FML....

I mean it....my 4 month old and I have Hand, Foot and Mouth. This fucking sucks! Excuse my language but this is so ridiculous and annoying. I had a terrible migraine for 2 days with a sore throat that I thought was going to kill me and just when I thought I was over it I started getting these little bumps in my lip and then on my fingers. My little man has been a real trooper but I have banished my sweet 3 year old in hopes that she won't get this too. She drives me nuts a lot of the times but I really miss having her around. Being cooped up is also really terrible - I feel like a leper. I can't even kiss my little girl =(

Well needless to say I am not getting much activity. I took my little man for a short walk today but this took it's toll on my energy levels. I actually went to the naturopath for some help with my "baby brain". It is so bad I forgot the date I scheduled for myself....like I make the schedule! I felt like such an idiot. I managed to make it work but still....

Needless to say I will not be able to get to WW this week - I have to stay away from people until Tuesday-Wednesday depending on how the sores heal. I will hop on my scale and hopefully see a difference. I really need to get things going again as NONE of my pants fit.....this sucks. For Thanksgiving I had to buy some leggings so I didn't have to wear any maternity stuff. Everything I wear is stretchy....I miss my jeans and I refuse to buy more!

Insiration and Motivation

I need these things badly! My 31 day challenge is 8 days in and I haven't done anything I set out to do. My month started off with my 3 year old getting sick and then me. I have not been able to get myself back on track since. I am very frustrated with myself. I keep thinking about all the things that I need to do while I shove something terrible in my mouth and ignore what I am thinking.

I know what I need to do. I know how to lose weight - I have done this quite successfully in the past. Since having my daughter I have really struggled with weight loss. I seem to binge eat more than I ever remember in the past. I am going to the naturopath on Saturday to see if there is something hormonal that is causing this. I am really looking for any excuse as to why I am failing so miserably...

If anyone out there has a good blog they can recommend I would appreciate it! Most of the people I have followed in the past aren't blogging anymore and I could use some inspiration!

31 Day Challenge

I am challenging myself to 30 days on program (WW) with daily exercise. I bought myself a new Jillian DVD that is a kick boxing workout. I will be tracking daily...good and bad and I will be doing one of my dvds every day. Even Sundays. I need this to kick my lazy ass into gear.

I will be posting my weight and measurements tomorrow night and I will update my weight weekly and my measurement at the end of the month. I will also be posting more often. I started off strong getting back on program but I have really let things slip again. I find myself eating when I am alone...binging really. I just can't get a grip on things. I am so tired all the time and I just let it rule my life. I make sure I get outside with the kids everyday but it just isn't enough. I am not pushing myself. If I stopped by eating what I have with my daughter for lunch and dinner things would be going great...but I am not. I am eating so much crap...it is really a shitty cycle that I need to break.

I can't wait to see what this does for my body....hopefully I can finally start to get rid of all this extra. I have all this extra stuff left over from my pregnancy. I am only about 8-10 pounds from where I was when I got pregnant but my body just does not feel like my own anymore. I need to find my body - not what I had or have had in the past but just something I can feel good and comfortable in.

Anyone else looking for a challenge?

It's Moving!

The scale is moving in the right direction! I was down 1.8! I know it isn't a huge loss but I had my birthday and a day at the fair eating whatever I want in this week and I still lost. It put a big smile on my face and hop in my step.

We had a great long weekend and enjoyed some fun in the sun and some great company. I ate more crap than I should have but I counted it and I have moved on. I definitely find it easier to eat well during the week. The chips don't seem to come out and the meals are more scheduled. I did well but I could have done better. Something to work on this week.

I have been getting more activity in. My hubby and I are trading off so we can both get moving. We have a route that we both take (so we know where the other is). It's about 45 minutes and has a couple of small hills. I am sweaty and feel great by the time I get home. I have been debating about going back to the gym. I know people call it mom guilt but I just don't want to give up that time with both kids. At least I have Matt with my when I am walking. I just don't know if I can get enough of a workout at home. I don't know......

September is going to be a crazy month for us. My little girl is starting preschool and gymnastics in the same week. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I know she is ready but her listening leaves some to be desired....I just hope she will listen to her teachers better than she listens to us! I am excited to see her blossom - she is such a spitfire and I hope that never changes.

WI Tomorrow

Weigh in tomorrow morning....I am a little nervous. I have had a great week except for today. We took the kids to the fair today and ate some really good crap! I am really hoping I didn't blow a good week in one day. I ate well for breakfast and lunch to help with what I knew I was going eat. It's once a year and really....it is SO good!

I am starting to feel a difference with the way I am eating. I just feel clearer and livelier. It's such a good feeling. I just need to amp up the activity this week. I miss working out but I haven't been able to motivate myself to get back to the gym or anything else for that matter. I have been doing some walking but our weather has been dicey lately and we haven't gotten a rain cover for the new stroller yet. The hubs and I have worked it out that we alternate bed/bath time with Grace and the other takes Matt for a walk. We had such a beautiful July but August has been touch and go. I am hoping to get out some more this long weekend but my parents are moving so we will have to see how it goes.

I forgot to take my measurements last week but I will do it tomorrow. It's always good to be able to count the changes in more than one way ;) I can't wait for this mommy tummy to shrink - my daughter keeps asking me why my tummy is so big.....gotta love a kids honesty....or hide in your car and eat a chocolate bar. I am very proud to say I haven't let myself do that - emotional eating sucks! I am a secret eater - you would usually be able to find hidden wrappers in my car or around my spot on the couch. I am always trying to hide the wrappers because I don't want anyone knowing what I am doing. Why is that you may ask? Well you probably all know, my guess is most of you have been there too. Eating something because you can, knowing you shouldn't and feeling like shit right after you do. The guilt I feel when I do this is stupid, I should never feel guilty for anything I eat. I should also never eat crap just because. I don't need a king size chocolate bar or a big bag of chips. If I want chocolate I can either have a bar or go and get a piece from Purdy's and count the points. Same with chips or anything else I might be "sneaking". Get my portion, get the points and count it.

Well I am pooped. Wish me a good weigh in tomorrow!

Putting It Together

I feel like I have some traction right now. I again had a very good day. I used some of my extra points for my treat tonight. I probably didn't need as much as I had but it was what I wanted. I had another successful trip to the store! I did not buy a chocolate or any other kind of treat- o proud of myself :)

I had a stressful day and again I did not let it get to me. I really thought about scarfing something down to make it all better as I normally would but I didn`t, I had a regular snack and just let it go. I was hoping to get some exercise but it didn`t really happen. I had errands to run this morning and then it was nap time for the kids. My inlaws picked my daughter up early but my son was still asleep so no time for a walk - I worked on the dishwasher instead....I know I can do better tomorrow.

Plan for tomorrow is to walk to the mall just up the street as I have a pair of shoes to return - this will get me about 45 minutes of good walking while pushing a stroller with about 58 or 59 pounds of kids. It should make for decent activity. The stroller just seems to get heavier by the day!

When we were away on vacation I picked up a box of peaches and they are so good! I have been eating 1 or 2 a day and I don`t know what I am going to do when I run out :( The season is so short, I figure my inlaws will be able to bring me back one more box when they go this weekend and then that will probably be it. I guess I will have to move onto the new crop apples. I love fresh fruit that is actually in season!

Tracking

Hello All! I am quite pleased with myself today! I had a great day on program and it feels so good. I even had some points left at the end of the day to have a treat =) I measured and tracked and it was just a great feeling. I used my iPhone app for tracking and it is a nice way of doing things. It makes it so easy.

Today I took both kids grocery shopping on my own. I know it shouldn't be a big deal but my lovely little girl wants to touch everything! I luckily got my son to sleep through all of it but as soon as Grace was done her cookie things got frustrating! I have to say I really wanted to grab a chocolate bar to scarf down in the car! I am very proud to say I didn't! I find myself thinking it will solve something...I know it won't but these habits are so hard to break. I left the store very proud of myself and feeling good. I managed to keep that feeling all day as I made good choices.

I wasn't thrilled with my activity today but I can work on that tomorrow. A walk with a 3 year old isn't very strenuous - those little legs just don't move that fast! Tomorrow I can get a walk on my own and the inlaws are picking Grace up early for dinner and I will walk over with Matt. Do I get extra points for pushing a stroller? If I have both kids it's an extra 50lbs or so! I think that should count for something ;)