I Did It....

I went back to WW this morning to start my 3 free postnatal months as a lifetime member. I was really hoping the policy hadn't changed! Well it was scary but I am happy I did it - not so happy to see my weight but I got on the scale. The number I saw was 202.8....yuck. Highest weight at WW for me. I have 52.8 pounds to lose to get back to my WW goal weight and really where I would like to be. I could and have been smaller but 150 is really my ideal weight. I can't focus on such a large number at this point - I just need to work this off pound by pound. I will track and get my activity while making better choices.

I had an amazing vacation with my family but I am always happy to be home and back in my own space. I love going away but always look forward to my own space. We were away with my inlaws which is nice because my daughter adores them and they are always willing to get up with her =) The downfall is always having someone else around and no real time for yourself.

I bought some good groceries last night but I am worried about keeping the chocolate bar out of my cart. I know I can still have one but the problem is I have been having too many....and they have been big ones. I found/find myself wanting to just eat crap....I thought this would improve as Matt started sleeping more but it doesn't seem to be helping. I am hoping with more exercise and better choices this will calm down.

Well tomorrow is my birthday so I wont be tracking but I will on Monday and I will let you know how it goes!

1 Week

1 week until I rejoin weight watchers and finally lose all of this baby weight. We are leaving on holiday for a week on Monday and on Saturday morning I will weigh in for the first time officially. I have jumped back over 200....I was never going to weigh that again. I don't know where it all went to shit but it did and I need to get a hold of it again. I have been eating like crap and I really feel it. I have been moving more but not enough for all the junk I have eaten.

So, I will be going to Weight Watchers and taking advantage of being a lifetime member and 3 free months after baby. I don't know that I will stay with WW after the 3 months as money is always a little tighter while on mat leave. I know I won't be down to my lifetime as that is just over 50lbs. at this point. I will be following the plan 7 days a week - not 4 or 5 like I have in the past.....the whole week! I will also be moving more. I have been debating about canceling my gym membership. Being on leave it is difficult to get to the gym. I am home all day with both kids and just don't feel comfortable taking the kids to the care at the gym. I think I might cancel and just do stuff at home. I have everything I need here. I could go when my husband gets home but then there is no time to spend as a family and I am still breast feeding so leaving Matt for too long can be hard.

I am also cleaning up my blog, the look is too much for me. Bear with me I am not good at this stuff! You would think I was 95 not almost 31.... ;) I am also looking for some new blogs to read - please leave me a suggestion of your favorite so I can expand my reading list!

I will be away for the week but back at it on Saturday August 24....one day before my birthday :)

And Then There Were Four!

On June 12, 2013 at 4:56 we welcomed Matthew into our family. After a very crazy, scary delivery our beautiful baby boy entered this world with all 10 fingers and toes!

It has been a crazy 5 weeks of adjusting to being a family of 4 but I would not trade it for anything. I decided to keep Grace (our 3 year old) in daycare for 6 weeks. I have until the end of the month to spend some great time bonding with my amazing sun before we turn the world upside down and I have 2 kids at home. It will be an adjustment but I am really looking forward to enjoying the rest of the summer with my daughter. I am just hoping I can find enough to keep her busy!

Weight wise things are going okay. I finished my pregnancy at 227 lbs. What a terrifying number....I could not believe the number.....I am now down to 197.7. I have been lower but now that the fluid ( I apparently had loads!) is all gone I am starting to struggle a little. It has everything to do with what I have been eating and the fact that I am still not moving much. After a very hard pregnancy and crazy delivery I am slow and sore. I just feel so out of shape! Things will change when my daughter is home because I won't be able to eat the crap I have been eating because she is not allowed to eat that way. I really need to eat more like my daughter does! I feed my child so healthy and then I eat crap after she goes to bed. A good excuse is that I am REALLY tired, but excuses aside after my 6 week check on Wednesday I need to get my shit together.

I am afraid that I will not lose the weight......I didn't manage to lose it with my daughter and I can't fail again....

9 Weeks Out

I can't believe I only have 9 more weeks to go! I also can't believe I have MORE weeks to go. I am tired and sore and would like to get to the end. I have a lot to do until the baby comes so the 9 weeks is a good thing. I feel like I can't get it all done - partially because I have been pretty lazy in my down time.

Yesterday we had Grace's 3rd birthday party and it was great! It was cold and a little wet but she had a blast and loved that all of her little friends came! I have learned my lesson and from now on Grace's birthday parties will all be held indoors. April is such a fickle month.

As the end of this pregnancy nears I have become more comfortable with the ideas of post baby weight loss. I have been thinking more and more seriously about the activity I want to do and what I will be eating. I have been eating A LOT of chips during this pregnancy. That is something I will need to change. I have decided to start back with Weight Watchers Online after about 3-6 weeks. I started back in meeting too soon after Grace and ended up discouraged. There was still too much going on and I just couldn't get my shit together. This time it has to be different and I will really have to put the effort in.

GD Free!

I finally had my doctors appointment today and I do not have gestational diabetes! I was starting to worry! Everything is good and healthy with me and the baby and no surprise to me but the baby is measuring 2 weeks ahead! I knew this was going to be another big baby! Grace was 9 lbs when she was born.

On that topic - my baby girl is going to be 3 tomorrow! I can't believe it has been 3 years already....

 

 

I have taken tomorrow off to prepare for her birthday party on Saturday. She is so excited for all her little friends to come to her birthday party :)

 

I have planned  a simple party with some very kid friendly foods.

 

At my doctors appointment I hit 212 - wow that is a scary number in print for me. This is the heaviest I have ever been. I know it is baby but it still really freaks me out. I was 210 at home so that is 18 pounds total at 30 weeks. I am hoping to keep this under control for the next 10 weeks. I have been making a real effort to pick the right foods. One of the ladies I work with is doing a juice fast with her husband and it has me thinking again about getting a juicer. I know it is best to eat the fruit or vegetable but it couldn't hurt to get some extra in all of us - especially when  I start nursing. I need to do some research and finally make up my mind. I go between smoothies and juicing and I know either would be a good choice. Anyone have any real pros or cons on either?

Walking

I got out for a walk yesterday and it felt so good =) I really should say waddle.....This time last pregnancy and I was still walking around like a non-pregnant lady, 7 miles around the sea wall and I was fine. I can barely make it around the block this time. It felt good at the time but I think I am still paying for it today.

I said I was going to take a pic of this giant belly - well the hubby did without me noticing so here it is:

 

I cannot believe how big my belly is!

 

 

I have another ultrasound on Monday to make sure the baby is growin properly. I can't remember if I mentioned but I have a cord abnormality - there are supposed to be two arteries and one vein and mine only has one arterie. This can lead to smaller babies in some cases. Grace was 9 pounds and honestly if this one was a little smaller I wouldn't be disappointed ;)

 

Since I was playing around in the pcitures I figured I would leave you one more of my adorable little girl enjoying some nice weather over Easter weekend! I can't believe she is going to be 3 on Friday!

 

 

Blob

That is how I feel. I deeparately miss working out and I am feeling so slow. Most of me aches and the rest of me just doesn't really want to be moved. I have been trying to eat right and drink lots of water but this baby must be huge because I feel like all I can do is eat a little and then eat again and again and again.

I have been trying to think of different ways to move but everything leaves my lady bits sore. There doesn't seem to be a single exercise that doesn't bother me. Even just lifting some light weights seems to have a negative effect at this point. This has been so frustrating!

I haven't heard anything from the doctor about my GD test so I am hoping that is a good sign. Who knows for sure. This baby seems enormous so I can't be sure! Grace was 9 pounds and I don't remember feeling this big! This baby is so far outfront I can't believe it! I need to take a pic to show you guys the size of this belly!