Saturday, July 30, 2011

Partied out?

Really? Who would have thought? I love get together but I find them much more stressful now that Grace is mobile! We had another wedding shower today and I find myself not really enjoying any of this - I feel like people are judging me for how Grace acts. She is really well behaved but she is 15 months and she gets bored pretty quickly. I do my best to keep her on the quieter side and busy but I just can't all the time. This shower was my SIL's friends and her family friends. One of her family friends is a real bitch! She just sits and glares at people and I felt her judging my parenting the whole time!  I am also very self conscious about my weight around basically everyone - I always feel like people are judging me for not having lost the baby weight yet. I know a lot of it is in my head but I also know that it is justified in many situations. Her friends are very superficial and very "trendy" people. I do not dress "trendy" by any means. All of their clothes are expensive and designer and I feel they judge me for not wearing those things. It's something I need to get over, these people do not mean anything in my life....

1 comment:

  1. you are right, they don't know your story, they don't know your struggles and you are so much more than a person someone judges.
    Motherhood is the most challenging yet rewarding job in the world. You are a great mother and don't let one person opinion of that ruin things. Enjoy them when they are little, they grow so very fast!
    I remember when my two boys started being was interesting ?? ;-).
    hang in there, you are doing a great job!