WI Tomorrow

Weigh in tomorrow morning....I am a little nervous. I have had a great week except for today. We took the kids to the fair today and ate some really good crap! I am really hoping I didn't blow a good week in one day. I ate well for breakfast and lunch to help with what I knew I was going eat. It's once a year and really....it is SO good!

I am starting to feel a difference with the way I am eating. I just feel clearer and livelier. It's such a good feeling. I just need to amp up the activity this week. I miss working out but I haven't been able to motivate myself to get back to the gym or anything else for that matter. I have been doing some walking but our weather has been dicey lately and we haven't gotten a rain cover for the new stroller yet. The hubs and I have worked it out that we alternate bed/bath time with Grace and the other takes Matt for a walk. We had such a beautiful July but August has been touch and go. I am hoping to get out some more this long weekend but my parents are moving so we will have to see how it goes.

I forgot to take my measurements last week but I will do it tomorrow. It's always good to be able to count the changes in more than one way ;) I can't wait for this mommy tummy to shrink - my daughter keeps asking me why my tummy is so big.....gotta love a kids honesty....or hide in your car and eat a chocolate bar. I am very proud to say I haven't let myself do that - emotional eating sucks! I am a secret eater - you would usually be able to find hidden wrappers in my car or around my spot on the couch. I am always trying to hide the wrappers because I don't want anyone knowing what I am doing. Why is that you may ask? Well you probably all know, my guess is most of you have been there too. Eating something because you can, knowing you shouldn't and feeling like shit right after you do. The guilt I feel when I do this is stupid, I should never feel guilty for anything I eat. I should also never eat crap just because. I don't need a king size chocolate bar or a big bag of chips. If I want chocolate I can either have a bar or go and get a piece from Purdy's and count the points. Same with chips or anything else I might be "sneaking". Get my portion, get the points and count it.

Well I am pooped. Wish me a good weigh in tomorrow!

Putting It Together

I feel like I have some traction right now. I again had a very good day. I used some of my extra points for my treat tonight. I probably didn't need as much as I had but it was what I wanted. I had another successful trip to the store! I did not buy a chocolate or any other kind of treat- o proud of myself :)

I had a stressful day and again I did not let it get to me. I really thought about scarfing something down to make it all better as I normally would but I didn`t, I had a regular snack and just let it go. I was hoping to get some exercise but it didn`t really happen. I had errands to run this morning and then it was nap time for the kids. My inlaws picked my daughter up early but my son was still asleep so no time for a walk - I worked on the dishwasher instead....I know I can do better tomorrow.

Plan for tomorrow is to walk to the mall just up the street as I have a pair of shoes to return - this will get me about 45 minutes of good walking while pushing a stroller with about 58 or 59 pounds of kids. It should make for decent activity. The stroller just seems to get heavier by the day!

When we were away on vacation I picked up a box of peaches and they are so good! I have been eating 1 or 2 a day and I don`t know what I am going to do when I run out :( The season is so short, I figure my inlaws will be able to bring me back one more box when they go this weekend and then that will probably be it. I guess I will have to move onto the new crop apples. I love fresh fruit that is actually in season!

Tracking

Hello All! I am quite pleased with myself today! I had a great day on program and it feels so good. I even had some points left at the end of the day to have a treat =) I measured and tracked and it was just a great feeling. I used my iPhone app for tracking and it is a nice way of doing things. It makes it so easy.

Today I took both kids grocery shopping on my own. I know it shouldn't be a big deal but my lovely little girl wants to touch everything! I luckily got my son to sleep through all of it but as soon as Grace was done her cookie things got frustrating! I have to say I really wanted to grab a chocolate bar to scarf down in the car! I am very proud to say I didn't! I find myself thinking it will solve something...I know it won't but these habits are so hard to break. I left the store very proud of myself and feeling good. I managed to keep that feeling all day as I made good choices.

I wasn't thrilled with my activity today but I can work on that tomorrow. A walk with a 3 year old isn't very strenuous - those little legs just don't move that fast! Tomorrow I can get a walk on my own and the inlaws are picking Grace up early for dinner and I will walk over with Matt. Do I get extra points for pushing a stroller? If I have both kids it's an extra 50lbs or so! I think that should count for something ;)

I Did It....

I went back to WW this morning to start my 3 free postnatal months as a lifetime member. I was really hoping the policy hadn't changed! Well it was scary but I am happy I did it - not so happy to see my weight but I got on the scale. The number I saw was 202.8....yuck. Highest weight at WW for me. I have 52.8 pounds to lose to get back to my WW goal weight and really where I would like to be. I could and have been smaller but 150 is really my ideal weight. I can't focus on such a large number at this point - I just need to work this off pound by pound. I will track and get my activity while making better choices.

I had an amazing vacation with my family but I am always happy to be home and back in my own space. I love going away but always look forward to my own space. We were away with my inlaws which is nice because my daughter adores them and they are always willing to get up with her =) The downfall is always having someone else around and no real time for yourself.

I bought some good groceries last night but I am worried about keeping the chocolate bar out of my cart. I know I can still have one but the problem is I have been having too many....and they have been big ones. I found/find myself wanting to just eat crap....I thought this would improve as Matt started sleeping more but it doesn't seem to be helping. I am hoping with more exercise and better choices this will calm down.

Well tomorrow is my birthday so I wont be tracking but I will on Monday and I will let you know how it goes!

1 Week

1 week until I rejoin weight watchers and finally lose all of this baby weight. We are leaving on holiday for a week on Monday and on Saturday morning I will weigh in for the first time officially. I have jumped back over 200....I was never going to weigh that again. I don't know where it all went to shit but it did and I need to get a hold of it again. I have been eating like crap and I really feel it. I have been moving more but not enough for all the junk I have eaten.

So, I will be going to Weight Watchers and taking advantage of being a lifetime member and 3 free months after baby. I don't know that I will stay with WW after the 3 months as money is always a little tighter while on mat leave. I know I won't be down to my lifetime as that is just over 50lbs. at this point. I will be following the plan 7 days a week - not 4 or 5 like I have in the past.....the whole week! I will also be moving more. I have been debating about canceling my gym membership. Being on leave it is difficult to get to the gym. I am home all day with both kids and just don't feel comfortable taking the kids to the care at the gym. I think I might cancel and just do stuff at home. I have everything I need here. I could go when my husband gets home but then there is no time to spend as a family and I am still breast feeding so leaving Matt for too long can be hard.

I am also cleaning up my blog, the look is too much for me. Bear with me I am not good at this stuff! You would think I was 95 not almost 31.... ;) I am also looking for some new blogs to read - please leave me a suggestion of your favorite so I can expand my reading list!

I will be away for the week but back at it on Saturday August 24....one day before my birthday :)