Friday, January 14, 2011

Spent

Thank you for all of your comments yesterday. I learned some new things and got some great ideas. I think I need to try Greek yogurt.....I don't think that I have ever noticed it in the store.

After reading the comments regarding the chat with Hubs I realized that I had not said enough. So I stewed about it all night and then at bed time I had a total melt down......I had let the day get the best of me yesterday. My class was moved outside and I could not attend because my stroller isn't really good enough for this crappy weather. The rain is washing away the snow we got and it's just a hot mess! The outside class is on outdoor trails and I struggle as is with my stroller without adding a slushy mess. I hadn't checked the website before heading to the indoor area to find no one there. I was really looking forward to the workout and really mad and discouraged when I got home. I got Grace down for her nap and made myself a good lunch...it went downhill from there. I snacked again and then opened some cookies - after having 4 I took them out and dumped them in the trash....I should have better control of this by now. Well when I started talking to Hubs the water works started and I just could not get it together. I am just feeling so disgusted and disappointed with myself - I know how to do this and I am just not. I don't know why I am holding myself back - what am I afraid of? We had a really good chat and decided that we are both going to be making some changes. Fast food now consists of Subway, we can have a treat once a month max and we are going to be moving more together. This weather is holding us back from our regular walks so we are going to be doing either Wii Fit or Just Dance 2. My Hubs said all the right things, things I am not sure I agree with but I will get there.

One bright spot of yesterday is that I did get my activity in and burned the 200 calories for the day on Just Dance. I am really dreading going to my meeting tomorrow - I need to own what I have been doing and move on......

7 comments:

  1. I know it's hard sometimes (I actually got several ideas from your comments yesterday too), but I'm so glad you were able to talk more openly to hubby, and that he listened and is on board. I have a hard time (like fat mom said) with actualy TALKING about my feelings too.. I'm getting better, and it helps a lot when your partner is very receptive!

    Even though your class didn't work out, you got something in!

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  2. Oh, hun.. I am so right there with ya.. but can I just say GOOD FOR YOU for throwing the cookies away.. even if you ate 4 of them, you SO could have done so much more damage.. so bravo! And I'm with ya on the Subway.. I tried the Taco Bell Fresco menu, and while it's a nice change, I will prolly not do it again as it basically is a normal menu without cheese.. lol

    Just stay away from the Subway cookies! Learn from my mistake.. lol

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  3. I've thrown food away. It's not easy to be a mommy and try to lose weight! I have a 15 month old baby girl and went from 217 to 148 and now have baby #2 on the way and am thinking how to keep from hitting the evil 217 again.

    I just found your blog and look forward to following your journey.

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  4. so proud of you for continuing on the conversation! Good for you for getting it all out there and good for you for coming to a common understanding that you both can work on!

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  5. Good job at talking about this to your hubby. Having a partner with you along this journey will help you SO much! Subway is our fast food, too!

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  6. Girl, way to be strong enough to toss the cookies out. I know we have all been there. It's good that you were able to talk it out with your husband so that you're both on the same page. Keep your head up!

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  7. I´m glad you talked it out with the hubby, sometimes we just need to hear some positive reinforcement, someone that can tell us "You can do this"!!! Good job on getting rid of the cookies :)

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