap it off with a negative WI so I am not going. I am going to use this time to get back on track and pull my head out of my butt!

Motivation

Okay people, I need some motivation! I am struggling so bad this week it isn't even funny! I was just reading one of my fave blogs and she has her first giveaways! If you are looking for a new blog to follow check her out!  http://darcithelbloser.blogspot.com
She is motivation!

Thank you to all my commenters =)

So my days have been starting out great and slowly but surely going into the toilet! I am great until about lunch and then everything falls apart! I do not know what is going on! I seem to be slipping into this kinda thing every couple of weeks and I wonder if my non cycle is maybe actually there with just the hormone part.....? I don't know. Yesterday I registered for something called Stroller Strides. It's a group where you get together and workout. It's pretty well priced and the timing is much better for me. The free group I was going to at the mall started at 9:30 and now that seems to be when Grace is napping and I haven't been able to get there in a few weeks. I really need the group thing, something to help keep me going. Anyone wanna go for a walk ;)

I am hoping for a better day today....

Blog Hop Time!

Negativity

So I had a very negative post yesterday and it apparently caught up to me in the afternoon. I went on a low cal snack binge. It was not good! I got into such a negative frame of mind after writing that post and I just couldn't fight it. I need to get past the negativity. So I am not happy with what I look like, isn't that why I am doing this?To be happy in my skin....I know I can do this and I need to stay away from the negative feeling. Bad days aren't everything, they are well out numbered by the good and I have lost over 25 pounds since the day I delivered my daughter almost 7 months ago. It took me alot longer to put all this weight on, I should be proud of myself. I AM proud of myself, I guess I just wish it was easier and faster! Don't we all.

Thank you for all the comments later, it is amazing how we all kind of struggle with the same things. It is very comforting to know that I am not alone in these feelings. Today will be better.

Body Image

The above is something that I struggle with on a daily basis. The day I delivered my daughter I was 200 pounds and without much work I lost the first 20 or so, it just seemed to fall off from my body returning to "normal" and nursing. I thought this would be easy.....Silly girl! I went back to WW way too soon the first time and in my eyes failed, now I am getting more sleep and I am in a much better space mentally which makes a huge difference. On Sunday my brother and his fiance came over for dinner and to see the little skunk. My SIL (close enough) asked if I had lost weight (she doesn't hand out compliments very easily) and it made me feel really good. Earlier in the day all of our parents had come by to see the costume and have a cuddle. My MIL took some pictures of all of us and said she would email them. I was feeling pretty good after my compliments until I checked my email to see those pictures.....I looked horrible. I am not the kind of person who is motivated by that...it kinda pushes me back. I know that I can do this, that next year I will look better in those photos. I am trying not to miss the first year of my daughters life, I want it to look like I was hear not always hiding I just don't want to look at those pictures.

Oh well, onwards and downwards ;) I learned last night that I need to leave myself a couple of points for after swimming lessons. I am hungry when I get home! I had to dip into my extra for a couple of points for a snack. We dunked our face with no tears yesterday and I was so proud. My hubby is going to go in the pool and I am excited to see how much fun he has! My eating for the rest of the day was good and I used the swimming lessons as my activity. I think today I will try and get a walk in outside as the rain seems to have stopped!

Happy Halloween!

Well after my great WI on Saturday I went a little over board on the eating front. If you have been reading my blog for a while you know that I do give myself a "treat" day after WI. My day turned into 2 and now I am back. One bad weekend isn't going to ruin everything. So yesterday was my babies first halloween and she was so cute! Amazingly enough candy was not the focus for my day and that made me proud =) I didn't even pull the candy out until 4 and then I only had 2 pieces all night. We had just over 60 kids and got rid of all but about 5 pieces of candy. I did manage to get my activity in all weekend which felt good and I am going to keep going with 20 minutes minimum per day, it just makes me feel better. Well today is a new day and I am back on track, I need to go grocery shopping this morning (we are still meal planning) and then off to swimming lessons tonight. Today I leave you with the cutest skunk ever!