Weigh In and September Goals

Well it wasn't good but it did go in the right direction. I am down .2 from last week. I can do much better than that. I did my morning workout and let me tell you I really enjoyed it! It was so nice getting it out of the way and gave me energy all through the day. I think I will tick to this as long as hubby agrees to keep taking Grace to daycare 3 mornings a week. In the mornigs the gym is quiet so I used the machines in the main area. They have "Hoist" machines that move with you - they say it is less stress on your body and you stay in correct positioning without over doing it.

My eating has not been on point today but I did buy a new paid of jeans in a 14! I am so happy to finally say good bye to my 16's! They were so baggy assed but I didn't want to spend too much on new jeans. Old Navy had some of the ones I like on the clearance rack and I had an extra 25% off so I got them for just under $15 =) I love a good deal and they fit great!

I have never really set monthly goals but I thought I would give it a go this month. I want to lose 5 pounds and workout 3 days/week minimum. I have also decided to start eating Weight Watchers again. I want an eating plan that will transfer to pregnancy easy without anyone noticing ;) The main thing is that I need to track! It is really the most important part of WW - I must track!

At the Movies

Hubby and I had an impropmtu date tonight. My parents called the other night and asked if they could take Grace to the fair (PNE) tonight. She had asked on Sunday if they would take her and since they are off for the long weekend they asked if tonight would work. We jumped at the chance to use some of the movie passes I got for my birthday and went and saw "The Expendables 2". I know it's not an ideal movie but it was really entertaining! If you are looking for something kinda funny and action packed than this would be the movie for you or your hubby ;)

We skipped dinner and pigged out on popcorn and some candy. Not a great idea when I weight in tomorrow but there is nothing I can do about it now. I will be trying my morning workout routine tomorrow. Yvon will be on his own getting Grace ready and to daycare - I think he can do it ;p I am looking forward to mixing things up. I was listening to the raido this morning and they were interviewing a diet book author (something about OMG - I can't remember) and he was saying that working out in the moring before you eat is best as you burn only fat. This happens because there is nothing else in your system to burn....hopefully there is some truth to this!

Birthday Weekend

Well I had an amazing birthday weekend1 So much more than I expected and I loved all of it! It started with an amazing day at the PNE with my lovely daughter and husband. It was so much fun taking her on all the rides! She just thought it was great! This was followed by a small surprise party held by my brother and sister-in-law. They invited 3 other couples and we all went for a really nice dinner and drinks. This was followed Sunday by a really yummy family dinner. I was really not digging turning 30....but it is really alright. I ate what I wanted and tried to move as much as possible which left me at the same weight I was when this all started. I am even making progress this week and have gotten my eating back on track.

I have been trying to give up diet pop for some time now but I can't find anything to replace it with....I really like having something in the evening (especially on the weekends) when we sit down to watch tv. Any suggestions?

I got back to the gym today and it felt so good! I did just over 30 minutes on the elyptical and then one round of the machines in the womans section. I think this is what I am going to make my routine. I may switch it up with the treadmill occassionally but I have really started to like the elyptical. I was resistant to it at first but it is such a good workout! I love the sweat I get going in just a short amount of time.

I am sad to see our long nights shortening quickly but I am looking forward to slightly cooler weather and some better sleep. I hope you are all enjoying the last days of summer!

Festivities

The birthday festivities are starting early and I have also got my period! This has not been an easy week to say the least. I am trying to stay on track but it has not been easy. I have managed 2 workouts but forgot my shoes on the third day and had a massage therapy appointment today. Hubby and the kid are staying home tomorrow and I am getting up and going for my workout. I really need to get atleast one more in before the weekend.

To celebrate my birthday we are taking our daughter to The PNE. It's our summer fair and I am so excited to get her on some of the rides. It should be a really good time full of some really shitty food. There are mini donuts and a plethora or fried foods. I know I will be eating some - I will not lie to you. This is the one time of year I can get min donuts and I will not turn them down.

Tuesday morning my mom and I will be restarting the 17 day diet together. I do not know if my mom will follow as strictly but I need to get those last pounds off before we start trying for baby number 2 in October. I do not know that I will make it to 165 but I really do not want to wait anymore. I am having a hard time waiting until then to be quite honest but I know I need to get more weight off so it will not be the same struggle again.

Still here!

We have had a long couple of days and quite honestly when I sit down at the end of the night I consider blogging and then.....I just sit here. Couple of nights I was eating ice cream. Today - not so much. I have cut out pop again and I have a killer headache! It started just before I got to the gym for my workout and has not slowed down. Luckily my lovely husband looked after bath and bed for our adorable daughter tonight!

It is my 30th birthday on saturday and quite honestly I am not that excited. It will be a busy week full of food and I am just going to do the best I can with it. I did manage to lose the weight I gained on holiday and even got .4 ahead. That felt good. I am pretty sure I blew it this weekend but got right back on track today. I feel with pop I am bloating myself and it just makes me want to eat crap. I will still occassionally have one because I am not much of a drinker and I do not really like only having water when we go out.

Today I branched out at the gym and did some light work on the machines. My body seems to respond quickly to weights - I am hoping this will help spur my progress along.

Crap

That is what I ate today. I went to the store and lunch and totally ate crap.... I am so ashamed but I am going to share. For lunch today I ate  glazed doughnut, chocolate chip muffin and a kit kat. Seriously folks that is what I ate. What the fuck (sorry for the language but you saw what I ate) was I thinking/doing? I apparently do not want to lose weight.....

I was pleased that I got my shit together enough to go for a 40 minute spin on the elyptical after work. It felt so good. I had dinner at the in-laws - not great but not terrible. I did manage to "get rid of" the remaining icecream.  I am seriously just.......I do not know what to say.

Tomorrow is a new day and I really need to make better choices if I want to lose this weight before I get pregnant again and make things even more difficult.

On another note I really need to revamp my blog - all of you have such pretty sites and mine has been the same forever and a day! I just need to figure out how to do it. My husband is watching a terrible show and I think I will take this time to play.

Tomorrow will be a better day full of better choices.

Still Coasting

I do not know what I am stuck on right now but I cannot pice together a whole good day! This is rediculous - the worst part? the more I eat the worse I feel and the more I WANT to eat. I am even slipping into the terrifying habit of secret eating. I am pretty sure this is how I gained all of this weight and why I cannot get rid of it.

Do you eat in secret? Any suggestions on dealing with it?

This week we have family photos - I won them from one of the women who took our wedding photos 5 years ago! I am kind of excited but it is dampened by the fact that I do not look as I wish....I am going to get my make up done so that should help with part of it but I am so unhappy with my body right now. I did get to the gym today and I will be going Tueday and Wednesday to help as much as possible. I feel so much better when I workout. My eating was great until I got home and was alone...

Back on the Horse?

I have been back from vacation for almost one week. I have not managed to be one track for one day yet. I am really struggling with myself - I just keep eating crap. I manage to have at least one good meal per day but I can't seem to really get past that. My best was 2....not good enough. I did get one really nice workout in but again it is not enough. Must get my act together. Luckily I only gained just under 2 pounds but I am sure after my wreck of a day today it will be worse.

I feel like there is a mental block for me getting past this point. Why do I continue to sabotage myself? I think this is a question that a lot of us are asking? What is the answer? I think it might be different for all of us.

I was feeling good leaving on vacation but I was very disappointed when I saw pictures of myself. I see my face......but it isn't my face. It is some bloated fat chick - who is she? I really need to find the face that I recognize again.