Stress

I had a very stressful day today at work and I am please to say that I did not let it get the best of me! I went for a short walk and a quick tan (just trying to get  a base for Vegas) and I felt much better. I was hoping some of the annoying things at work would have changed while I was away - no luck! My direct manager has been slacking off and then she lies about it. I am her main fill in while she is away and usually end up seeing how backed up she is.....needless to say I had a talk with our boss today about how she is not pulling her weight! The most annoying part is we just had a meeting about all of this and she LIED right to all of our faces saying she was caught up and doing what she was supposed to do!  I don't like cleaning up others messes - when I go away I make sure that I am caught up and I try and get extra done so I am not overwhelming someone else....I have done what I can about this and need to just move on.

I don't know if I have mentioned on here before that about 1 year after I reached goal I started working for WW - I was using it as a way to help keep on track. I learned so much about people and their weight loss as I talked to them for a couple of minutes a week - I felt invested in their weight loss but lost sight of mine. I loved working there but I got overwhelmed with full time work and then too many fill in shifts on top of my regular meeting. I started gaining weight and I could not get anywhere. I couldn't get my footing - so I decided to stop working there and rejoin as a member myself, I felt a lot of pressure because I had worked at almost every meeting in my city. I felt like everyone was watching me......I seem to have all the answers, I just don't seem to be able to put them in motion for myself. I couldn't then and I am still struggling now. I have been doing better but I still struggle to make the "right" choices. One day at a time I am trying to put that knowledge  to good use.